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If you direct your attention to my conspiracy theory madness below about the original intended ("true") ending for Rise of Skywalker, it's a bit obvious that I'd like to play out scenarios where Ben does, in fact, survive the movie. The awkwardness around the Resistance and the entirety of space, Rey having to struggle with her desire to keep him safe at all costs vs her want to be open with her friends. And the both of them having to deal with the weight of the fact that Leia, Luke, and Han all sacrificed themselves for Ben. And the residual C-PTSD from this entire goddamn trilogy. also what color is ur lightsaber ben

Okay seriously tho. How pissed would poe be to find out leia gave her life to that piece of shit Kylo Ren? Also every time Rey or Ben thinks "oh we can just go talk to Le---" and then that sad piano music from scrubs plays.

Sad Lonely Housewife Ben Solo. With a black frilly Apron. I'm only partially joking

I'd actually dig something where he remains dead/gone for longer than just a few seconds. Like. Leia takes a bit to reboot into "Second Birth Of My Child" metaphor. It could take a few hours or even a few days and in the mean time Rey's just collapsing in on herself about everything away from all her friends. Isolating herself and "Oh wait. what the fuck. HE'S BACK"

Planet hopping with Ben and Rey on the "how the fuck do we even restart the Jedi Order" bus!!! Maybe they steal the falcon from Lando. Unsure how to justify it. Just know I want Han's son to swoop in and take the ship back because can Lando be all that mad about it tho?

Speaking of, how the fuck would Chewbacca and Lando feel about Leia's final sacrifice? Would they help Rey smuggle Ben while the galaxy celebrates his death? Would there be time limits or stipulations? Or maybe they're the first ones to figure out what Rey is hiding and what is that confrontation like?

For scenarios which follow along with the 'theatrical'/canon ending as it were. Rey absolutely losing her shit over Ben's death and he attempts to comfort her. Unsure that will work well, but that's the fun of RP. Her questioning whether it was him or a product of her imagination. And just her absolute inability to cope with the other half of her dead.

Rey goes Dark to get Ben back. Possibly against his wishes. He wants her to move on, she can't, she refuses. Time travel is always an option for this shit. And if she's successful, would Ben realize something's wrong? And if he figured out what she did.... would he actually care?

Alternate universe theories. Like not traditional AU, but through some Force fuckery a rift between the movie's canon and the intended ending occur. Rey finds Ben in this rift and just the absolute emotional meltdown that will occur from there.

Forcebond shenanigans, ofc.
Forbidden relationship bullshit is just part of the package ig
Arranged marriage is also just A++
Also now that we know how the fuck close Ben was to turning nearly the entire fucking time finding any other canon point and just fucking the entire timeline up
Ben actually HELPING the Resistance take down Palps before yeeting himself at Rey.
Ben having to wait awkwardly 15 ft away as Finn and Poe screech at Rey about her Supreme Leader Secret and Rose is just trying to do her best for everyone

No seriously. Can we kill off C3P0 for real?????

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โœจ The True Ending โœจ


Welcome one. Welcome all. I have brought all of you here today to say that YOU WERE LIED AND DECEIVED BY THE FORCES OF HOLLYWOOD AND UNCHECKED CAPITALISM. 'How?' You ask. And yes. I shall answer. It is simple:
The ending of the Rise of Skywalker was wrong

Wait. Excuse me. WHAT THE FUCK?
You read correctly, dear friends. Someone fucked with the editing of Rise of Skywalker and it changed the entire ending of the movie. It changed the characterization of three key characters and it's clear this was against the creator's wishes. I'll be breaking this down into a few key sections. What were the changes, Why I believe these changes were made (and made last minute), and do I consider this ending more or less canon then the theatrical ending. So. JOIN ME ON THIS ADVENTURE FRIEND

The plot changes/editing change
It's fairly simple. They changed Leia's role in the plot, this changed the entire direction of the last few minutes of the movie. Let me break the timeline down
โ€” Deathstar fight on the ocean still happens, Ben is distracted by Leia reaching out to him. She either still enters her "disappointment son" coma here, or perhaps simply just reaches out to him.
โ€” From here, the plot continues as normal. Ben and Rey both get to the sith rave separately.
โ€” Rey Dies
โ€” Ben Revives her and dies.
โ€” Leia chooses THIS MOMENT to die and give her life to her son
โ€” Ben is revived. He and Rey kiss.
โ€” Move to conclusion

