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Kylo Ren
The protein shakes, where are they?
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GENERAL PROMPTS
Redemption arc: Kylo leaving the First Order. Due to either slow burn reasons (Figuring out holy shit I don't want this) or Immediate Issues That Need Solving (Rey's kidnapped, Hux turns on him, etcetc)
Re-adjusting to life in the light/in the Resistance. Whether it goes smoothly or Rough is up to the situation
Early First Order Days. Especially when Snoke was breaking his Ben Solo identity
Ben Solo Pre-First Order
Ben Solo as the most obnoxious Resistance Member idek
Jedi Hippie camp with Luke
BEN AND HIS FAMILY
👌👀👌👀👌👀👌👀👌👀 good shit go౦ԁ sHit👌 thats ✔ some good👌👌shit right👌👌there👌👌👌 right✔there ✔✔if i do ƽaү so my self 💯 i say so 💯 thats what im talking about right there right there (chorus: ʳᶦᵍʰᵗ ᵗʰᵉʳᵉ) mMMMMᎷМ💯 👌👌 👌НO0ОଠOOOOOОଠଠOoooᵒᵒᵒᵒᵒᵒᵒᵒᵒ👌 👌👌 👌 💯 👌 👀 👀 👀 👌👌Good shit
Becoming king of Porgs and other cute creatures and he doesn't understand why
Becoming his father's son
Also being just like his mother
AND ALSO BEING JUST LIKE LUKE
Rey convinces Kylo to come with her and join the Resistance. The resulting tension and rebuilding of trust in him... As well as Jedi training with her
Interactions with his mother, whether it be from the above scenario, or even reaching out through the force
Poe, Finn and the rest of the Resistance reacting to kylo switching sides. Poe hitting on Kylo and having to give him tons of dumb nicknames because Ren only wants his mom and Rey to call him ben
Kylo being a weird Scary Older Brother to the entire Resistance.
Kylo and Anakin. KYLO AND KENOBI
Discussions/threads with Han Luke and Leia- discussion forgiveness and mistakes
Rebuilding the Jedi Order
Post War Threads
Kylo Ren disappears mysteriously from the war after major internal strife causes the downfall of the First Order. Someone comes across Ben Solo in hiding years later
Kylo on Jakku complaining its hot as balls. Look. I don't know. I'm just saying it would be hilarious
Drunk texts are the best don't tell me otherwise
SHIPPY PROMPTS
SHIPS I AM DOWN FOR
Kylo/Rey hands down
If ur sittin there readin this going "Oh no but so many Reys are bugging them I don't wanna be annoying" I don't fucking care TAG ME
Hand touching
I love you. I know.
Forcebond shenanigans. Kylo or Rey reaching out to touch the other while the other one is busy (GOOD SHIT. GOOD SHIT)
Rey getting seriously injured and separated from the Resistance. Her only option is to force time Kylo
Kylo finding Rey on Ahch'to and them fucking around under luke's nose (Forcebond in person who knows)SMUT HUT
FORCEFULLY GIVING REY A BIRTHDAY AND MAKING HER CELEBRATE IT
Snoke tries to kill kylo in front of rey and it doesn't go like he plans
REY IN A GODDAMN DRESS AND KYLO ACTUALLY NOT KNOWING HOW TO REACT AT ALL
CLEANING HER DUMB HOUSE
Forcebond dreaming shenanigans. Especially if Rey or Kylo are stuck in one anothers nightmares.
Rey finding out how bad Snoke really was.
Visiting Ahch'to together
Empress Rey
Empress Rey Working to secretly undermine the first order
Meeting before TFA/in different circumstances
Fighting/sexual tension/beating each other up. u kno
Just re-enact Pride and Prejudice with me
Either one suffering from insomnia and helping the other sleep
Public Sex
Weird DubCon Sex (Rey taking advantage of Kylo I'm freely admitting to my trash)
SHIPS I AM MAYBE ON
Kylo/Poe: I'm not of the fanon that Ben or Poe knew each other as kids. If you want to play that, talk with me first, we'll need to hash out details. If you wanna do hateship, that's fine too. Again. I'd like to be consulted first
Kylo/Hux: This is such a huge maybe it's almost a no. I am not down for fluffy Kylo/Hux. I don't think Kylo or Hux secretly love each other and that takes form in them wanting to murder each other when they walk into a room and see each other. I do not think Kylo wants anything to do with Hux's dick Ever. I only see this happening as Hux taking advantage of Kylo when he's emotionally compromised and unprotected without Snoke keeping Hux in line.
