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Kylo Ren
The protein shakes, where are they?
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GENERAL PROMPTS
Redemption arc: Kylo leaving the First Order. Due to either slow burn reasons (Figuring out holy shit I don't want this) or Immediate Issues That Need Solving (Rey's kidnapped, Hux turns on him, etcetc)
Re-adjusting to life in the light/in the Resistance. Whether it goes smoothly or Rough is up to the situation
Early First Order Days. Especially when Snoke was breaking his Ben Solo identity
Ben Solo Pre-First Order
Ben Solo as the most obnoxious Resistance Member idek
Jedi Hippie camp with Luke
BEN AND HIS FAMILY
๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ good shit goเฑฆิ sHit๐ thats โ some good๐๐shit right๐๐there๐๐๐ rightโthere โโif i do ฦฝaาฏ so my self ๐ฏ i say so ๐ฏ thats what im talking about right there right there (chorus: สณแถฆแตสฐแต แตสฐแตสณแต) mMMMMแทะ๐ฏ ๐๐ ๐ะO0ะเฌ OOOOOะเฌ เฌ Ooooแตแตแตแตแตแตแตแตแต๐ ๐๐ ๐ ๐ฏ ๐ ๐ ๐ ๐ ๐๐Good shit
Becoming king of Porgs and other cute creatures and he doesn't understand why
Becoming his father's son
Also being just like his mother
AND ALSO BEING JUST LIKE LUKE
Rey convinces Kylo to come with her and join the Resistance. The resulting tension and rebuilding of trust in him... As well as Jedi training with her
Interactions with his mother, whether it be from the above scenario, or even reaching out through the force
Poe, Finn and the rest of the Resistance reacting to kylo switching sides. Poe hitting on Kylo and having to give him tons of dumb nicknames because Ren only wants his mom and Rey to call him ben
Kylo being a weird Scary Older Brother to the entire Resistance.
Kylo and Anakin. KYLO AND KENOBI
Discussions/threads with Han Luke and Leia- discussion forgiveness and mistakes
Rebuilding the Jedi Order
Post War Threads
Kylo Ren disappears mysteriously from the war after major internal strife causes the downfall of the First Order. Someone comes across Ben Solo in hiding years later
Kylo on Jakku complaining its hot as balls. Look. I don't know. I'm just saying it would be hilarious
Drunk texts are the best don't tell me otherwise
SHIPPY PROMPTS
SHIPS I AM DOWN FOR
Kylo/Rey hands down
If ur sittin there readin this going "Oh no but so many Reys are bugging them I don't wanna be annoying" I don't fucking care TAG ME
Hand touching
I love you. I know.
Forcebond shenanigans. Kylo or Rey reaching out to touch the other while the other one is busy (GOOD SHIT. GOOD SHIT)
Rey getting seriously injured and separated from the Resistance. Her only option is to force time Kylo
Kylo finding Rey on Ahch'to and them fucking around under luke's nose (Forcebond in person who knows)SMUT HUT
FORCEFULLY GIVING REY A BIRTHDAY AND MAKING HER CELEBRATE IT
Snoke tries to kill kylo in front of rey and it doesn't go like he plans
REY IN A GODDAMN DRESS AND KYLO ACTUALLY NOT KNOWING HOW TO REACT AT ALL
CLEANING HER DUMB HOUSE
Forcebond dreaming shenanigans. Especially if Rey or Kylo are stuck in one anothers nightmares.
Rey finding out how bad Snoke really was.
Visiting Ahch'to together
Empress Rey
Empress Rey Working to secretly undermine the first order
Meeting before TFA/in different circumstances
Fighting/sexual tension/beating each other up. u kno
Just re-enact Pride and Prejudice with me
Either one suffering from insomnia and helping the other sleep
Public Sex
Weird DubCon Sex (Rey taking advantage of Kylo I'm freely admitting to my trash)
SHIPS I AM MAYBE ON
Kylo/Poe: I'm not of the fanon that Ben or Poe knew each other as kids. If you want to play that, talk with me first, we'll need to hash out details. If you wanna do hateship, that's fine too. Again. I'd like to be consulted first
Kylo/Hux: This is such a huge maybe it's almost a no. I am not down for fluffy Kylo/Hux. I don't think Kylo or Hux secretly love each other and that takes form in them wanting to murder each other when they walk into a room and see each other. I do not think Kylo wants anything to do with Hux's dick Ever. I only see this happening as Hux taking advantage of Kylo when he's emotionally compromised and unprotected without Snoke keeping Hux in line.
