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Ben Solo
Kylo Ren

The protein shakes, where are they?

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GENERAL PROMPTS

Redemption arc: Kylo leaving the First Order. Due to either slow burn reasons (Figuring out holy shit I don't want this) or Immediate Issues That Need Solving (Rey's kidnapped, Hux turns on him, etcetc)

Re-adjusting to life in the light/in the Resistance. Whether it goes smoothly or Rough is up to the situation

Early First Order Days. Especially when Snoke was breaking his Ben Solo identity

Ben Solo Pre-First Order

Ben Solo as the most obnoxious Resistance Member idek

Jedi Hippie camp with Luke

BEN AND HIS FAMILY

👌👀👌👀👌👀👌👀👌👀 good shit go౦ԁ sHit👌 thats ✔ some good👌👌shit right👌👌there👌👌👌 right✔there ✔✔if i do ƽaү so my self 💯 i say so 💯 thats what im talking about right there right there (chorus: ʳᶦᵍʰᵗ ᵗʰᵉʳᵉ) mMMMMᎷМ💯 👌👌 👌НO0ОଠOOOOOОଠଠOoooᵒᵒᵒᵒᵒᵒᵒᵒᵒ👌 👌👌 👌 💯 👌 👀 👀 👀 👌👌Good shit

Becoming king of Porgs and other cute creatures and he doesn't understand why

Becoming his father's son

Also being just like his mother

AND ALSO BEING JUST LIKE LUKE

Rey convinces Kylo to come with her and join the Resistance. The resulting tension and rebuilding of trust in him... As well as Jedi training with her

Interactions with his mother, whether it be from the above scenario, or even reaching out through the force

Poe, Finn and the rest of the Resistance reacting to kylo switching sides. Poe hitting on Kylo and having to give him tons of dumb nicknames because Ren only wants his mom and Rey to call him ben

Kylo being a weird Scary Older Brother to the entire Resistance.

Kylo and Anakin. KYLO AND KENOBI

Discussions/threads with Han Luke and Leia- discussion forgiveness and mistakes

Rebuilding the Jedi Order

Post War Threads

Kylo Ren disappears mysteriously from the war after major internal strife causes the downfall of the First Order. Someone comes across Ben Solo in hiding years later

Kylo on Jakku complaining its hot as balls. Look. I don't know. I'm just saying it would be hilarious

Drunk texts are the best don't tell me otherwise

SHIPPY PROMPTS
SHIPS I AM DOWN FOR
Kylo/Rey hands down

If ur sittin there readin this going "Oh no but so many Reys are bugging them I don't wanna be annoying" I don't fucking care TAG ME

Hand touching

I love you. I know.

Forcebond shenanigans. Kylo or Rey reaching out to touch the other while the other one is busy (GOOD SHIT. GOOD SHIT)

Rey getting seriously injured and separated from the Resistance. Her only option is to force time Kylo

Kylo finding Rey on Ahch'to and them fucking around under luke's nose (Forcebond in person who knows)SMUT HUT

FORCEFULLY GIVING REY A BIRTHDAY AND MAKING HER CELEBRATE IT

Snoke tries to kill kylo in front of rey and it doesn't go like he plans

REY IN A GODDAMN DRESS AND KYLO ACTUALLY NOT KNOWING HOW TO REACT AT ALL

CLEANING HER DUMB HOUSE

Forcebond dreaming shenanigans. Especially if Rey or Kylo are stuck in one anothers nightmares.

Rey finding out how bad Snoke really was.

Visiting Ahch'to together

Empress Rey

Empress Rey Working to secretly undermine the first order

Meeting before TFA/in different circumstances

Fighting/sexual tension/beating each other up. u kno

Just re-enact Pride and Prejudice with me

Either one suffering from insomnia and helping the other sleep

Public Sex

Weird DubCon Sex (Rey taking advantage of Kylo I'm freely admitting to my trash)

SHIPS I AM MAYBE ON
Kylo/Poe: I'm not of the fanon that Ben or Poe knew each other as kids. If you want to play that, talk with me first, we'll need to hash out details. If you wanna do hateship, that's fine too. Again. I'd like to be consulted first
Kylo/Hux: This is such a huge maybe it's almost a no. I am not down for fluffy Kylo/Hux. I don't think Kylo or Hux secretly love each other and that takes form in them wanting to murder each other when they walk into a room and see each other. I do not think Kylo wants anything to do with Hux's dick Ever. I only see this happening as Hux taking advantage of Kylo when he's emotionally compromised and unprotected without Snoke keeping Hux in line.
So Kylux is only a "cool lets do it" if you are willing to play out something unhealthy, toxic, with a huge dose of hate and manipulation. Kylo/ANYONE ELSE: Not against pretty much any other ship, but Kylo's a hard dude to ship with for. A lot of reasons. Talk with me first, and I'll see if we can work something out.