So Kylux is only a "cool lets do it" if you are willing to play out something unhealthy, toxic, with a huge dose of hate and manipulation. Kylo/ANYONE ELSE: Not against pretty much any other ship, but Kylo's a hard dude to ship with for. A lot of reasons. Talk with me first, and I'll see if we can work something out.
SHIPS I AM DOWN FOR
Kylo/Rey hands down
So Kylux is only a "cool lets do it" if you are willing to play out something unhealthy, toxic, with a huge dose of hate and manipulation. Kylo/ANYONE ELSE: Not against pretty much any other ship, but Kylo's a hard dude to ship with for. A lot of reasons. Talk with me first, and I'll see if we can work something out.
CHARACTERS/CROSSOVERS
I'm fine with every and any star wars characters. If you are doing something from the EU I request that you just have enough info in your profile so I know what your character's deal is
AU characters are fine. I'm not really into Gender Bent characters (sorry y'all), again-- I just need info in your profile about the AU (Unless it's discussed w me before hand)
I Herald from disney princess beginnings. Give me all your princesses I think this combo is fucking hilarious
Brienne of Tarth because i'm still laughing about it
God I will add more later. Really just tag me.
YES / NO / MAYBE
YES
text messages, actionspam, lengthy brackets, prose.
ous/ au/ all us tbh
previous meme or psl continuations / sequels / c&ping a starter i never replied to.
EMOTIONALLY HEAVY BULLSHIT
FLUFF
contact me if i drop a tag you want picked up
Angst
redemption arcs
intense emotionally heavy threads
Smut
general
hurt comfort
Kylo or Rey getting injured
Kylo being a huge fucking brat.
if there's anything you're not sure about, ask!
NO
Rape.
Dull RP.
Taking this character WAY TOO SERIOUSLY.
Me doing the work of moving a scene along
rape/non-con. Especially with Kylo as the aggressor (This can be changed with prior discussion and prior threading)
scatophilia, emetophiloa, necrophilia.
gender/sexuality play.
degradation involving racism or ablism.
power-gaming and ooc dick-measuring contests.
AUs with no information
OCs with no information
Maybe
Dub con
torture
killing
Trigger warnings important info
Mental health
I know everyone and their mom with an armchair psychologist degree wants to diagnose Kylo Ren/Ben Solo with whatever mental illness checks all the boxes. I know Bipolar and Borderline personality disorder are two popular illnesses to cite when it comes to his mental health. Along with a healthy dose of citing him as a sociopath/psychopath. However, I'm not going to be using those illnesses/personality disorders in how I play Kylo. While they fit on paper, I don't believe "what's wrong with him" presents in the correct fashion in canon for any one of the above listed issues.
I believe Kylo Ren/Ben Solo is suffering from: Recurring Chronic Major Depression it could be passed down through their family given what we know of Anakin and what happened with Luke; Post Traumatic Stress Disorder From his force powers manifesting with him having little control over it as a kid, from being sent away to Luke after his mother couldn't handle him on her own anymore, from his father leaving one day and never coming back, from having a voice whispering in his head his entire life, from that voice being a predator who preyed on his weaknesses and molded him into what he wanted Ben to be, from Luke Skywalker holding a lightsaber above his head, from abuse after abuse from Snoke, and probably a Ton more. Abandonment issues stemming first from his parents (And quite probably friends he had who left for whatever reason, or bridges he burned on his own) and then just. The entire force tbh. And abandonment issues is where he gets his unchecked rage, he, in canon, is quite literally triggered into a rage whenever he confronts someone who he felt abandoned him, or when he feels rejected or left behind. Finally he is a victim of Brainwashing and indoctrination from Snoke. Snoke is a narcissist who was using Kylo as a means to an end, it's been stated and shown that he was ready to kill Kylo after the Last Jedi since he had become unbalanced and unpredictable. If you don't agree with what I am saying here (Which is fine :) ), then I suggest you don't play with me. I am fairly confident in this being the way I see and play Kylo.
I play him as having triggers. I won't get into the reasoning behind each one, but i'll specify the specifics which come to mind: Abandonment (Perceived or real), his family, loss of control (Physically, emotionally, mentally, through the force)
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When had that changed? ]
We'll see what the galaxy calls for when this conflict ends.
[ His execution, probably. y i k e s. ]
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I'm the last Jedi, Ben. You and I — we're the only two Force-users left. [ She offers this as factual rather than haughty arrogance. ] I could put you under my authority. They would have no say in it.