WHAT EVIDENCE DO I HAVE THESE CHANGES WERE MADE (and at the last moment)
Take in note, my evidence is circumstantial, but circumstantial evidence still counts as proof
โ€” Leia's final role in the movie is insanely unclear. She also takes 12 hours to actually die or something. Again. Confusing
โ€” Ben's final words, as of this moment, are "OW". Adam Driver said he was nervous about his final dialogue in the movie to the point he stressed about it on the flight over. And. Man. IDK about you but OW seems a little unstressful to say
โ€” There was no Force Ghost Ben, a decision that is baffling story wise. It would take any competent VFX team hardly any effort to throw a ghostly adam driver next to Leia and Luke. And this would be advantageous to add to the plot if Ben was going to die, give that final bit of closure to the Skywalker fam.
โ€” Rey's near LACK of emotion over his death. Go watch her realize she has to leave Ben behind in TLJ and tell me that the difference isn't noticeable. It's completely against her character.
โ€” The weird beats of Leia going into her disappointment son coma and the other strange beats of Ben's death. Especially the fact that you only see him disappear in like. one shot.
โ€” None of the cast thought he was going to die
โ€” Wow I wonder why Adam Driver is adamant about never wanting to do star wars at this point?
โ€” Wow, why does disney keep resetting the character poll of who is the most anticipated character of this movie????
โ€” The prophecy about Ben's death is completely unnecessary at this point. If it was brought up during TFA, it's understandable to put that thread there. Instead it's in the last movie when his death seems to be a foregone conclusion???
โ€” So Rey's fine for Luke and Leia even tho she's palpatines kid, but Luke and Leia don't seem all that bothered by Ben's death??????
โ€” This was supposed to be Leia's film and complete her arc. And while I understand that there was a lack of footage to use for her, it's odd that she ended up not playing much of a role beyond "Distract Ben so he gets stabbed ig"
โ€” Every single hole in characterization for Luke, Leia, and Rey, every strange beat that didn't really make sense in Ben and Rey's fight on the ocean and during their ??? Mutual deaths???? and the some how rushed and dragged on ending can be solved by a simple solution. Occam's razor, Ben was never meant to die permanently.

โ€” The fact that there was no final dialogue for Ben after his talk with his father suggests he had something significant to say after his resurrection
โ€” The fact that they didn't have a cut of Rey absolutely LOSING HER MIND over losing to, what amounts to, the other half of her soul suggests that she was never supposed to lose him permanently
โ€” The fact that there is no Ben Ghost means that they didn't have the time to slip that in before pushing it out to theaters
โ€” The way the final scenes with Rey are shot and edited are, again, weird, off balance. It seems like it ends WAY TOO QUICKLY and far too on the nose.
โ€” no but really guys. His final words are "OW"
โ€” As for WHO changed it, because of the fact that this is clearly an edit job done at the last minute? I'm putting my money on a CEO that is above Kathleen Kennedy and JJ Abrhrams. I think their hands are tied ATM. This is the ending that had been planned for, this is the ending they wanted, otherwise there would not be such big holes that felt weird and dishonest to the characters. And, like, Kylo Ren/Ben Solo was JJ's child, he wouldn't have done him dirty like this.\

THEATRICAL ENDING/TRUE ENDING
I'm sure opinions would be divided on which ending is canon depending on the person. The theatrical ending will be what's considered canon in the universe of star wars at large. For myself, I find it hard to deny the creators and filmmakers the right to present the story they wanted to tell. So, in that way, both endings are true for me. Though, I am biased-- both as someone who is an artist myself and someone who adores Kylo Ren's/Ben Solo's character-- I like the story the film team were trying to tell over the agenda that whoever pushed for these changes had. Personally, I believe it pushes Star Wars as a universe forward into new territory rather than keep it stagnant in the same old same old that it's always been. Plus. this maintains the integrity of Luke, Leia, and Rey's characters, Ben was never forgotten, far too gone, or unloved. Leia gave him one final gift, a second chance.