CHARACTERS/CROSSOVERS

I'm fine with every and any star wars characters. If you are doing something from the EU I request that you just have enough info in your profile so I know what your character's deal is

AU characters are fine. I'm not really into Gender Bent characters (sorry y'all), again-- I just need info in your profile about the AU (Unless it's discussed w me before hand)

I Herald from disney princess beginnings. Give me all your princesses I think this combo is fucking hilarious

Brienne of Tarth because i'm still laughing about it

God I will add more later. Really just tag me.

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YES

text messages, actionspam, lengthy brackets, prose.

ous/ au/ all us tbh

previous meme or psl continuations / sequels / c&ping a starter i never replied to.

EMOTIONALLY HEAVY BULLSHIT

FLUFF

contact me if i drop a tag you want picked up

Angst

redemption arcs

intense emotionally heavy threads

Smut

general

hurt comfort

Kylo or Rey getting injured

Kylo being a huge fucking brat.

if there's anything you're not sure about, ask!

NO

Rape.

Dull RP.

Taking this character WAY TOO SERIOUSLY.

Me doing the work of moving a scene along

rape/non-con. Especially with Kylo as the aggressor (This can be changed with prior discussion and prior threading)

scatophilia, emetophiloa, necrophilia.

gender/sexuality play.

degradation involving racism or ablism.

power-gaming and ooc dick-measuring contests.

AUs with no information

OCs with no information

Maybe

Dub con

torture

killing

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Mental health

I know everyone and their mom with an armchair psychologist degree wants to diagnose Kylo Ren/Ben Solo with whatever mental illness checks all the boxes. I know Bipolar and Borderline personality disorder are two popular illnesses to cite when it comes to his mental health. Along with a healthy dose of citing him as a sociopath/psychopath. However, I'm not going to be using those illnesses/personality disorders in how I play Kylo. While they fit on paper, I don't believe "what's wrong with him" presents in the correct fashion in canon for any one of the above listed issues.

I believe Kylo Ren/Ben Solo is suffering from: Recurring Chronic Major Depression it could be passed down through their family given what we know of Anakin and what happened with Luke; Post Traumatic Stress Disorder From his force powers manifesting with him having little control over it as a kid, from being sent away to Luke after his mother couldn't handle him on her own anymore, from his father leaving one day and never coming back, from having a voice whispering in his head his entire life, from that voice being a predator who preyed on his weaknesses and molded him into what he wanted Ben to be, from Luke Skywalker holding a lightsaber above his head, from abuse after abuse from Snoke, and probably a Ton more. Abandonment issues stemming first from his parents (And quite probably friends he had who left for whatever reason, or bridges he burned on his own) and then just. The entire force tbh. And abandonment issues is where he gets his unchecked rage, he, in canon, is quite literally triggered into a rage whenever he confronts someone who he felt abandoned him, or when he feels rejected or left behind. Finally he is a victim of Brainwashing and indoctrination from Snoke. Snoke is a narcissist who was using Kylo as a means to an end, it's been stated and shown that he was ready to kill Kylo after the Last Jedi since he had become unbalanced and unpredictable. If you don't agree with what I am saying here (Which is fine :) ), then I suggest you don't play with me. I am fairly confident in this being the way I see and play Kylo.

I play him as having triggers. I won't get into the reasoning behind each one, but i'll specify the specifics which come to mind: Abandonment (Perceived or real), his family, loss of control (Physically, emotionally, mentally, through the force)

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⇒ forcevisions ⇒ "why couldn't I have met you earlier" AKA Luke didn't fuck up AKA Messy AU

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Pretentious visuals

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the fucking bible of a tag

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(Disclaimer of: Guess what, we both get to make up a lot of head canon and "What the fuck was really going on" so I hope ur ready to roll with it.

Ben is about 24 possibly gettin close to 25. So I guess that makes Rey 14 gettin' ready to hit 15. (JFC I had to change that i forgot they are an even 10 ish to 11 years apart) U want anything changed plz tell me)

[ It'd been a few months since the start of his "vacation".

A vacation Ben Solo was not happy about, quite frankly, it felt more like some strange punishment from his parents.

Jedi training had been-- going. Ben was gaining control over his powers more and more everyday, but that had come with the caveat of he was gaining in power everyday as well. Something which had unnerved his uncle, his uncle who had been far more mirthful when Ben had met him in his youth. A breath of fresh air compared to his stern mother and flighty father. Open and willing to tell the story of how they had saved the galaxy over and over and over (with sound effects! and customized voices!) no matter how many times he'd demanded it as a child.

Things had changed, however. Things always changed.

He was sent to Luke out of his mother's fear of him and the darkness growing in him. And Luke had quickly experienced what she had been living with. He'd curbed the fits, honed the raw potential in him-- but the darkness still lingered.

And one morning he had been awoken by Chewbacca, who'd dragged him to have breakfast. He thought he was hallucinating or that this was some trick by his uncle until he saw Luke Skywalker himself, sitting alone and looking... small and sad. Disappointed.

