literaldumpsterfire | Kylo TFLN overflow pt 2

[ He presses his mouth to the crown of her head. and there's an echo of the kiss they shared in that cave and--- Just why have they not done that again? He's not gonna think about it too much. It is NOT THE TIME SOLO. ]

A hundred times worse would be if someone was shot.

[ That's helpful Ben. Really.

He'll pull away from her here, slide his hands to find her arms before standing up and attempting to tug her to follow him.

He's not saying as much, but if she brushes against his mind she'll see he intends to get her to the captain's quarters to rest and hide out for the moment. Chewie and Lando will be here soon and she probably doesn't want them to see her a crying mess.

I swear it's not for sexy times and dick pix and kissing.... AT LEAST FOR NOW THAT ISNT ON HIS MIND. ]

[The sound that escapes Rey’s lips is something halfway between a sob and a laugh. He’s right; at least no one got shot, although she thinks it might have been a close call for a minute or two, judging by the look on Poe’s face when he’d first seen Ben.

Rey lets herself be tugged up to stand, only because she wasn’t quite ready to let go of him just yet and if he’s standing, she’s standing. She catches an errant, incomplete thought of his through the Bond, about hiding out in the captain’s cabin, and she immediately knows her condition.]

As long as you stay with me. I don’t want to be on my own.

[And, for the record, she’s never ruled out kissing, sexy times OR dick pix...]

[ Well the muns are on the same page even if these two dumbasses are hedging around the obvious.

They'll get inside her room with a soft hiss of the hydrolics of the door and he'll offer her a softer look. ]

As long as you want me here.

[ I'm 100% positive that on the first night or two where they probably had him sleeping on his own she just Snuck in and buried herself in his side. So. You know.

Easing onto the bed with her isn't that foreign. He just has to let go of her hand and slide off his boots first. Letting her get all situated before he lays right along side her. ]

I could always send them lewd pictures to try and smooth over the situation.

[ Did you know Ben Solo likes making Rey of Jakku laugh? It is his secret favorite activity even tho most of the time the shit he says IS JUST THE WORST. ]

[She wants to tell him, "Always," but she thinks he might already know that's how she feels, so she just toes off her linen-topped boots and crawls onto the bunk, making herself small and leaving plenty of room for him to squeeze in beside her.

As soon as he lies down, she wraps herself around him, coiling herself around his limbs like a creeper vine. It's the way she'd held him in the day after Exogol, when she'd been afraid that he might leave her again if she didn't grip onto him tightly.

His joke elicits a little laugh which she buries into his side before she lifts her chin to look up at him, the smile still lighting her tear-stained face. Rey likes to think of herself as a Serious Person but she's finding that she can't resist Ben's sense of humour.

Even so, there's a part of her that really doesn't like the idea of him sending lewd pictures to anyone but her. What is this feeling??? She's not going to examine it; that would be far too functional.]

Where are we going to go?

[Yes. This seems like a much safer topic of conversation, even if it hurts her heart to think about leaving her friends. Feeling Ben's big, warm body tucked close to hers makes it all the more bearable.

Maybe even a little...

... exciting?]

[ His hands will find her hair immediately and begin smoothing it down. For once in his dumb life he's not feeling worried about her leaving him for something (or someone) else and while all of this is terrible and horrible and the worst... He can't help but feel selfish and elated in the fact that she's still here. ]

I believe you're more qualified to make that decision at the current time. [ He's still just like "wow cool I'm alive?????" ] We could always tell Lando to surprise us in the mean time.

[ Like... Why go back to Tatooine when Lando may surprise them by taking them to the largest Gentlemen's club in the galaxy. Like seriously. ITS AN ENTIRE PLANET. (I don't think such a thing exists in star wars but who knows at this point) ]

[Rey settles her chin against Ben's chest, enjoying the soothing feel of his fingers against her hair.

Honestly, the idea of letting Lando decide where they hide out for an undisclosed amount of time seems vaguely horrific. As much as she likes the man, his wardrobe alone has her intimidated.

Still...]

I don't really care where we are as long as I get more time with you. Preferably without Lando or Chewie.

[She gives him a shy smile, pressing her lips together. Is this flirting? Whatever the hell it is, SHE IS NOT GOOD AT IT, OKAY?

She gives a little shrug.]

