[ Tense and deflecting. She's not going to touch upon whether or not he's a master. Honestly, she'd prefer that he was so that he could teach her and she wouldn't have to go see Luke. Now that Ben has warned him about her — and it does feel like a warning — she's worried about the exact perception Ben had reported his own father having about him.
Not to mention there is of course that voice gnawing at the back of her mind telling her not to actively pursue the question of her family lest she be disappointed. In her bones she knows that she and Ben aren't related, but her conscious mind is entertaining it despite all reservations because her ache to belong is equally powerful as her need to delude herself.
It's a big yikes.
Alright, so maybe she's the one really side-stepping here, nagging him instead of engaging her own bullshit. But she's able to keep a clear head with no bullshit bothering her at all while she's working, so it feels easy to put it all off on him. ]
What's the matter? Was it something Skywalker said?
LEAVE LEIA ALONE
[ Tense and deflecting. She's not going to touch upon whether or not he's a master. Honestly, she'd prefer that he was so that he could teach her and she wouldn't have to go see Luke. Now that Ben has warned him about her — and it does feel like a warning — she's worried about the exact perception Ben had reported his own father having about him.
Not to mention there is of course that voice gnawing at the back of her mind telling her not to actively pursue the question of her family lest she be disappointed. In her bones she knows that she and Ben aren't related, but her conscious mind is entertaining it despite all reservations because her ache to belong is equally powerful as her need to delude herself.
It's a big yikes.
Alright, so maybe she's the one really side-stepping here, nagging him instead of engaging her own bullshit. But she's able to keep a clear head with no bullshit bothering her at all while she's working, so it feels easy to put it all off on him. ]
What's the matter? Was it something Skywalker said?