Ben had very little time to ponder on the sight before his father scruffed his hand through his hair and then he was sure he was hallucinating. He hadn't seen his father in years, but here he was. Not a holo or a distant voice. Solid and real and ...crying?

By the time his mother had arrived, lunch had become a spectacle. The other students wandered out to speak with Han Solo the rebel general (Which he insisted he wasn't, of course) and Ben was sure this was some strange dream. Much like the visions he'd been seeing during quiet times of day or in his deepest sleeps. But Leia swoops in all regal grace and gathers him in her arms and speaks apologies and begs for forgiveness.

'We'd left you alone for too long.'

He isn't sure what's happened, he's certain he's done something wrong no matter how often everyone insists he hasn't. And soon Chewbacca had guided him on to his father's ship and his things are being brought onboard with him.

His father and mother finally explain that he'll be spending sometime with Han. Just a bit until some things are taken care of, the fall out from the revelation that Anakin Skywalker and Darth Vader were one in the same had settled, and after Ben himself had been... 'rested'.

Whatever the hell that meant.

Luke-- looked older somehow. Exhausted. Ben realizes it was his doing. He'd caused something to shift in Luke. He was afraid to leave, afraid he'd failed once again, that he'd been too broken to carry on the family legacy with pride-- Luke, of course, sees all of that and rests a hand on Ben's shoulder.

'When you're ready, come back.'

And with that, and a few other padawans tearful farewells, Ben was off with his Father and Chewbacca.

Not the Falcon, of course. That's the first thing his father explains to him when they hit Hyperspace, his old piece of junk had been stolen a few years back and he'd been unable to track it down. Ben makes a remark about how he's surprised anyone wants that hunk of shit and it earns him a hydrospanner to the head.

And from there-- well. Again. It was "vacation" but it wasn't. He was effectively part of his father's crew. His father kept him close, but sometimes he'd work with larger groups. His mother would check in and insist she wanted to know nothing about what was going on and Ben was happy to not specify any of the bare legal trouble his father was getting into. He'd already had to fly them out of several close calls and that... had been interesting.

And really, it's Ben's idle hands and mind that leads him to searching through communications and signals and the holonet to find a loose thread that leads him to finding out who may be in possession of Han's prized ship.

'Jakku? Who would take the Falcon there?' Han sounds insulted that his ship is rotting in the middle of a desert and Ben can only shrug.

Like. Seriously Dad. Your ship sucks it deserves to rot in a desert.

But with that discovery, Han gives him that smile he hadn't seen in years and claps a hand around his shoulders.

'That's my Ben.'

And he feels some of that darkness chased away, if only for a moment.


And that-- is currently how Ben Solo finds himself in a Jakku trading post.

Fortunately, despite the buzz surrounding his mother's connection to Darth Vader, Ben Solo's face isn't widely known. The only reason he sticks out in the trading post is his height and specific grooming. Well, all that and any discerning eye looking towards the suspicious weapon hanging from his belt. His father insisted he go off and mingle, but that has never been his strong suit. Instead he kind of. Looms. Unintentionally.

His comm crackles and he can hear his father's voice saying they haven't located exactly where the Falcon is at this point. And-- of fucking course he's trying to do this in some strange low profile of "trying not to be suspicious but it Really does look suspicious when a man wearing a terrible disguise and a wookiee are wandering around and inquiring about ships that appeared mysteriously and may or may not be stolen" which, for the record, isn't working terribly well. He's got bets that this is going to end with them having to high tail this out of here at hyperspeed and there's going to be cursing and yelling and Chewbacca screaming at them both.

But you know. At least Ben is getting some....


"fresh" air.

Maybe he should call his mom and tell her exactly what Han Solo is getting up to, because at least it would get him out of this fucking desert air which is Definitely making his hair frizz and look Atrocious. ]

i'm so thrilled w this saga

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[ Days on Jakku all blur into one another. Or they did for most people. Rey, she kept track. As of today, she had been on Jakku for ten years. Ten years. That meant she'd finally earned enough for Plutt to buy out her contract and she'd actually be able to live on her own now. A scavenger in her own right instead of indentured to him.

Rey imagined it would be so different.

She rushed out into the rolling dunes of the Goazon Badlands to scavenge that day, making her way into a light freighter because she'd seen that Plutt had gotten one in recently. It would need parts. By the look of it, the hyperdrive and the fuel systems were both shot, burned out by someone's bad piloting.

She found a handful of usable parts and sealed off the door that led to an engineering room where she suspected she'd be able to find more in the coming days. Didn't want anyone else taking her haul. Then she made her way back to Niima outpost.

Like always, Niima was a hub of activity. Anyone who came to Jakku for offworld or who planned to leave went through Niima. They had to. She actually walked past a wookiee on her way to Unkar's trading station after she had cleaned her parts! A wookiee! She'd been friends with one who used to scavenge when she was younger, but they almost never left their home world. It was unusual indeed.

It seemed like a sign, to Rey. Further proof that today would be a special day.