That said, I'm not pushing this ending on anyone. I won't be playing it by default. I would rather ask permission or have someone else bring it up.


Sin Bin aka triggery bullshit

So no surprise. Kylo Ren/Ben Solo comes with a pile of situations that are. Questionable. this is just a short heads up section for anyone curious about what I'm willing to delve into:

- I'm a-okay playing out non/dubcon. However, this has to be discussed beforehand, especially if Kylo will be the aggressor. He's shown no sexual interest in anyone besides, Rey. He's not gonna be the weird Shoujo trope of "The troubled dude who just goes around molesting gals because he's got an itch to scratch". That ain't his MO. Rey is different because.... forcebond. However, depending on his canon point he will be more or less willing to ignore her consent. And after a certain point? He'd probably be rendered completely incapable of ignoring her consent. I imagine ForceBonds do not like when one half just kinda takes advantage of the other.

- On that note. I consider Kylo an abuse survivor. The abuse inflicted upon him was physical, emotional, and spiritual. I don't play or think of this as he was physically violated in a sexual capcity, but that his soul was constantly from the time he was even conceived until Palpatine's death. His thoughts and his desires truly were not his own, sexual desire was another way of control over him.

- I'm cool with him being taken advantage of. But expect not great results unless you some how get him to not force choke you as soon as you touch him okay

- Oh and this also means that he is prone to getting a little panicked when someone takes the reigns from him suddenly. So. JusT BE AWARE.

- if this shit ain't G for you? Please tell me and I can try to work with you.

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[personal profile] jedied 2020-01-23 05:37 am (UTC)(link)
[Honestly, his desire to kiss her is probably bleeding over into her a bit and making her want it, too. They're really going to have to talk about this whole dyad thing and whether or not either one of them cares that it's probably the thing that's making them have feelings for one another. Or... blurring the lines between what they would have loved about one another on their own, at least.

But it's not a conversation that's going to happen this instant. Maybe it's selfish, but Rey doesn't want that answer yet. Or possibly ever. She lets herself take in his memory, the beauty and the wistful feeling about it and yes, the underlying loneliness. She'll try to send back a gentle nudge of reassurance even before he changes the subject.]


You're terrible; what a rude question. [She's laughing, though.]

Just for the record, I don't usually want to airlock my friends, but Threepio is... really, really annoying.

[And this is really not fair, because now she can't actually think of much to ask him that will maintain the light mood. And she hasn't truly laughed in... at least sixteen days. Probably more. But she doesn't want to touch upon topics that will make him think about any of the following: his childhood, his parents, his uncle, Snoke, the First Order, dying, coming back to life, or...

Wait. Inspiration time.]


"What color would you want your new lightsaber to be?"

[She's truly not going to try to convince him to join the Jedi Order if he doesn't want to; she's not even sure she's actually going to rebuild it yet. That had just been thinking fast in order to keep Ben from getting killed. But she supposes he's thought about it the lightsaber question at least a little.]
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BENJAMIN CHEWBACCA SOLO I STG

[personal profile] jedied 2020-01-23 06:07 am (UTC)(link)
[Rey does not elbow him, but it is a near fucking thing. But she's pretty sure he's kidding and she honestly never in a million years thought that Ben Solo would make a fucking joke but she's starting to catch on when he does.

And she absolutely adores it.

So she's just gonna let him settle her between his legs because what the hell, they're comfortable and if he's not worried about her sitting right up against his dick then she's not gonna be the one to back down.

Especially

E S P E C I A L L Y

After he goes and asks that!!!!

Rey of Jakku has never backed down from a challenge and especially not with this asshole. So she's just gonna twist herself around however awkwardly she needs to so she can look him straight in the eye and reply --]


Since you first took off that stupid. fucking. helmet.

[And, fuck the space police; Rey's just gonna do what they've wanted to do and press her lips to his however the fuck she can at this angle, and to facilitate matters she's going to reach up with one hand and thread her fingers through the hair at the nape of his neck as she pulls him a little closer.