I suppose I won't have to go to any more long, boring meetings after all.

[ A soft hum of agreement at no more long boring meetings being a good thing. ]

Given the circumstances, we may need to steal the ship from Lando before we're able to do anything alone.

[ Like... no offense to you both. But Poe and Finn probably want Kylo Ren on a bit of a leash that isn't actually Rey who has seemingly lost her mind. At least for a bit.

Also no one ask Ben Solo what flirting is, he wasn't exactly an expert at it even before becoming a murder monster okay??? Lando and Chewbacca are definitely baffled by these two. Chewbacca more so given Rey just yeeted her entire self at the supremacy for his dumb pale pasty ass. ]

Lean forward for me.

[ Sorry, Rey. This isn't actually for a kiss. Instead when she heeds the request, he'll begin slowly undoing the buns she's got in and honestly. This is the real porn. Ben Solo slowly undoing her hair to try and relieve tension. GG. ]

[Rey still prickles at being told what to do, and she almost doesn't acquiesce. She's glad she eventually does, though, when she feels Ben untying her hair, his thick fingers moving through the strands. She gives a contented hum at the sensation.

She also takes the opportunity, while she's not looking at his face, to say:]

You could just... move in here with me. To sleep. During night cycles. If you wanted.

[ He's getting started on her second bun when she makes the proposition. And to his credit he doesn't pause or make any physical gesture that suggests he's thrown off by it. ]

Is this in regards to nude holo quality assessment?

[ he's such a dick and i'm dying at the thought that all her friends probably think she's already been dicked the fuck down by Kylo Ren and he's just here playing with her hair. Like, she's probably been TRYIN' to see that naked bod by camping out discreetly during his trips to the 'fresher to get clean.... But his showers take sO LONG SHE LOSES ALL NERVE. Or falls asleep. Or gets hungry. Look. This boy is responsible for droughts on several planets and ships by now. ]

[She hasn’t not been accidentally trying to see him naked, or at least topless again, it’s just difficult to do it unnoticed with Lando hanging around, since he knows all the tricks in the book. Hell, he wrote the book!

Still, Rey’s eyes go wide at Ben’s question. It was one thing joking about Quality Assessment over com, but it’s entirely another now it’s being said out loud. She’s glad he can’t see her face because it’s as crimson as a redfruit and she’s trying not to react to the images now swimming through her mind.

She gives him a shove in the ribs instead because, when in doubt, violence!]

No!

[Then she mumbles:]

I’m sure the quality is fine, anyway; doesn’t need assessing.

[ He's wholly more concentrated on the top of her head. And in all honesty, he's not all that ashamed of his own nudity or even of Rey seeing him nude. Like ???? They're practically the same person (sort of), so his body is pretty much her's anyway.

He's just an idiot with a reactive libido and unsure of how to bring up the whole.

Kiss thing.

LOOK ITS HARD THAT WAS LITERALLY HIS SECOND KISS AND THERES PROBABLY SOME PRESSURE ON HIM TO 'TAKE THE LEAD' AND HES LIKE "what does that even mean? Do I need to just like... Push her against a wall and kiss her again???" ... which the answer to that question IS YES. But.... they are also surrounded by Lando and Chewie and pROBABLY JANNAH at some point. SO there has not been any good "taking the lead" time.

That said, he's taking down the final bun and smoothing his hands through and over her hair. He's pretty sure she's gonna get a crying head ache. He knows the sensation well. He just wants to combat it. ]

Good to know my naked body needs no assessment.

[

Also Rey, try not to watch his tits rise and fall in that Very Good Space Henley he's wearing. I think today is the day that I am a cruel god and say that it is actually a light color and thus it is death to any woman who is attracted to the male species. ]

Edited 2020-05-12 18:29 (UTC)

[How can she not watch the rise and fall of his tits in that light-coloured Very Good Space Henley??? She's lucky it hasn't killed her! It's only the feeling of his fingers in her hair that's giving her the strength to cling onto life.

Still, she can't quite help the way her hand comes to rest against his (rock-hard) abdomen as she settles back down against his shoulder, her fingers toying with the fabric. She may or may not (She definitely is!) thinking about what she knows is underneath.

The girl is Thirsty, okay? And she would have done more of the whole 'taking the lead' thing, except she kissed him once before and now isn't 100% sure she did it right because he kind of hasn't tried to do it again since...]