In her eagerness she barely noticed the boy standing off to the side trying to look inconspicuous when she starts dumping the parts out on the counter. ]

How much for the lot? [ She asked, out of breath with both excitement and a readiness to rest. Plutt sifted through it with slimy fingers. This sort of thing, it probably would have taken a sizable chunk off her debt in the past. Surely it would get her comfortable for a few days, and—

'Portion and a half,' he said. ]

What? [ Rey's brow furrowed. ] But you— You need these parts. I know you do.

[ 'I'll give you a portion and a half for them. Take it or leave it.'

She couldn't leave it. He knew that. He needed those parts, yes, but she needed to eat. Rey's jaw slackened, and numbly, she just sort of … nodded. And took the portions that he slapped onto the counter into fists balled so tight that her knuckles went pale.

It wasn't fair. But behind her, she could hear people scowling at her for holding up the line. She stepped out of the way, blindly, and bumped straight into Ben. ]

A Saga called: Are we ready to make up some fucking star wars force lore bullshit?

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[ He's just gotten another transmission from his father.

'I think we've made some headway here, kid. Get ready to move.'

And he's rolling his eyes, lifting the comm to his mouth to give a short: ]

Yeah? We've only been here all day--

[ It earns him a laughing scoff and a:

'I don't know where you got that mouth--'

And he's bracing himself for some comparison to his mother (something his father was just. Obnoxiously fond of doing) when he's stepped headlong into a girl. Like. Really a girl. She's barely up to his shoulders. ]

Sorry.

[ It's mumbled and-- he should be more used to bumping into people now, given how tightly compacted he'd been with his father's crew. But it's still odd. People on Chandrila and even at Luke's temple tended to give him a wide breadth because of his name and his family.

So in of itself, he's disoriented by the jostle.

But then, he sees something. ]

[ A flash of lightsabers clashing, hands touching, and--

'You're not alone.'

'Neither are you.' ]

[ It's over before he can fully comprehend what he's seeing, and it's as though his breath has been stolen and his face stings and-- why did it feel as though he were freezing cold? Like frost was biting at his lips when he's in the middle of Jakku?

His eyes lift and he turns to find the girl that ran into him. ]

oh no

[forcevisions]

[ The collision is equally disorienting for Rey. There's a surge of white light, and the voice of a man she doesn't recognize. I see the island, he whispers, and she's in terrible agony. When she look up, she sees his face.

Rey staggers backwards, letting her measly earning slip out of her hands and fall between them. Fear cracks in her eyes — fear and confusion and something like recognition. Except, of course, that she's never seen this man before in her life. He's not one of the locals — she can tell from the way he's dressed, and …

That weapon.

Her eyes fall on the silver hilt at his hip. Her pulse quickens. It can't possibly be a lightsaber. The Jedi were a myth.

And then, her second thought — how much would that sell for? ]

What … [ She doesn't have a more coherent thought right now. No. No, don't ask that. You're just insane, Rey of Jakku. Delirious from heat. She drops quickly to pick up her portions in their plastic packaging and shoves them into the bag on her hip. ] It was my fault.

One more fun thing we get to ponder: Is snoke still targetting Ben? Is he switching his focus?

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[ He just-- hesitates. Wishing his uncle was here because he'd know what that was. Because right now he's looking down at her and she's-- She's no one.

A small wisp, probably a few weeks from starving... maybe less. He knows that Plutt had been known to keep people here on his whims. Slaves if anyone was being honest. An area of the galaxy that the Republic had done nothing to keep free from this sort of corruption.

But her eyes are clear and sharp. He looks over her as if he'll figure what's familiar about the curve of her jaw or the way her hair is tied up. ]

Do I know you?

[ It's a dumb question to ask, but what else is he going to say? The Force wasn't something he toted around lightly. He had his lightsaber, but his uncle had warned him against yielding it foolishly. The Jedi were rebuilding, it was best not to risk that with some foolhardy display of power. ]

⇒ purpose ⇒ points to title of the muse box

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( i'm writing this tag i just wanna put a place holder here in case u wanna find some pretentious images like the pretentious asshole u r on the inside )

Are we mentally ready for this cluster fuck (CW: everything tbh guys)

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[ He's inebriated. He's aware of that much.

That fact in of itself is pretty astounding, he hasn't touched a drop of anything in years. And so somehow, somewhere, someone had convinced Kylo Ren, Supreme Leader of the First Order to take a drink.

Maybe it was the meeting earlier today. There'd been some minor victory or land gain-- but had there been drinks there? He can't remember. Vague smells and sounds and sights come to him in patches. Splotches. Out of focus and unclear.

He remembers Hux expressing some saccharine concern, he'd tried to wave him off and say he was fine. But then he's being led down the corridor and to his room.

It all feels wrong and his tongue is like lead. His spit feels thicker than normal and when he tries to dig his claws into the Force it slips through his fingers-- jerked in the wrong direction. Pulled when he wanted to push.