So Kylux is only a "cool lets do it" if you are willing to play out something unhealthy, toxic, with a huge dose of hate and manipulation. Kylo/ANYONE ELSE: Not against pretty much any other ship, but Kylo's a hard dude to ship with for. A lot of reasons. Talk with me first, and I'll see if we can work something out.
SHIPS I AM DOWN FOR
Kylo/Rey hands down
So Kylux is only a "cool lets do it" if you are willing to play out something unhealthy, toxic, with a huge dose of hate and manipulation. Kylo/ANYONE ELSE: Not against pretty much any other ship, but Kylo's a hard dude to ship with for. A lot of reasons. Talk with me first, and I'll see if we can work something out.
CHARACTERS/CROSSOVERS
I'm fine with every and any star wars characters. If you are doing something from the EU I request that you just have enough info in your profile so I know what your character's deal is
AU characters are fine. I'm not really into Gender Bent characters (sorry y'all), again-- I just need info in your profile about the AU (Unless it's discussed w me before hand)
I Herald from disney princess beginnings. Give me all your princesses I think this combo is fucking hilarious
Brienne of Tarth because i'm still laughing about it
God I will add more later. Really just tag me.
YES / NO / MAYBE
YES
text messages, actionspam, lengthy brackets, prose.
ous/ au/ all us tbh
previous meme or psl continuations / sequels / c&ping a starter i never replied to.
EMOTIONALLY HEAVY BULLSHIT
FLUFF
contact me if i drop a tag you want picked up
Angst
redemption arcs
intense emotionally heavy threads
Smut
general
hurt comfort
Kylo or Rey getting injured
Kylo being a huge fucking brat.
if there's anything you're not sure about, ask!
NO
Rape.
Dull RP.
Taking this character WAY TOO SERIOUSLY.
Me doing the work of moving a scene along
rape/non-con. Especially with Kylo as the aggressor (This can be changed with prior discussion and prior threading)
scatophilia, emetophiloa, necrophilia.
gender/sexuality play.
degradation involving racism or ablism.
power-gaming and ooc dick-measuring contests.
AUs with no information
OCs with no information
Maybe
Dub con
torture
killing
Trigger warnings important info
Mental health
I know everyone and their mom with an armchair psychologist degree wants to diagnose Kylo Ren/Ben Solo with whatever mental illness checks all the boxes. I know Bipolar and Borderline personality disorder are two popular illnesses to cite when it comes to his mental health. Along with a healthy dose of citing him as a sociopath/psychopath. However, I'm not going to be using those illnesses/personality disorders in how I play Kylo. While they fit on paper, I don't believe "what's wrong with him" presents in the correct fashion in canon for any one of the above listed issues.
I believe Kylo Ren/Ben Solo is suffering from: Recurring Chronic Major Depression it could be passed down through their family given what we know of Anakin and what happened with Luke; Post Traumatic Stress Disorder From his force powers manifesting with him having little control over it as a kid, from being sent away to Luke after his mother couldn't handle him on her own anymore, from his father leaving one day and never coming back, from having a voice whispering in his head his entire life, from that voice being a predator who preyed on his weaknesses and molded him into what he wanted Ben to be, from Luke Skywalker holding a lightsaber above his head, from abuse after abuse from Snoke, and probably a Ton more. Abandonment issues stemming first from his parents (And quite probably friends he had who left for whatever reason, or bridges he burned on his own) and then just. The entire force tbh. And abandonment issues is where he gets his unchecked rage, he, in canon, is quite literally triggered into a rage whenever he confronts someone who he felt abandoned him, or when he feels rejected or left behind. Finally he is a victim of Brainwashing and indoctrination from Snoke. Snoke is a narcissist who was using Kylo as a means to an end, it's been stated and shown that he was ready to kill Kylo after the Last Jedi since he had become unbalanced and unpredictable. If you don't agree with what I am saying here (Which is fine :) ), then I suggest you don't play with me. I am fairly confident in this being the way I see and play Kylo.
I play him as having triggers. I won't get into the reasoning behind each one, but i'll specify the specifics which come to mind: Abandonment (Perceived or real), his family, loss of control (Physically, emotionally, mentally, through the force)
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Wow excuse u. I am not a basketball player
Instead a couple reach in and pull at her and just sound more panicked in needing her immediate attention. ]
"avian-like aliens"
Though the reason for their incessant needling and overpowering concern remains lost in translation, panic is universal, and it becomes quite clear they have no intention of giving up. She sighs, a frustrated noise from the back of her throat, and drops the tools that had been in her hands to pry her arms out of their grasp.
