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i got some bad new for u if u r trying to avoid RoS spoilers

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If you direct your attention to my conspiracy theory madness below about the original intended ("true") ending for Rise of Skywalker, it's a bit obvious that I'd like to play out scenarios where Ben does, in fact, survive the movie. The awkwardness around the Resistance and the entirety of space, Rey having to struggle with her desire to keep him safe at all costs vs her want to be open with her friends. And the both of them having to deal with the weight of the fact that Leia, Luke, and Han all sacrificed themselves for Ben. And the residual C-PTSD from this entire goddamn trilogy. also what color is ur lightsaber ben

Okay seriously tho. How pissed would poe be to find out leia gave her life to that piece of shit Kylo Ren? Also every time Rey or Ben thinks "oh we can just go talk to Le---" and then that sad piano music from scrubs plays.

Sad Lonely Housewife Ben Solo. With a black frilly Apron. I'm only partially joking

I'd actually dig something where he remains dead/gone for longer than just a few seconds. Like. Leia takes a bit to reboot into "Second Birth Of My Child" metaphor. It could take a few hours or even a few days and in the mean time Rey's just collapsing in on herself about everything away from all her friends. Isolating herself and "Oh wait. what the fuck. HE'S BACK"

Planet hopping with Ben and Rey on the "how the fuck do we even restart the Jedi Order" bus!!! Maybe they steal the falcon from Lando. Unsure how to justify it. Just know I want Han's son to swoop in and take the ship back because can Lando be all that mad about it tho?

Speaking of, how the fuck would Chewbacca and Lando feel about Leia's final sacrifice? Would they help Rey smuggle Ben while the galaxy celebrates his death? Would there be time limits or stipulations? Or maybe they're the first ones to figure out what Rey is hiding and what is that confrontation like?

For scenarios which follow along with the 'theatrical'/canon ending as it were. Rey absolutely losing her shit over Ben's death and he attempts to comfort her. Unsure that will work well, but that's the fun of RP. Her questioning whether it was him or a product of her imagination. And just her absolute inability to cope with the other half of her dead.

Rey goes Dark to get Ben back. Possibly against his wishes. He wants her to move on, she can't, she refuses. Time travel is always an option for this shit. And if she's successful, would Ben realize something's wrong? And if he figured out what she did.... would he actually care?

Alternate universe theories. Like not traditional AU, but through some Force fuckery a rift between the movie's canon and the intended ending occur. Rey finds Ben in this rift and just the absolute emotional meltdown that will occur from there.

Forcebond shenanigans, ofc.
Forbidden relationship bullshit is just part of the package ig
Arranged marriage is also just A++
Also now that we know how the fuck close Ben was to turning nearly the entire fucking time finding any other canon point and just fucking the entire timeline up
Ben actually HELPING the Resistance take down Palps before yeeting himself at Rey.
Ben having to wait awkwardly 15 ft away as Finn and Poe screech at Rey about her Supreme Leader Secret and Rose is just trying to do her best for everyone

No seriously. Can we kill off C3P0 for real?????

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โœจ The True Ending โœจ


Welcome one. Welcome all. I have brought all of you here today to say that YOU WERE LIED AND DECEIVED BY THE FORCES OF HOLLYWOOD AND UNCHECKED CAPITALISM. 'How?' You ask. And yes. I shall answer. It is simple:
The ending of the Rise of Skywalker was wrong

Wait. Excuse me. WHAT THE FUCK?
You read correctly, dear friends. Someone fucked with the editing of Rise of Skywalker and it changed the entire ending of the movie. It changed the characterization of three key characters and it's clear this was against the creator's wishes. I'll be breaking this down into a few key sections. What were the changes, Why I believe these changes were made (and made last minute), and do I consider this ending more or less canon then the theatrical ending. So. JOIN ME ON THIS ADVENTURE FRIEND