Maybe it's that desperate grasp that causes the bond to ripple. Call out to Rey when he hadn't intended on doing so. It's not as if she was paying any mind either way. The few times he'd tried to reach her since Crait, she'd stone walled him.

He missed her, though. He'd much rather she was here than Hux.

Why was Hux still in his room? ]

CW: WE ARE GARBAGE AND THIS IS NOT FLUFFY KYLUX.

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[ His back hits the sheets and he feels Hux starting to pull at his gloves-- No. This is wrong. He realizes that implicitly now. But the part of him that knows this is wrong feels muted, gagged-- and the whole world around him twists and goes quiet and he's confused. Confused what's going on until he turns his head and--

Rey.

He tries to say the name. His mouth open to form the letters but the noise won't come out. He can't tell if she's real or if this was a trick of his mind. He's so focused on her he nearly forgets what's going on--


Right until he feels hands in his hair, pulling his attention away from her.

Hux is saying something-- he can't catch the words, just the idea that it's something about his hair and his meticulous routine. He takes a curl around his finger and Kylo doesn't want to be here. It's reminding him of how he felt when Snoke first broke him. When he felt trapped and helpless while his mind was raided and plundered and all he could do was scream-- ]

Ss-- [ He can only manage that sound before Hux chuckles at his attempts and slides a gloved hand to grip his chin, kissing him full on the mouth.

'Don't worry. I'll make this enjoyable for the both of us.' ]

shoves #hansololives au here w pretentious visuals

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I was tempted to just rewrite SAO here

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[ 'You know it's true.'

It was, wasn't it?

Kylo Ren was impulsive, quick to anger and-- to put it lightly-- a brat. Cross him and it was possible you'd find yourself missing a limb or at least expect a nearby console to suffer the consequences. But he knew his time may be coming to an end. It wasn't anything Snoke directly said or did, but a feeling he had. Maybe the Force telling him that he was a pawn. It's a position he's used to to be certain, but a pawn was only useful for how much they could bring you.

He failed to bring Rey or the location of Luke Skywalker, Hux had managed to blow up an entire star system and was still rabid for more, and here he was. On a bridge with his father. He'd like to believe that killing Han Solo would restore his place with Snoke, but would it ever be enough?

He knows it won't. He knows after Skywalker is dead there is no place for Kylo Ren. He was too powerful to be kept alive, and with out a use or purpose it was better to dispose of him.

Han Solo speaks to the light in him, to Ben Solo still screaming out from the deep depths of black-- and he considers it. Considers it because he yearns for a place to belong. For a home. For things he'd long since given up. His mask is off, his father is close, warmth radiates from him and some part of him is still in disbelief he's here. When was the last time he saw his father? He still had color in his hair-- he hadn't looked this old.

Snoke's voice rings in his head. Roaring and tearing through everything. Demanding Han's life. There's promises of what Kylo could become. Who he could be. He grips the hilt of his crossguard and--


Numb.


Everything is white and numb and he grunts or groans-- he's not sure. He doesn't quite hear it. He nearly passes out-- nearly falls. His father's wretched the hilt from his hand and is holding on to his arm and side tightly.

'Need some help here!!!'

That's Han. That's definitely Han screaming. (Han. His father. He's not sure what to think right now)

His connection to the force hasn't entirely been stripped, but his senses are entirely thrown off (His vision is blotches, he smells and tastes something metallic but not blood. It's more like biting on to cool steel, he feels like his extremities have fallen asleep and yet are too sensitive all at once). It's not normal, he's not reacting well in his head but he can hardly fight any of it-- ]

Wha-- [ It's a growled out vowel more than a coherent word and Han seems to at least understand that he now has a rancor under a sedative and not an ewok.

'Shut up, Ben,' He keeps repeating that name as if it has relevancy here. 'I made your mother a promise.'

Conflict flickers through his soul. Some part of him longs to be free-- but he can feel Snoke tearing at the fringes of his mind, trying to break in. Demanding to know what's going on, demanding progress and fidelity.

Han hitches his arm around his shoulder. Kylo teeters, caught between pulling or shoving Han away-- his hands uselessly clawing at his jacket to try and get his weapon back. His fighting grows more clumsy and fierce as Han's foot connects with his helmet and sends it careening down into the pit.

'CHEWIE.' ]

don't trigger me

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[ It all happens too quickly to register.

Finn's shouts ring in her ear, a louder thrum than the rush of her own blood hammering in her skull. Her knuckles tighten, blanching white where they have gripped the banister. Han. Dread makes her throat tight, but when the blaster fire clears, it isn't the sight of his limp form that greets him.

Relief bursts in her chest until his shouts become decipherable. A cry for help. By the time she and Finn scramble to the bridge, Chewbacca has fired off another shot into a debilitated Kylo Ren — his son; she continues to grapple with that revelation, the clear disdain Kylo had expressed for a man that has been nothing but kind to her — and hauled him off of Han's shoulders.