They don't release her. Not until: ]
Fine. [ She doesn't have much choice in obliging them, really. They've made it clear they won't leave, and she can't continue to work like she is. ] I'll come with you.
[ To wherever. Maybe there is a looming threat they need to show her, or an intruder that's somehow happened across them, or —
It could be any number of things. She lets them usher her down the ramp and outside, making their trek up a sloping hill. ]
IM NOT AN AVIAN ALIEN. HORATIO IS
Which... if she thinks to tap back into the force she'll notice it's disturbed around the immediate area. Not twisted or dark, but certainly active. Loud. Enough to worry the caretakers into action at the very least, they aren't qualified to deal with this.
And, quite frankly, Luke had a few of these episodes as well-- but they had no way to help him and then he remained stubbornly cut off from the Force. It was just a Mess.
This is a Mess. But at least Rey is here????
If Rey decides to open herself back up, she'll feel flashes-- memories. Nothing solid, but the whisper of a voice, the feel of a glove, an invasive force in her mind and body and-- just all Not Great things. ]
horatio is just a demon lbr
It's Ben, undoubtedly, sucked back into the vortex of echoing memories. To the best of her ability, she braces herself against it, blocks out the whispers that curl around her ear as she enters the hut. The caretakers remain standing from afar, allowing her this privacy, when she softly shuts the door behind her. ]
Ben.
[ Prone as he is, asleep and restless, she doesn't move to shake him awake. Instead, she slides a hand through his hair where she crouches, a gentle gesture to rouse him. Anything more seems a recipe for startling him into a defensive attack. ]
edits this ten times.
It's like water breaking through a dam. At first just a steady drip drip drip and then a slowly rising crescendo as the drip turns to a trickle turns to a bursting stream. It's cool and bright and the darkness and whispers curling around his mind turn into the warm humming of Leia, the strong hands of Han--
And then the beacon of light herself ]
Rey... [ He blinks blearily. Trying to comprehend her form. The tendrils of his anxieties are still hanging on the edges of his vision and then he recalls their... Spat? He's not even sure what to call it at this point.
And it hits him then that she's leaving. Of course she is, she has to. She's leaving and she's angry and disappointed and-- ] I'm sorry--
[ It's quiet and rough around the edges. He tries to push himself up, but it's a shaky attempt. He's still hazy from sleep and anxiety, the nervous tension around him is tactile in how it hangs in the air. ]
edits YOU ten times
He doesn't know what he's apologizing for, she thinks. Only that he feels that he must. For that reason, she can't accept it, and doesn't pursue that thread. ]
I don't want to leave things like this.
[ She admits, quieter. Like this, trapped in their disappointment and anger with one another. The topic, now that it has arisen, begs the question of whether these nightmares will continue to plague him after she leaves.
There's nothing to be done for it. Luke's words echo in her mind, a reminder that there's nothing she can do but hope for time to heal him. ]
edits horatio ten times
[ His voice is uncharacteristically soft from sleep and emotion. Afraid that if he keeps speaking his emotions will burst. He's not sure what he can do besides apologize. This was his fault after all. All of it. ]
it still wouldn't fix him........... poor malfunctioning horatio
For a long moment, she's silent, quietly contemplative. She's heard him, of course, but she has no immediate resolution — and he is in no state to hear her hurt. Engaging him in a discussion of the future, and of her own feelings, doesn't feel right in the fragile condition he is in. Neither does it feel fair to herself to contain it, but —
Well, those are her choices, and she will not stumble into the pitfall of expecting too much too soon. She settles for the former, stroking her fingers across his scalp. ]
There's still time before I leave.
[ Twelve hours, if that. But it's still something. A proposal to move on without acknowledging what has occurred, sweeping it beneath the rug. When compared to leaving things as they are, or risk worsening them by pursuing that discussion, it's the more appealing option to her. ]
Gets caught in a tire swing and just Does Not
Should we discuss pod racing?
[ A self-depricating joke in all honesty. He vaguely wonders if she's actually heard of pod racing. But she's trying and so should he-- she did this for him. She could have let him die there, she could have turned away and left him alone. She could have brought him back to the Resistance to face trial and let him crumble, but she brought him here instead.
He needs to be better-- he knows. He swallows thickly and tries to gather himself back together. Truth be told he selfishly wants to stay in her lap and have her pet his hair for the next few hours. Promise him she'll return and that he's worthy of any of this, but he can't expect to rely on her like this forever. ] What can I do for you?