The plot changes/editing change
It's fairly simple. They changed Leia's role in the plot, this changed the entire direction of the last few minutes of the movie. Let me break the timeline down
โ€” Deathstar fight on the ocean still happens, Ben is distracted by Leia reaching out to him. She either still enters her "disappointment son" coma here, or perhaps simply just reaches out to him.
โ€” From here, the plot continues as normal. Ben and Rey both get to the sith rave separately.
โ€” Rey Dies
โ€” Ben Revives her and dies.
โ€” Leia chooses THIS MOMENT to die and give her life to her son
โ€” Ben is revived. He and Rey kiss.
โ€” Move to conclusion

WHAT EVIDENCE DO I HAVE THESE CHANGES WERE MADE (and at the last moment)
Take in note, my evidence is circumstantial, but circumstantial evidence still counts as proof
โ€” Leia's final role in the movie is insanely unclear. She also takes 12 hours to actually die or something. Again. Confusing
โ€” Ben's final words, as of this moment, are "OW". Adam Driver said he was nervous about his final dialogue in the movie to the point he stressed about it on the flight over. And. Man. IDK about you but OW seems a little unstressful to say
โ€” There was no Force Ghost Ben, a decision that is baffling story wise. It would take any competent VFX team hardly any effort to throw a ghostly adam driver next to Leia and Luke. And this would be advantageous to add to the plot if Ben was going to die, give that final bit of closure to the Skywalker fam.
โ€” Rey's near LACK of emotion over his death. Go watch her realize she has to leave Ben behind in TLJ and tell me that the difference isn't noticeable. It's completely against her character.
โ€” The weird beats of Leia going into her disappointment son coma and the other strange beats of Ben's death. Especially the fact that you only see him disappear in like. one shot.
โ€” None of the cast thought he was going to die
โ€” Wow I wonder why Adam Driver is adamant about never wanting to do star wars at this point?
โ€” Wow, why does disney keep resetting the character poll of who is the most anticipated character of this movie????
โ€” The prophecy about Ben's death is completely unnecessary at this point. If it was brought up during TFA, it's understandable to put that thread there. Instead it's in the last movie when his death seems to be a foregone conclusion???
โ€” So Rey's fine for Luke and Leia even tho she's palpatines kid, but Luke and Leia don't seem all that bothered by Ben's death??????
โ€” This was supposed to be Leia's film and complete her arc. And while I understand that there was a lack of footage to use for her, it's odd that she ended up not playing much of a role beyond "Distract Ben so he gets stabbed ig"
โ€” Every single hole in characterization for Luke, Leia, and Rey, every strange beat that didn't really make sense in Ben and Rey's fight on the ocean and during their ??? Mutual deaths???? and the some how rushed and dragged on ending can be solved by a simple solution. Occam's razor, Ben was never meant to die permanently.

โ€” The fact that there was no final dialogue for Ben after his talk with his father suggests he had something significant to say after his resurrection
โ€” The fact that they didn't have a cut of Rey absolutely LOSING HER MIND over losing to, what amounts to, the other half of her soul suggests that she was never supposed to lose him permanently
โ€” The fact that there is no Ben Ghost means that they didn't have the time to slip that in before pushing it out to theaters
โ€” The way the final scenes with Rey are shot and edited are, again, weird, off balance. It seems like it ends WAY TOO QUICKLY and far too on the nose.
โ€” no but really guys. His final words are "OW"
โ€” As for WHO changed it, because of the fact that this is clearly an edit job done at the last minute? I'm putting my money on a CEO that is above Kathleen Kennedy and JJ Abrhrams. I think their hands are tied ATM. This is the ending that had been planned for, this is the ending they wanted, otherwise there would not be such big holes that felt weird and dishonest to the characters. And, like, Kylo Ren/Ben Solo was JJ's child, he wouldn't have done him dirty like this.\

THEATRICAL ENDING/TRUE ENDING
I'm sure opinions would be divided on which ending is canon depending on the person. The theatrical ending will be what's considered canon in the universe of star wars at large. For myself, I find it hard to deny the creators and filmmakers the right to present the story they wanted to tell. So, in that way, both endings are true for me. Though, I am biased-- both as someone who is an artist myself and someone who adores Kylo Ren's/Ben Solo's character-- I like the story the film team were trying to tell over the agenda that whoever pushed for these changes had. Personally, I believe it pushes Star Wars as a universe forward into new territory rather than keep it stagnant in the same old same old that it's always been. Plus. this maintains the integrity of Luke, Leia, and Rey's characters, Ben was never forgotten, far too gone, or unloved. Leia gave him one final gift, a second chance.