Do you want to?

[She means 'sleep in the captain's cabin with me' but it's admittedly a very vague question, which could be interpreted in numerous ways.]

[ This is how reactive libidos kill Rey. They've both been over thinking it. Leia is weeping at how much she fucked up raising her son. Han is screaming at them from the afterlife. Luke is lounging in the background pleased.

Vaguely creepy image but this is star wars. ]

Sleep in the Captain's quarters? [ Oh good, that's the nice thing about this shared soul thing. He does know what she's asking and is absolutely not about to make it awkwa-- ] Or have you assess my body?

[ it's not too late rey. no one would know. no one would care. Just kill him. ]

I'm open to both, personally.

[ Just force choke him... actually maybe don't cause he'd probably be into that way too much. ]

[She rolls the material of his top between her fingers as she considers how to answer that. Because he's joking, right? She'd been joking when she'd sent, 'Send nudes', and he is joking now. Right? RIGHT?

And it's not like she wants to assess it, anyway.

She'd be perfectly content just looking at it.

Or touching it.

Oh, kriff it. She's shipped herself across the galaxy to this man before; she might as well just say what she's thinking, before those fingers in her hair lull her into a blissful stupor.]

Good. Me too. [Thankfully she sounds a lot more confident than she feels.] Both.

Indecision is unlike you.

[ You're radiating conflict right now, Rey. Like wow trigger warning at least.

Ahem.

But it's said like a soft encouragement. Even and calm as he twists a strand of hair around his fingers. Part of this is just his own desire to torture Rey a bit longer. But there is still a deeply insecure part of him that wants the validation because he is, in fact, a gigantic toddler. But even then, he doesn't want to push her to make that leap of "I would like to enter a romantic relationship with the former Kylo Ren"-- because it is quite a leap to make and he (and probably the entire galaxy) needs the assurance that this is what she wants.

Even then, he'll throw her a bone. ]

Tell me what you want and I'll give it to you.

[ As explicit as he can get with out just saying "hey you can feel up my chest and back and ass and dick all you want it is 100% okay I'm diggin it." ]

[Why does he sound so calm? It's infuriating. It would be much more reassuring if he sounded as nervous as she feels.

The thing is, she's not conflicted, not about what she wants, but asking for it scary! She's not very good at talking about feelings and desires, or even really acknowledging them in a way that requires introspection, but how can she ignore an invitation like that? It's time to put her big girl panties on and be brave - crossing the galaxy to put your life in the hands of your enemy kind of brave.]

Kiss me.

[She lifts her chin up to actually look at him because it feels like eye-contact should be a thing when you're asking someone to put a part of their body on a part of your body.]

I want you to kiss me- [There's a caveat.] -but only if you want to too.

[Please want to!]

[ He could ROLL his eyes at her right now, but he doesn't. Honestly? She'll get to "Only if you wan--" And the rest of that will be almost literally swallowed by his mouth pressing to hers. Demanding, needy, a littel desperate all at once.

Like, the past couple of weeks have been a whirlwind. He'd collapsed in the Falcon after Exgol. Exhausted and spent, physically, emotionally, spiritually. Rey had the entire Resistance to deal with and Chewbacca, Lando, and Jannah knew better than to go against Rey's wishes at this point. Like. She looked a Little crazy whenever Jannah started to point out that "hey that is literally Kylo Ren, though??". And from there?

He slept. A lot. Apparently getting his life back after being genuinely cold and dead for long enough was very taxing. He could feel when Rey climbed into the bunk with him and pressed her head to his chest. He was vaguely aware of when Chewbacca came in to throw a blanket over the lump of his body. But you know.

From there things were a bit wild.

First it was about where to drop them off.

And then it was Rey's friends continuously calling her as the both of them were watching the news tickers on the holonet come out with outlandish rumors. Fortunately, it seemed that most of the galaxy believed Kylo Ren to be dead-- which he certainly was. But the Resistance still had to deal with the fall out.

So every time they got settled and more familiar with one another, they were thrown another loop and Rey would have to go deal with it.

So. You know. Maybe it's good that the proverbial cat is out of the bag.

He draws away from her slowly, eyes half lidded and his cheeks pink. Another softer peck before he speaks again. ]

Good?