[ It's earnest, at least. And No the sexual connotations of This Entire situation isn't lost on him (the press of his face to her thighs, the warmth of her body so close to him, the feel of her slender form and really-- it wouldn't take much to nudge between her legs and--), but he isn't sure how that joke would land at this precise moment. He'd rather let her drive that conversation ]
if i ever come to ca for comic con i'm gonna make a pit stop to shove my face into horatio
Exist.
[ That's what he can do for her. The corners of her lips twitch upward, giving the brief impression that it might be an attempt at levity, but the bond discloses it as utterly earnest. Her nails scratch at his scalp, an idle sort of gesture, as she tries to sift through the impressions coming from his end of the connection. ]
You could. [ Vague, but she doesn't think to specify. He'll know what she's implying, punctuated by a slight parting of her lips. Not so much as to be obscene, but an invitation. ] If you wanted to.
[ To make it clear there's no pressure. Is it how she would prefer to spend the night, to say their goodbyes until next time? Yes. But it's Ben whom had lost ownership of his body, had it stolen, and she'll never demand him to perform for her. ]
no come for fanime, or just san fran j town. Or jsut to play with my dolls.
Well, he doesn't think crying while eating her out would be entirely seductive or an image he'd want to leave her with. So he takes a shuddering breath-- ]
I want to. [ That's earnest. Really earnest. Pushing his scalp and hair into her hand more earnest-- ] I need a few minutes is all.
[ He's dealing with overwhelming emotions right now. And the tittering Self Inserting Care Takers are giving him ideas of how to make it better.
Once he's not on the verge of tears from being valued and wanted. ]
why not all of the above
However long you need.
[ I'm not going anywhere would be a lie. A hollow promise she can't bring herself to express, and so she stamps down on it to provide him what he needs. — Or, well, what he's seeking out from her. Following clear cues is easier than gauging it on her own, and with his face pressing into her palm, there's no muddled message as to what he's requesting.
Though somewhat squished beneath the curve of his cheek, she strokes her thumb along his cheek, and then hunches over him just to brush her mouth over his temple. Some hair gets into her mouth in the process, but it's a sacrifice that has to be made. ]
COMICCON IS IN SAN DIEGO WHICH I S FAR FROM THE BAY AREA.
But she feeds into the neediness he has with out him asking and-- maybe it isn't good. Maybe he needs to find his own feet, be independent and not need her in such a visceral powerful way. But that Maybe could be tomorrow and the warmth of her lips is what teeters the wetness in his eyes over to actual tears and he really hates being a wreck. Was he this much of a wreck before??? He's sure he was-- just in a different way. A... Murder Anger way. Something he really can't muster up the energy for right now.
He shifts so more of him can be in her lap-- really to make it easier to brush his eyes across the fabric of the shirt she's got on if her fingers don't get there first. And with a shaking breath he speaks. ] Are the stars out yet?
i know nothing about CA geography as i have just revealed
Yes. [ But only barely, peeking out as the sky becomes a darker blue. It isn't a sight that stirs fondness in her for what it implies: the hours are escaping them, slipping out of her grasp, no matter how she tries to hold onto it. There is no avoiding their separation, looming closer. ] We can go look. Take the blanket with you.
[ She's assuming that's what he most want, anyway. Why ask otherwise? She nudges her nose into his hair, playing the role of a creepy girlfriend as she smells the scent of it, and then straightens her spine to try to nudge him into standing. ]
Proof u need to come to CA and let me fly u around on a magic carpet
He straightens with that nudge and gets his arms under him first. His strength isnt entirely back-- this day has drained everything out of him, but he eventually gets to his feet and... gathers up a couple of bundles of blankets.
He'll glance up to catch her gaze, he's open and vulnerable, but better. ]
If it's possible to find a spot we can be left alone.
[ Fucking fish bird nuns what the fuck leave them alone Jesus CHrist on a Cracker. ]
only when it's not on fire
By the ocean.
[ As though she would choose anything less, now that she has found the island that had plagued her, experienced the serenity of its surroundings. At the end of the day, however, he could suggest a mudbank and she would spread her legs for him in it without a care. ]
They won't follow us there.
[ Eagerly, she wrestles one of the blankets out of his hands, and latches onto his hand to lead him outside of the hut. ]
We're always on fire
Honestly they're like that hipster main stream Girlfriend Insta Photo right now. It's kinda gross but really cute I can't even handle it.