That said, I'm not pushing this ending on anyone. I won't be playing it by default. I would rather ask permission or have someone else bring it up.


Sin Bin aka triggery bullshit

So no surprise. Kylo Ren/Ben Solo comes with a pile of situations that are. Questionable. this is just a short heads up section for anyone curious about what I'm willing to delve into:

- I'm a-okay playing out non/dubcon. However, this has to be discussed beforehand, especially if Kylo will be the aggressor. He's shown no sexual interest in anyone besides, Rey. He's not gonna be the weird Shoujo trope of "The troubled dude who just goes around molesting gals because he's got an itch to scratch". That ain't his MO. Rey is different because.... forcebond. However, depending on his canon point he will be more or less willing to ignore her consent. And after a certain point? He'd probably be rendered completely incapable of ignoring her consent. I imagine ForceBonds do not like when one half just kinda takes advantage of the other.

- On that note. I consider Kylo an abuse survivor. The abuse inflicted upon him was physical, emotional, and spiritual. I don't play or think of this as he was physically violated in a sexual capcity, but that his soul was constantly from the time he was even conceived until Palpatine's death. His thoughts and his desires truly were not his own, sexual desire was another way of control over him.

- I'm cool with him being taken advantage of. But expect not great results unless you some how get him to not force choke you as soon as you touch him okay

- Oh and this also means that he is prone to getting a little panicked when someone takes the reigns from him suddenly. So. JusT BE AWARE.

- if this shit ain't G for you? Please tell me and I can try to work with you.

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[personal profile] instinction 2020-01-10 07:34 am (UTC)(link)
[He's a mess. She looks over his way with a slightly exasperated smile. But she recalls drinking water similarly after going all day without it on Jakku. She doesn't judge. Much.]

We can't stay here for long.

[If they do, she's liable to punch Poe right in the face and no one needs that to happen. Her head falls back against the wall and she sighs, shifting uncomfortably. Ben's doing better, at least. He's talking. And isn't dead, so they have that going for them.]

You should rest while you still can.
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[personal profile] instinction 2020-01-10 07:54 am (UTC)(link)
[He just had to go and mention Leia, didn't he. It's near impossible to hide things from one another with their bond, but she still hesitates anyway. Not because she's coming up with a way to put him off, but because she feels choked up with emotion.

Rey lightly nods before looking over to make eye contact.
]

She had [she's very careful to use the past tense there] things in her quarters. I can go get them for you.

[She half hopes he suggests they go together later. The idea of having to go gather Leia's things alone is deeply distressing. But the past year of her life has been nothing but trauma, so she guesses this is just another day in the life of Rey.

Her arm flops his way, hand seeking out his. She needs the physical contact, and thinks he might benefit from it too.
]
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[personal profile] instinction 2020-01-10 08:13 am (UTC)(link)
[Oh, they're still talking. Rey is content to keep eye contact and stay quiet for a minute. Her hand squeezes his and she nods in acceptance of his gratitude. She's risked everything to bring him here and keep him with her, but she knows that she'd make the same choice over again if she had to.]

You would do the same for me.

[Now he would. A few days ago he might've destroyed a few planets just because she died. It's hard to tell what could've ended up happening if he hadn't turned against the dark side.

Without saying anything else, she moves to crawl into the best next to him. He's taking up all the space, but she easily sits at his side. She's potentially getting into position to try and kiss him again, but it feels awkward to try now that they're not caught up in a dramatic embrace in the middle of a battlefield.
]
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[personal profile] instinction 2020-01-10 08:40 am (UTC)(link)
[Oh.