He would look almost peaceful, helpless, in his infirm state if she didn't know any better. ]

We're taking him with us? [ She calls out as she follows after Han, speedily racing toward his ship. He waves her off, but Finn is there at his side, agreeing. It's lunacy, surely. Kylo Ren is a threat. They can't trust that he won't wake and tear apart the Falcon from the inside once he realizes what's occurred. He may be a sleeping beast, but he is still a beast. The same that had tormented her. ] But —

[ 'No time to talk,' Han barks out. 'Come on!' He waves them up frantically. Finn is still trying to debate it, but Rey grabs at his hand and drags him with her, into the frigid air of the forest. ]

You didn't tell us he's your son.

[ It sounds accusatory, almost, but she doesn't mean for it to — even if that lack of trust stings, to some extent, the way Finn's choice to lie to her had. 'You think that's first meeting material?' Han drawls, and then he's marching his way down a snow bank with a pointed wait here.

It doesn't take long to board. Chewbacca hoists Kylo Ren into the ship without little trouble. Han, in the meantime, tries to prove he is just as useful by holding onto his ... leg ... Like, good job, Han. Rey and Finn share a look and trail after them, watching the planet begin to collapse as they enter atmo.

When she enters the living quarters, Chewbacca has Kylo draped over a metal bench. ]

He's not going to stay asleep forever. [ She points out, frowning at his drowsy form with distrust. ] I hope you know what you're doing.

[ Han tells her he always knows what he's doing. Another lie, but she can't fault him for trying to keep his family together. It makes her chest constrict in the absence of her own, but she understands it. 'He won't have this,' Han proceeds to say, and brandishes the extinguished lightsaber in Rey's direction. 'Hold onto it.'

She nods, quickly clipping it to her belt. ]

Leans into mic: Darth Maul.

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[ Finn is somewhere between wanting to step in between Kylo and Rey--- and wanting to cower behind Rey completely. In the end his protective streak overrides his cowardice. That'd got her caught in the first place and--


He's still holding that lightsaber isn't he?

He feels awkward with it right now but??? Where does he store it otherwise? He looks to Rey and Rey had given some indication and details on her using the Force??? Is she a Jedi now??? She gets to hold Kylo's saber so Maybe??? He's gonna hand his hilt to her as well, he really doesn't know what to do with it and ...... I'll be honest as a Mun. KYLO WOULD SLICE FINN IN TWO WITH THAT BLADE LIKE HE DONE GANKED SNOKE. Safest place is on Rey's person.

Chewie comes storming through with a pair of binders which he swiftly attaches one end to Kylo's wrist and the other to some exposed piping. It would be laughable if he was at full strength, but hopefully it will get the point across enough so he really doesn't do something pants on head stupid when he wakes up. Like Pull apart the ship while they're in hyperspace.

This is a tag of trying to damage control BEFORE Kylo wakes up. Even if he isn't quite fully out yet.

He's groaning-- gasping. He vaguely recognizes what the wookiee hit him with, and is fairly sure the dosage was off. Like eating too many edible cookies at once really. Everything is slowed down and magnified, his entire body buzzes like static. He pulls at the arm that's bound and growls-- practically snarls as he's pulled under. Incrementally he feels wakefulness leave him and it pulses more anxiety through him-- especially as Snoke knocks, knocks, and knocks at the door of his mind.

He had no problems slamming through them normally. He can't tell how much is the drug and how much is Kylo's own awakening, his realization that Snoke isn't safe. And if Snoke wasn't safe, the First Order wasn't safe-- there was no where else for him.

Rey may see the specter trying to enter his mind, a darkness, a vague form, a whisper in the Force. Disembodied but powerful, trying to dig it's claws into his apprentice as he lays prone and writhing. But as Kylo tires himself out, loses the fight--

It will turn it's attention to her. Briefly.

Chewbacca, in the mean time, has done his duty and needs to get back to the cock pit. He howls at Han and the response he gets is all of a: 'Somewhere that isn't here!' And the mass of action and reaction and panic is somewhat familiar in the Falcon. The sounds, the smell, the feel of ship trying to hold itself together-- it's so achingly familiar. The fight in Kylo Ren weakens, every joint softens and eventually.... excruciatingly his mind floats to unconsciousness, just as they hit Hyperspace and Han and Chewie's victorious hollers can be heard ringing through the cabin.

'What the hell are we doing now?' Breathless and scared out of his mind-- Finn poses a damn good question. ]

i don't have to stand for this!!!!

[purpose]

[ Tense, she watches him shift restlessly with the expectation that he might soon wake, fingers reaching for the two lightsabers currently fastened to her belt. The growling gives the impression that Kylo Ren might manage it through sheer determination just to shred through them all, but a moment later, his writhing ends.

Minutely, she relaxes, but it's fleeting. Darkness pounds at her peripherals, demanding entry, and she frowns down at Kylo Ren's limp form. Surely it has to be his doing, another attempt at forcing a path into her mind, tearing it open to spill out its contents. She winces visibly as it intensifies, but as soon as she does, it's gone. As if it had never occurred. ]

It's nothing.