[ Selfish, yes. Above all else, it's a form of desperation and a refusal to lose him. She won't allow him to be taken from her in that way. ]
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But Rey's will was unmatched. He doubted even his mother could face her. ]
The Jedi Order may have a chance with you in charge of rebuilding it.
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I hope so.
[ If nothing else, Ben believes in her. He's one of the few that ever has. Warmth bursts in her chest, suddenly overwrought with that realization, and the resulting fondness spreads across her expression. Her mouth softens in time with the tenderness to her eyes, nearing a smile. ]
I'll have you to balance me.
[ Should he stay with her, choose this life with her, but she doesn't want to imagine that he might decide to walk a separate path without her once again. ]
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He should be less amazed that she insists on having him in her life. That she’s willing to face hell and heaven to keep him at her side. As it stands he can’t tell if that’s good or bad. If he’s destroying what she should be creating— hindering it. But as it stands he knows she won’t let him contemplate the possibility.
He’ll go another route then. ]
And to consort with.
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[ She confirms that with a smile that borders on conspiratorial, though it does raise a tangential concern. Taking him into her authority would look — questionable, if the specific nature of their relationship were to be revealed. Reason to doubt her, unfortunately, and bring her bias into the equation. It's a worry for another time, however, and though they've discussed it, it's still a hypothetical. There could still be another route for him to take, another chance for his redemption elsewhere. That's his choice. ]
I think we can do away with that rule.
[ Those that condemn emotional attachment, she means. She has suffered years of isolation; imposing that same fate on anyone else doesn't sit right with her. ]
Sees how long i can last with 15 icons.
Luke wanted to do away with it as well.
[ Honestly his largest objection to any fraternizing going on in jedi hippie camp was more because he cannot manage that much drama and less because he didn't want people falling in love ]
i was going to say a day LOOKS LIKE I WAS WRONG
But she can't do it alone. Pulling herself from those thoughts, she's contemplatively quiet for a moment. Her lips press together when she looks up at him. ]
Then why didn't he?
[ Look, it feels like a warranted question. ]
I NEEDED ACTUAL NEUTRAL/IMPASSIVE ICONS
I'll be honest I was tempted to answer this tag with "WE HAVE NO IDEA WHAT WAS GOIN ON WITH LUKE JUST ACT AS IF I RESPONDED NORMALLY WITH ACTUAL CANON INFO" and then u could tag back from there BUT AS IT STANDS
I can only make a wild guess. ]
He had. [ At least Kylo was sure Luke had for the most part. It wasn't as if there was heavy duty consorting in Jedi Training to combat against. ] I'm sure he wouldn't have minded any of us seeking relationships out after we had graduated.
[ But what had happened with Kylo was.... not about consorting at all. ]
that's ben solo's permanent expression
[ She repeats, clearly disapproving. It sounds like it's mostly conjecture on Ben's part, that Luke had taken no strong position either way, but it's the context that perturbs her the most. After they had graduated. ]
That could have taken years.
[ Not only for Ben himself, but the other students involved. It hardly seems fair to her that they would be denied that, expected to set aside all emotional attachments until they were truly prepared. She is too steeped in the connections she has found to think they could be more of a disadvantage than the benefit they have been in all that they've given her. A place where she is, for the most part, accepted. A place where she can do good, and the purpose that comes with it. Reason to fight, when she has only ever served herself, when survival has demanded she be selfish. ]
Hence I need all 250 of them
I never asked him, I wasn't dwelling on the idea of romance. [ More on Snoke and being abandoned and lied to but you know. ]
He wasn't against it, but he didn't want his students fucking one another and stirring up problems while we were trying to focus on the Force.
[ Things Rey won't realize are actual real distractions and fucking frustrating to deal with as an adult watching kids until she has her own Jedi students and is like "OH MY GOD I AM SO TIRED OF THESE DUMB FUCKING LOVE TRIANGLES AND WALKING IN ON STUDENTS GIVING EACH OTHER HANDIES AND ORAL SEX" ]
250 resting bitchfaces
[ Welcome to Rey's super helpful advisement on the subject. ]
You would still have to focus on the Force after you finished training. [ Like ??? It's not like fucking has forced her to forget where her loyalties lie. She can't imagine it would be any different for Luke's students. ] I don't see what difference it makes.
[ If anything, it sounds to her like expecting everyone to abandon all other aspects of their life if they don't somehow benefit the Force. Deprivation for the sake of one's training. ]
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When you're in school your focus should be on your studies. [ He'll say that firmly, because with her logic you could... just apply that to Anything. Not even just the Force. ] Not if someone returns your feelings or when you can sneak past Luke to get a quick fuck in.