This is...really close. Intimate in a way she's never experienced and isn't sure what to do with. Any thought of kissing or closeness is wiped away and she just tries to keep her heart from racing. Maybe he's so out of it that he doesn't notice.

It doesn't really matter, because she thinks she can fall asleep like this. And she almost does, up until she hears Poe outside the Falcon. She makes a sound of disapproval and buries her face against the curve of his neck.
]

Hitting him would be wrong. But it's tempting.

[It really sounds like Poe's going to force his way inside, with Finn right on his tail. She should...do something about that. Really she should. But she's so tired.]
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[personal profile] instinction 2020-01-10 06:12 pm (UTC)(link)
[She really doesn't want to talk to anyone right now. He speaks when she's just about passed out, and all she can commit to at first is a grunt of displeasure. His words register though, and it unnerves her that he's the one talking sensibly while she just wants to ignore problems for the rest of the night. She knows that isn't a reality, and it would be selfish of her to try.

It wouldn't be honoring Leia at all.

With a soft huff of protest, Rey dislodges herself from the tiny bunk and shuffles her way toward the hatch to lower it. She's barely able to stand she's so tired, but she's doing this. It's going to be fine.

Over the next thirty minutes, Rey discovers it in fact is not fine. She and Poe get into a shouting match that ends with Finn begging her not to be near Ben. Chewie and Lando help her explain the basics of who he is and the man he is now, and she understands that it's not possible for others to want to accept that Ben Solo doesn't have to pay for Kylo Ren's crimes. Ben can earn redemption, but it's decided that he can't stay there for more than one night. It's only Rey's final, desperate attempt to explain Leia's final act and gift that gets Finn to finally cave in. He can hear the emotion in her voice and see the exhaustion in her eyes. He ignores his own hurt and upset in order to drag Poe away, and Rey insists that Lando accompany them and get something to drink. She doubts he'll mind that.

When she finally stumbles her way back inside, she collapses on the bench surrounding the holochess table. Rey puts her elbows on the table, and leans forward to bury her face in the palm of her hands. It's not complete privacy, but she tells herself that Ben is likely asleep by now. Despite the screaming match and feeling her distress through the force. Surely he's asleep. But just in case -
]

We can have one night here.

[It's called out, a way to quickly summarize the conversation.]
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[personal profile] instinction 2020-01-10 06:58 pm (UTC)(link)
[Rey watches Chewie with fascination. She can imagine what it was like when Ben was a boy and Chewie took care of him this way. Something about the interaction tugs at her heart and makes her feel a sense of warmth and contentment.

She doesn't resist the hugs much. There's a slight protest, more out of exhaustion than anything. But she relents easily, and curls in against him. She still has lingering guilt from thinking she killed him, and getting to have him here like this makes her feel so grateful. She thanks him for his help and tells him to come get her if he needs anything. He can handle any situation that arises, she knows. But she wants him to know she's there for him the same way he's been there for her.

And just like that, the night finally calms and quiets to the point where Rey feels safe trying to rest. She takes a moment to remove her boots before collapsing on the padding next to Ben. It's obvious that Chewie made room for her too, and she's grateful as she gracelessly flops into the empty space. It's a matter of seconds before she gives in to the exhaustion and passes out. If she winds up curling up against him in her sleep, it's not her fault. He's warm and comforting and right there beside her.
]
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[personal profile] instinction 2020-01-11 04:04 am (UTC)(link)
[Rey spends the night in a blissfully dreamless sleep. Winding up laying on top of him as she does makes her feel secure, and she's content to doze right through the day. An uptick of energy is felt through their bond though, and it causes her to begin to stir.

She's definitely not used to sleeping near someone, much less on them. She shifts, feeling warmth and weight beneath her. With a gasp she bolts upright, looking all around. Her palms press flat against the body beneath her, and thankfully it doesn't take her long to remember where she is and what happened the day before.
]

Ben.