[ She tells Finn when he looks at her, worried. Han's head swivels around to eye both of them where they've come to a stand just outside the cockpit, but he eventually turns back to the console.

'We reconvene with the Resistance. That's what we're doing now,' he answers gruffly. Chewbacca warbles a disagreement, insisting he should relay a message to Leia. She'll want to know her son is with them, after all.

Han shakes his head, and Rey's eyebrows knit at the refusal. ] Why? [ 'Don't wanna get her hopes up just yet,' he tells Rey. Oh. That makes sense. She can only imagine what it will be like for Leia, facing her son after all that he has done. ]

We should at least tell them we survived.

[ Han points out that they'll have evacuated their base on D'Qar now that their location has been revealed, that it's pointless to land there, but he knows how to reach Leia. Rey nods her understanding, and disappears back into the living quarters, where Chewbacca continues to loom over Kylo's unconscious body. ]

yea u do you're forcing me to write Han and Chewie instead of Kylo. BOBA. FETT.

[vaderstan]

[ 'We should dump Kylo Ren off in an asteroid belt,' Finn's voice echoes as she leaves the cock pit. Han's angry rebuttal comes. It appears this is officially marked a touchy subject. But Finn knows what Kylo is capable of-- he's certain everyone else in this ship is underestimating his cruelty and ruthlessness.

Chewie greets her with a trill, as she comes closer he'll look her over for injuries or blemishes. Wanting to know if anything was done to her. They all heard the rumors of Kylo's brand of torture, after all. What he was capable of. Chewie hasn't underestimated him at all.

The air should be light and jubilant. Victory capped off with an exploding death machine-- but instead the tension is thick. It's not because of Han's yelling match with Finn or the way Chewbacca has to be a sentry, but it's in the quality of it all. The unspoken reasoning behind the defensiveness, the fact that he hadn't brought up his son or the being connected to another Force user on such a personal level. To all of it. And Han and Chewie both know it.

And part of Han. A big part of Han contemplates running. Finding the furthest reaches of the galaxy and trying to get his son a new life or volunteering to disappear to the fringes, at least until Kylo Ren is more legend than reality. Until the name is dust and Ben Solo could live again.

But it's not as simple as that. Anxiety burns in his gut at the thought on bringing his own son to chains, but what other choice did he have?

And the ultimate reason for Han's tension-- Why had his son chose this in the first place? Why was he drowned in blackness, hid his face? Destroyed his identity? And what did it have to do with Luke's disappearance?

Questions he could put off for years, write off as things he could never solve, were real now. He should be back there. With his son. Petting his hair, fretting over him, trying to see how many inches he'd grown and the moles which marked his face. See how he transformed from a gawky kid into the man he was today. But he can't do it. He's still a coward.

He can only hope Leia won't look upon them both with failure on her mind.

Kylo moans, his enforced sleep isn't a peaceful one. His body fighting the drugs, and only given temporary reprieve from Snoke's prying mind-- funnily enough when Rey comes closer his mind is calmed. His fighting is less and he dreams of an ocean. Chewie makes a sound, noting the effect-- not quite understanding it.

This was going to be a rough ride. The Resistance had no idea what it was in for ]

⇒ forcevisions ⇒ we yikes'd chewbacca for ben

[vaderstan]

[ it had started with the wookiee's chewbacca, han tells him death. something was off. as though the entire galaxy hiccuped and there was something it needed to tell you, but couldn't catch the words out of the air.

but as he bore down on rey, he could see something had changed within her. There had always been darkness within her, she had all the power she needed to bring the galaxy to its needs, but she chose this path instead. that's why her actions stood out more. every emotion magnified and as she tugged and pulled and yanked at the transporter, there wasn't just frustration or hate-- but guilt. deeper than anything she had shown him before.

the lapse in concentration is enough to drag him, enough time for her to jerk the ship back as crackling light launched itself from her finger tips.

his features twist-- along with his gut. and there just wasn't enough time. no time to process over the pitched screaming of rey as finn and poe finally drag her away.

the only thing preventing him from making the leap to the idea that she did it purposefully was the fact that it wasn't an act. her grief was real.

from there, things happened at a break neck pace. another near miss and he's frustrated with her. she keeps running away and he's left alone to stew in his anger and annoyance. at the very least, he knows where she's headed.

as he boards his fighter a sudden feeling hits him. almost like a wave of nostalgia. a voice tells him this is the last he'll see of the first order and that this would come with a great cost. it upends him, upsets him. he can't process these emotions, there's not enough time. he had to get to rey before palpatine did.

he manages to succeed, but rey still feels different, odd in some of her normal mannerisms. not dishonest, but as though she's masking something else deep within her. and there's this look she gives him before she activates her blade. longing, despair, desperation. he wonders if palpatine has created an illusion that will lead him to his death, but the attacks, the aggression, it's all rey.