The air is crisp and twilight twinkles in the sky. If he could find peace anywhere, it would be here with her. As they make their way past the Lanai and up rocks and over grass he wants to express his gratitude again. ] I'll miss you.
[ Has he said it? He's not sure. Probably. But it's the best thing he can say beyond "I love you" to express what he wants. Its more important than an apology or their dumb fight over Nothing. He'll miss her, he wants her here by his side. He needs to learn to express this more than whatever else he thinks he has to say. ]
the CA lifestyle
It all feels so meaningless, so petty, in the grand scheme. There is nothing like the threat of loss to put into perspective what is and isn't important.
More than that, it's everything she had wanted to hear. Everything she had wanted to know, assuaging the fear that he might move on without her. That he may not need her anymore once he was standing on his own. ]
I'll miss you. [ She retorts, brightness lighting up her expression. It isn't her intention to outdo him, but simply to remind him that he isn't alone in that sentiment. ] Every day.
[ The knowledge that he will remain from her, easy to reach from afar, is only a small balm. It will never be the same as sleeping beside him, awakening to the warm hold of his embrace, but it's close. Something to sustain her while she's gone.
Speaking of gone, she drops the blanket to the ground with little ceremony. They're barely at the shore's edge, but she doesn't have the patience to drag him further when he's sharing those sentiments. With her hands free, she grabs onto his forearms, trying to tug him into her. ]
Tell me again.
Come be on fire w me
He's brought into her space easily. He looks tired and a little wrecked, but for her he's standing here. He'll continue for her. ]
I'll miss you. Every day.
[ Every hour, every minute, every second. He gathers her closer. His arms enclosing around her, caging her in as if proximity could draw their time out. ] I missed you.
[ He was such an asshole. He shoved her away, he tried to kill her. Destroy her, force her hand and he had still missed her. Thought about her. Wanted her. What a wreck he was. ]
i set my a/c so low by accident that being on fire almost sounds nice
[ And that had been the point, to some extent; removing herself from his life to show that she couldn't support his choices, couldn't stand by his side, until he saw the error in his ways for himself. More selfishly, she had hoped — almost in vain — that he might miss her, might yearn for her.
It's enough to know that he has. It's enough to have him here now, blood and solid flesh. She's quiet for a moment, arms winding their way around his neck, and then she tips back to regard him. ]
Will you? [ Obviously. But for the sake of this, she's going to pretend his sincerity isn't glaringly obvious. ] I'm not sure I'm convinced.
THEN CALIFORNIAAAAAAAAAAAA IS THE PLACE FOR UUUUU
But she made it all easy.
She pulls back and regards him-- did he really just need to exist? Could it be as simple as that?
He leans in to kiss her, it's simple but it lingers. Emotion bursts at the seams of it and how the hell will he keep sane with out her.
His lips don't quite leave hers as he speaks. ] Lay down on the blanket. I'll show you.
and then i can steal horatio and athena
Eventually, she decides kriff it, and kicks off her boots somewhere to the side. Her shirt follows next, leaving her unabashedly bare beneath the sky. He'd needed time to recuperate, they'd decided, but she's trusting that his instructions are a clear sign that they can move forward. Holding his gaze, she settles herself onto the blanket, strewn about as it is. First, she leans back on her elbows, and eventually wriggles down until she's fully sprawled across the expanse of fibers. ]
Come show me.
[ She doesn't imagine he needs permission to resume, some signal to move forward, but she gives it all the same — perhaps hoping that the invitation is enough to shake him out of his thoughts. ]
Can u really steal urself tho?
Settling on the ground in front of her, the breeze and the smell of salt air blowing past them as the stars light up in the sky one by one, this all feels like one really weird basterdization of her dream. But-- he supposes if her Force visions had anything to do with showing her this, it was somehow just the complete summary of his life so far. Somewhat surreal, mixed with cosmic powers, mixed with sex with Rey. He can get on board for his entire life leading up to sex with Rey.
Her legs are hitched on to his shoulders and he presses his lips to the skin on her inner thighs as his fingers travel up and down the muscle. He's slow and studious and wants to memorize the feel of her before she's gone for the next week or two-- but he's also impatient. And he knows she is as well and won't put up with slow teasing for long before she kicks him in the back of the head. So-- all things considered, she doesn't need to wait much longer before his mouth finds her cunt. A gentle and slow kiss at first, before he begins to kiss up and down her folds-- drawing pleasure from her slowly, right before he runs his tongue across all of her. ]