[She breathes out his name in relief, smiling down at him. It's a completely platonic look of adoration. Really.]

You're still here.

[Which is usually what happens when you bring someone back to life. Really she's just worried she had dreamed the entire thing.]
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[personal profile] instinction 2020-01-11 06:13 am (UTC)(link)
[She's acutely aware of his fingers running along her back. It's nice, albeit completely foreign to her. This kind of comfort isn't something anyone has ever attempted with her before. But it's nice.]

Better.

[Things were all over the place yesterday. But now she's feeling calm and hopeful that everything will be fine. Her hand idly starts to trail up and down along his side, fingers working a trail along his body as she goes. It's completely surreal to have him here like this, and to be fortunate enough to be able to be this close to him.]

I'm able to think clearly now, and I know what I have to do.
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[personal profile] instinction 2020-01-11 06:32 am (UTC)(link)
That is still at the top of my list.

[She laughs, because is it a joke? Is she serious? Only time will tell.

Her soft, exploratory touch ends with her fingers curling against his hip. They're making small talk about beating up Poe while lightly touching one another and it's the most normal feeling thing she's experienced in a long time.

And this platonic cuddling is about to get awkward because Rey lifts her head to make eye contact and winds up doing some unintentional bedroom eyes before feeling drawn in to kiss him. It's one of those spur of the moment things, only this time they're not on death's door or in danger. Her hand on his hip grips marginally tighter, as her other hand goes to press against his cheek. When her lips press against his, it's not hesitant or unsure.

The fact that this all happened in a matter of seconds after she joked about beating someone up is probably weird but you can take the girl out of Jakku but you can't take the Jakku out of the girl.
]
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[personal profile] instinction 2020-01-11 07:00 am (UTC)(link)
Mm.

[She makes a vague sound of agreement before kissing him again. It's still gentle and slow, but there's a growing hunger that has Rey has to be mindful to keep under control. She doesn't want to scare him or overwhelm either of them. Not yet. Everything is treading on a delicate line, and one wrong move could ruin everything.

Her fingers curl against his cheek before her hand slips away completely, moving to press against his chest instead. She reluctantly breaks the kiss and bows her head so their foreheads press together. Her breathing is a little quicker now, and her cheeks flushed.
]

It's better now than it was before.

[Probably because it isn't desperate and they have all the time in the world stretching out before them. Or all the time in the world before reality settles in and they have to get up and moving.]
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[personal profile] instinction 2020-01-11 07:16 am (UTC)(link)
[She knows that someone must have told her that before. In the back of her mind there's memories of her parents, ones she's tried to block out. But this is different, and no one has ever told her that they love her before. She has no idea how to fully process it.

But she does know what she feels, and isn't blind to the reason why she sacrificed everything to save him.
]

I love you too.

[She feels way too vulnerable after saying that. But it's a good feeling. Her lips just barely graze against his, less a kiss and more a show of affection. They love one another, it's out in the open.

Does this make him her boyfriend? Are they basically married now? What happens next??
]
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[personal profile] instinction 2020-01-11 06:30 pm (UTC)(link)
[She's definitely willing to do whatever it takes to get him to smile like that as much as possible. His makes her smile in return, something ridiculous and lovestruck. She doesn't even mind his rolling her onto her side, because the way he curls around her only makes her smile more. It's disgusting and ridiculous, and she can't get enough of it.

And oh -

They're kissing again. She definitely doesn't mind that either. They've both said they love the other, which is huge for people like them. But something physical like this is easier in some ways, at least as far as Ben's concerned. Her lips part for him, allowing him to deepen the kiss as he likes. She easily loses herself in the warmth of him, the feel of her lips against his. It would be easy to spend the entire day like this, but she knows they have responsibilities to attend to. It's only because those responsibilities relate to Leia that she breaks the kiss to say
]

We really should be getting up.

[Note that she says that with zero conviction. Kissing Ben is much better than facing the outside world.]

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