he understands a little more when he feels the hushed whisper of his mother, as rey's blade enters his body and he collapses with it. it's too much, far far far too much. a year ago he would have rejected these emotions, raged against life and the unfairness of it all.

luke, chewbacca, his father and now his mother were all gone.

and then rey pours herself into him. she won't let him die.

he wants to say whatever magic words that will convince her to do this with him, but they aren't located within his vocabulary. and she's off again, even steals his ship. typical really. he'll have to endure the incoming migraine that will result from him trying to find a ship fast enough to get to her before she does anything reckless.



okay anything ELSE reckless.

his father's memory... his ghost, ben doesn't know how to categorize it really, appears before him. eases his bruised ego and urges him to let go of the rage he had held on to his entire life. fight for his mother's cause to honor her. let her live on through this legacy. it's the least he can do after helping dismantle it.

once his crossguard hits the waves, he realizes he's going to die.

war couldn't kill kylo ren, but the resulting peace would.

and he rushes straight for his destiny.


don't ask him how he got the ship, or where. just know he managed to find a decent one... and is only vaguely insulted that she just SET HIS SHIP ON FIRE. he won't read into the implications too much at this moment in time.

luke isn't entirely happy to see him. rey seems near mute for a few long moments. it's an awkward entrance, he shouldn't even know where this island was located. the very energy of the island itself bubbles and vibrates around him, as though to reject him in all his darkness. but luke's stiff posture loosens when he sees ben with out a mask, with no armor, no gloves, or cape. this is ben.

she brought him back.

luke shouldn't be surprised, but he is. the shock doesn't subside one bit as ben descends on rey, circling her and grabbing at any part of her she'll let him reach. a hand, a shoulder, it didn't matter. he can feel her distress rolling off of her, the desire to give into the dark.

he won't let her get there. ]

Tell me what you need. [ once again luke realizes he's the third wheel. jfc. he'll back off for a moment, giving them some space and really -- look at them. the bond between them sparks and glitters as bright as any sun. leia must have known, right? ] Anything, just tell me.

[ he's fully expecting her to gut him at this point but. lmao w/e its fine, saved him a few steps ig ]

[forcevisions]

[ She's done this before.

The others don't remember, but Rey does. It's the first moment of seeing Ben Solo, naked in a way even as he stands before her in the same First Order issue underclothes that Finn had worn when she met him. Her mouth remembers the twitch of the smile, the disbelief. This time, she isn't dying. This time, he won't slip away from her, a ghost.

Tears well in her eyes as she crosses the island to him, hiking over rock faces to embrace him. Arms around his shoulders, Rey pulls him into an eager, demanding kiss.

This is the change she's been waiting for. The moment when something changes, happens differently than before. This is the moment of departure. The moment that she's sure it worked. ]

[vaderstan]

[ -????????

He's knocked off balance a bit. He wasn't expecting it, but somehow expected it all the same. This isn't even weird timey-wimey stuff. Just that ~energy~ when she was touching him. But it takes him no time at all to respond, wrapping his arms around her and for a moment the entire world melts.

It's--

Bitter sweet. Nostalgic.

Odd that those two descriptors come to mind first. But overwhelmingly it's perfect. Their lips slot together and he opens himself to her, wanting to ease the tension he feels within her.

When he draws away, it's only for a breath and to murmur: ]

What was that for?



[ Luke No-Chill Skywalker is force ghosting in the background hard by the way. He's only not interrupting because all the other force ghost jedis are like "bruh do not fuck this up for them LIKE YOU ALREADY FUCKED THIS UP FOR THEM BEFORE". Sick burn. ]

[forcevisions]

It's just ... good to see you. [ When they stop, she's breathless. Rey can't ease away from him fully, can't bring herself to leave his arms for fear that the moment that he does she'll lose him. The tether between them feels like the only thing keeping his heart beating. ] Really good to see you. Ben.

[ Her hand moves to stroke the side of his face, awed and wondering. It's hard to grasp that he's really alive. ]

[vaderstan]

[ He gifts her with a smile. A little confused, a bit dazed-- still reeling from his mother's death, but it's genuine. Open. It's boyish and just... young.

When was the last time he smiled?

He leans into her touch as he speaks, still in awe over her. ]

I would have been here sooner if you had stopped running away.

[ There's no edge to it this time, no modulated voice or tense anxiety.

One hand comes up to cradle the back of her head as he presses his mouth to her forehead. This is some jr high shit right here. But I'll cut them some slack, they never really had a chance to DO Jr High shit. And right now it's as if the entire galaxy melted away around them. ]

[forcevisions]

[ Behind her, Rey can sense the moment that Luke's demeanor shifts. He has noticed something strange. It's like feedback in the Force. Reverb. Rey turns away from Ben to glance at him, something wary glinting in her eyes.

'Rey,' Luke says. 'What did you do?' ]

Nothing. [ She chokes it out, averting her eyes. ] I healed him. It was just a... a transfer of Force energy.

[ From Chewbacca, to Ben. There is a life cost to what you ask of the Force. ]