[ Yeah Ben is just. Scrubbing at his hair now. Trying to decide where and when he fucked up. Like, he's been around plenty of girls before. And boys!!! Plenty of objectively attractive people who he could recognize were attractive.
And then there was that soft girl at camp with curves and a nice laugh who'd leaned in and--
This makes no sense. This definitely makes no sense because when he thinks back to that moment all he can see and feel is Rey and there's no reason for him to be attracted to her. Maybe he really is broken.
He spends at least 5 minutes of the shower just scrubbing at his skin and trying to just-- exfoliate those feelings away. At least he's gonna have nice baby soft skin from sloughing off all the dead skin cells. And the rest is dedicated to getting his hair into order.
Putting on his clothes has never felt more like a death sentence. He's preparing himself for the lecture, the long lecture on how he's just confused and mistaken and maybe he should just go back to living with his mother because now he's definitely a predator and what he felt-- feels??? is proof enough that he's a monster and--
Shower is finished. The water stops and he tries not to listen for any voices (Is Chewie snoring already??). Clothes are slipped back on and he enters
The arena.
And it's looking Y I K E S.
At least his hair is back to it's normal self.
'How considerate of you to try and save some water for the rest of us.'
Ben's just. Quiet. And looking ready to run off the ship. Someone take mercy on him and end his life.
'Change of sleeping arrangements, kid. Looks like I'm your dancing partner tonight.'
Like he didn't see that coming. It's the rational thing to do. And because he's not a 16 year old disney princess his reaction isn't "BUT DADDY I LOVE HER!!!!" It's: ]
Okay.
[ Which-- Isn't the most inspiring response. But. He's not about to fight this and make it look like he's Fighting his father to fuck a kid. Which is a disturbing thought on it's own because he wASN"T EVEN THINKING ABOUT FUCKING HER AND NOW HIS LIFE IS JUST A BALL OF CONFUSION.
And this is exactly why han had concerns. Not for Rey but for Ben. ]
I took a picture and I will post it later today so you can see his kawaii hostage skills
And then there was that soft girl at camp with curves and a nice laugh who'd leaned in and--
This makes no sense. This definitely makes no sense because when he thinks back to that moment all he can see and feel is Rey and there's no reason for him to be attracted to her. Maybe he really is broken.
He spends at least 5 minutes of the shower just scrubbing at his skin and trying to just-- exfoliate those feelings away. At least he's gonna have nice baby soft skin from sloughing off all the dead skin cells. And the rest is dedicated to getting his hair into order.
Putting on his clothes has never felt more like a death sentence. He's preparing himself for the lecture, the long lecture on how he's just confused and mistaken and maybe he should just go back to living with his mother because now he's definitely a predator and what he felt-- feels??? is proof enough that he's a monster and--
Shower is finished. The water stops and he tries not to listen for any voices (Is Chewie snoring already??). Clothes are slipped back on and he enters
The arena.
And it's looking Y I K E S.
At least his hair is back to it's normal self.
'How considerate of you to try and save some water for the rest of us.'
Ben's just. Quiet. And looking ready to run off the ship. Someone take mercy on him and end his life.
'Change of sleeping arrangements, kid. Looks like I'm your dancing partner tonight.'
Like he didn't see that coming. It's the rational thing to do. And because he's not a 16 year old disney princess his reaction isn't "BUT DADDY I LOVE HER!!!!" It's: ]
Okay.
[ Which-- Isn't the most inspiring response. But. He's not about to fight this and make it look like he's Fighting his father to fuck a kid. Which is a disturbing thought on it's own because he wASN"T EVEN THINKING ABOUT FUCKING HER AND NOW HIS LIFE IS JUST A BALL OF CONFUSION.
And this is exactly why han had concerns. Not for Rey but for Ben. ]