[ So many whapped wrists and palms tbh.
But seriously. This is getting outta hand. ]
It wasn't about denying emotional connections- not to the extreme of the other Jedi teachings. It was more so Luke didn't have to deal with walking in on intimate moments or any fall out if the relationships got... complicated.
[ Complicated. A catch all term encapsulating, in this instance: Break-ups, cheating, unrequited love, Weird mushy poetry, having to listen to ANYONE lament about Ben's sad pretty eyes, weird hyper competitive bullshit, Hormones, PREGNANCY, and much much more. ]
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If someone can't handle something like another person not returning their feelings, then they shouldn't be a Jedi to begin with.
[ On the other hand, they are discussing teenagers, but Rey has no frame of reference for that. She's never had the childhood that he has, and solitude had been her only truly loyal friend for a number of years. Every relationship she had built beyond that, until recently, had been founded on bartering and trade-offs. Alliances to benefit one another. Relationship fallout and all it involves isn't terribly familiar, understandably.
More than that, she can't help but to feel he's lecturing her, speaking to her like she's a child just because of her limited experience with normal occurrences like relationships and studies. ]
I'm in the middle of my studies. Fucking you doesn't mean I've lost focus.
[ She says, pointed and sharp, in case he's forgotten. ]
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And while he could poke at the very fact that developing feelings for him had, in fact, hindered her in some ways. That won't get him anywhere and that would be saying something just to make himself feel correct. Which is all well and good until ur alone at night with only your hand cause ur a fukkin dumbass. ]
You haven't lost your focus or resolve. [ Because, despite how distracting Kylo Ren just Popping up into her life was. From the looks of it Luke had been more of a hindered to her studies than he had. Which was another matter for a different time. ] But unrequited love and suffering for it isn't a weakness-- it's generally a fact of life. Not even a Jedi is immune to it.
[ I feel as tho we r just talking about Luke's life tbh. that leia shit done fucked my boy up. ]
Luke recognized the strength in those emotions, in being able to wield the Force through them. But love is volatile. It can cause even the most loyal of your students to turn on each other-- [ He glances down at her quickly. ] -- or even their master.
[ lol why do u think snoke wanted him to get rid of all his emotional connections??????? ]
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[ Defensiveness has made her snappish. Jumpy, even, in that she has reached the conclusion that he's inserting words like weakness and suffering in her mouth.
By this point, it feels like he has agreed with her decision, encouraged it by bolstering it with what Luke had once considered, and then immediately begun to criticize her for it. They're not going to agree, she realizes, and she's already tired of hearing him tear down her points so methodically. To Rey, it feels an awful lot like lacking faith in her own vision of what the Jedi could be. Lacking faith in her to do right by it. ]
Restricting what someone is allowed to feel isn't right, Jedi or not. [ She says, finally, and rolls off of him to be able to stretch her legs off of the side of the couch. ] You obviously see it differently.
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[ BECAUSE IF HE DID HE WOULDN'T BE FUCKING HER. WOULDNT HAVE KILLED SNOKE FOR HER.
AND HE'S JUST. So confused here.
Super confused as to how the fuck this happened.
AGAIN.
Your girlfriend lacks experience and social everything]Rey, tell me what you're feeling. [ WOW THAT SOUNDS LIKE A DICK COMMAND ] Please.
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I'm feeling like I don't want to talk about the Jedi anymore.
[ In this, like she is in most things, she's bluntly straightforward. She lacks the social finesse to say "I don't want to talk about this, let's change the subject" but, at the very least, she's purposefully spared his feelings. It isn't sugarcoated, no, but it's far better than admitting she's rankled and irate. ]
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He'd wanted to offer insight and clarification, because despite Luke Skywalkers many failings-- he had never believed in the tradition of cutting emotional attachments. And somehow he wanted Rey to know that.
So he wants to speak. To snip that he simply tried to answer her question, that he offered her his own experience from what he had seen-- But he looks around and realizes in all honesty. He's at her mercy.
Something simmers in his gut and he stands then-- And says the dumbest thing he could muster at this point. ]
I'll be back in the village.
[ yikes tbh. He's going to make his way back to where he's dropped his gloves and open the ramp. ]
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Ignores it. Refuses to grant him any sort of response, any sort of acknowledgement. Moisture prickles in her eyes, courtesy of a frustrated anger, as she gathers her shirt from the floor and storms past him. Deeper, into the bowels of the Falcon, where she intends to stay for the rest of the evening as unhealthy coping mechanisms dictate. ]
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And as he steps off the ship he realizes how out of depth in all of this he feels. He hadn't had any real relationships in so long that he's entirely with out the mental or emotional resources to deal with this. He's not even sure what this is.