[She had been right. This is exactly what she'd wanted. His lips feel as wonderful as she remembers them, soft and warm, enthusiastic somehow. She gives as good as she gets, matching pressure for pressure, although she's really not sure if she's doing this right. Is she supposed to move her mouth? She moves her hand instead, up his chest and neck until she can cup his cheek like she'd done on Exogol, relishing the feel of his skin beneath her fingertips.

By the time he pulls away, her head is spinning a little (in the best possible way) and she feel like her heart might burst because HE'D WANTED TO! She can't help the grin which spreads across her face.]

Good.

[She blinks and tries to reign in her expression slightly as she asks back:]

Good?

[ A soft hint of that smile he had before. You know. He died. And he just tucks in closer. ]

It'd be rude to say no.

[ He'll reach an arm around her and pull her into his mass. Protective and possessive all at once. Things are so shit in the rest of her universe right now, he wants to at least just-- be Something? It's a strange hard to describe urge. ]

If you ever want anything from me, you just need to ask.

[ He feels he owes her that much, if not more honestly. But. You know. Really rey. HE WOULD GIVE YOU NUDES IF U ASKED HIM ]

[She loves that smile. She wants to see it all the time. She wants to be the reason for it.

She lets her hand slip into his thick, black hair as she snuggles closer into his protective embrace. This feels nice. Really nice.

There's still a niggling doubt at the back of her mind, though, from the subconscious part of her that's always believed there must have been something wrong with her, to have warranted being abandoned the way she was. It's an insidious thought and she knows she should ignore it, bury it and just bask in how nice this moment feels but, in the spirit of asking for what she wants, she wants to know.]

Why haven't you done that before? After I kissed you on Exogol, I thought maybe you didn't-

[She shakes her head and takes a deep breath, before saying sternly:]

You're not obligated to me.

This connection-

We don't have to-

I mean, I want to, but if you would rather not-

[SHUT THE FUCK UP, REY!]

[ He'll touch upon the obligation stuff later. Rey's mind is going at hyperspeed and he isn't following along quick enough. ]

I was half convinced I had been hallucinating. [ You try getting kissed by someone who was giving you all these ~ vibes ~ for a year and you really wanted but couldn't have and then immediately dying. It was a weird experience of "Did that actually happen??" ] And Chewbacca and Lando seemed to take delight in interrupting any attempt I had to bring clarity to the situation.

[She supposes that's a fair enough explanation. She remembers that being dead can be a bit of a mindfuck, and Chewie and Lando really do seem like they've been wait until the most inopportune times to walk in. She'd thought it was just her that was finding it more and more frustrating.]

Do you have clarity now?

[ He pauses for a moment in thought. As though he really needs to ponder that. ]

I could use more.

[ my god Rey he is an entire buffet and you can have all of it. ]

[An uncertain smile slowly creeps across Rey's face and she turns to raise herself on her elbow and look down at him, her eyes narrowed slightly.]

Could you?

[The smile gets wider and more confident as she grows more sure she understands what he means. She uses her free hand to angle his face towards hers and brushes a few strands of his silky hair away from his cheek, then she leans over him and kisses him again, trapping him between her and the bed for a looooong moment.

She murmurs against his (so fucking plush, omg) lips:]

Better?

[ He'd pressed his cheek into her fingers once she lay them there. His scalp buzzing with a pleasant tingle that he hasn't had for... Years really. So when she pulls away he's a bit dazed and distracted. He hardly hears her question because his mind is still struck by how much it feels as though the bond buzzes in pleasure with their connection.

So, he doesn't answer verbally. Instead he threads his hand into the hair at the nape of her neck and pulls her down to kiss her again. Like, you're on top of him Rey and Kinda??? Domming him. Not really, but it's enough to wake some of that chaotic feral energy he has and the deeply buried need to just have someone kick his ass around. With permission and consent of course.

The kiss is becoming decidedly less innocent now. His mouth opens and his tongue slides out to run along her lips. It's not elegant or subtle in the way he projects his need, but, you know, she needed a clearer picture and he's giving it to her. ]

Kylo TFLN overflow pt 2

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

(no subject)

(no subject)

(no subject)

(no subject)

(no subject)

(no subject)

(no subject)

(no subject)

(no subject)

(no subject)

(no subject)

(no subject)

(no subject)