And as he wanders past the lanai and into the dim little hut his traitorous mind wonders if this is why she wanted him to hold off. If they were truly designed to just bring each other pain. After all, this is what his parents had done. Argued with one another and butted heads and hurt each other until one day his father didn't come back home.
Worse yet it had ultimately been over him.
He slumps back into the bundle of blankets and the sparse few pillows and glances at the datapad Rey brought him. He nearly picks it up before guilt eats at him and suddenly he just feels.
Tired.
He wonders if he should apologize, but it would ring hollow and he knows that. Not because he doesn't have things he needs to apologize for, but because he doesn't know what to apologize or how to apologize given she doesn't want to discuss it.
So-- he lays down and studies the room from where he lay. Trying to find peace when his mind is in conflict with itself. His eyes do close after some time and his mind drifts. But no where peaceful.
The arguing of his parents, the Falcon growing smaller on the horizon, Snoke's voice-- Snoke's touch, the face of Luke that night-- the taste of leather. ]
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It isn't a decision made out of resentment or spite. Her avoidance is too steeped in hurt, in defensiveness, for anything less to be a motivating factor. As far as she is concerned, he has made it clear he no longer wants to be around her — has reacted to her honesty, her wish to change the subject to one less rife with disagreement — and she adapts accordingly.
Ironically, it brings with it the same fate she had been hoping to avoid in shutting down that conversation: tension between them and injured feelings. She isn't equipped to sort it out, and his evasion of her eliminates most of her desire to chase him down and rectify it, no matter the empty loneliness and the longing that results from it.
To distract herself, she throws on that ratty shirt and ignores the cum that wants to cling to her thighs. Her underwear still lay discarded in that hut, courtesy of squabbling Lanai, but the tackiness of her skin doesn't bother her. Only reminds her that he isn't here as she sets to work on tinkering with the Falcon, heading down to adjust the propulsion tank, which seems to only serve as a further reminder that she'll be leaving him soon enough.
Still, there's work to be done. Work that provides a decent distraction every time her mind threatens to wander. ]
bird like. skinny. feet.
Today it's Snoke. Snoke is with him again and whispering everything he doesn't want to here. That this is proof beyond doubt that he is worthless. That he should have stayed in the dark's hold, that he had been right on the cusp of being Vader's heir--
And combined with the echoing memory of Hux's touch and the cold biting through him in the hut, he has no easy place to escape.
He fidgets and moans and soon enough there is a small group of caretakers wandering up the Falcons ramp to come find Rey where ever she is. They have never been polite and always seem....
Grouchy.
But this time they seem more frantic and panicked than anything else. ]
la Nai has bird like skinny feet
Busying herself unfortunately means she isn't prepared for any company, and doesn't sense it as anything more than a nagging pull. When she recognizes a new presence in the Falcon for what it is, it's already too late. The Lanai have swarmed their way into the engineering bay to squawk and titter. Understandably, she can't translate any of it, and her experiences with the caretakers in the past is — unpleasant, at best.
She hasn't forgotten their earlier judgement today. The morning is still fresh in her mind, as is their tendency to invade the hut whenever they please. In this equation, Rey is the grouchy one. ]
You need to leave.
[ First they've barged into the hut she's taken up, and now the Falcon. That piece of junk is too important for her not to feel irate. ]
Wow excuse u. I am not a basketball player
Instead a couple reach in and pull at her and just sound more panicked in needing her immediate attention. ]
"avian-like aliens"
IM NOT AN AVIAN ALIEN. HORATIO IS
horatio is just a demon lbr
edits this ten times.
edits YOU ten times
edits horatio ten times
it still wouldn't fix him........... poor malfunctioning horatio
Gets caught in a tire swing and just Does Not
if i ever come to ca for comic con i'm gonna make a pit stop to shove my face into horatio
no come for fanime, or just san fran j town. Or jsut to play with my dolls.
why not all of the above
COMICCON IS IN SAN DIEGO WHICH I S FAR FROM THE BAY AREA.
i know nothing about CA geography as i have just revealed
Proof u need to come to CA and let me fly u around on a magic carpet
only when it's not on fire
We're always on fire
the CA lifestyle
Come be on fire w me
i set my a/c so low by accident that being on fire almost sounds nice
THEN CALIFORNIAAAAAAAAAAAA IS THE PLACE FOR UUUUU
and then i can steal horatio and athena
Can u really steal urself tho?