Do not test Rey, Ben. She may be a space virgin but she's also not taking your shit ever again.]
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[personal profile] jedied 2020-01-23 03:21 pm (UTC)(link)
[To her credit, Rey doesn't just stand up and yell WHY ARE YOU LIKE THIS???? at him, because honestly she kind of knows why he's like this. She's met his parents. And after she recovers from a few seconds of confusion - in which rearranges herself so she can face him a little more fully to fix him with an expression of what the actual entire fuck --

-- she realizes that's actually kind of funny.

Maybe it's the lack of sleep and general stress talking. Either way, she's just gonna. Go back to kissing him. In a minute. After she figures out the appropriate response to that sort of fuckery.]


I take it all back. I'm letting Jannah shoot you.

[Yeah, she probably doesn't mean that, considering how she absolutely cannot keep a straight face and also how she's just gonna go right back to kissing him as previously promised by this bracket text. And now she's twisted around so she can get both her hands in that hair, wet as it may be, and make this jerk lose maybe an ounce of his stupid smartass perfect composure as she threads her fingers through it.]
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[personal profile] jedied 2020-01-23 04:42 pm (UTC)(link)
[This is honestly probably how Leia dealt with Han 99.997% of the time: kiss him to shut him up. Rey probably should have asked space mom for notes on how to deal with Solo men. Well. There's always time for a Force Ghost chat later.

Oh God. Is Force Ghost Space Mom gonna have to give Rey the talk???????????



Rey is emboldened by that sound he just made and honestly would have kept pushing her advantage if she weren't connected to him enough to register that rumble as something that ought to be given its due attention.

She pulls herself away more than a little reluctantly and sits back on her heels, her face faintly flushed and her lips kiss-reddened, but concern overtaking her desire to keep the makeout session going.]


You haven't eaten enough, have you?

[She'd kind of assumed he'd fed himself while she showered, but now that she focuses a little she can tell he's neglected that step entirely. She'll unfold herself from him enough that he can go retrieve some food. She really kinda wants to watch him eat one of those weird purple pear things tbh. She'd just go grab one and stuff it in his face if she didn't think he needed to seriously feed himself real actual food and not just pretty space fruit.]
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off-topic but not rly: I'm listening to Frozen 2 and specific songs are a big mood here.

[personal profile] jedied 2020-01-23 05:07 pm (UTC)(link)
[Rey will pick at a piece of bread because 1. she's a starving little space gremlin and 2. she needs something to do with her hands now that she's gotta keep them off Ben for a little bit.

And also 3. she doesn't actually want to answer that question. Which she can't while she's chewing.]




[Eventually; not really looking at him.]

They know I'm alive. We're not on the same planet rotation anyway, so...

[She's not regularly midnight-texting anyone, is what she's saying. She hasn't known what to say to their questions about what she's doing, when she's coming back, and most often how she is. How hasn't mattered.

She's been living. Just trying to keep putting one foot in front of the other. And do the next right thing. It's been enough.]
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[personal profile] jedied 2020-01-23 06:05 pm (UTC)(link)
[Rey's just going to drop her head into her hands for a moment and make a small noise of infinite frustration.

She doesn't know how she's going to tell her friends. Anything. She's not sure who's going to take the current state of matters worse: Poe, who'd been tortured by this guy, or Finn, who'd almost been sliced in half by him.

If she were a worse person she'd just will them to understand while she explained and then fuck off to the outermost of the Outer Rim worlds with Ben and never be seen again. That's definitely still an option if the Prince Ben Solo thing doesn't work out.]


If you've got any suggestions that don't get us both murdered I'm open to hearing them.

[Fat chance, Rey. I mean. Look at his plans up to this point.





But oh, he's eating that fruit now. Rey's just gonna. Be entranced. IDK why this is her kink, but it's probably just because she likes staring at his mouth and imagining it a whole bunch of other places.

She's honestly not sure if he's aware of what he looks like... basically all of the time, though she suspects he kinda does given how often he chose to appear before her without the mask after that first time. It's pretty ridiculously unfair tbh. Stop being able to tell just how hard Rey wants to jump your bones, Ben. God.]


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[personal profile] jedied 2020-01-23 06:40 pm (UTC)(link)
[Do not get cocky, Ben. The woman sliced your face in half even after she saw how pretty it was.

Honestly she doesn't need her to kill him; he's gonna get killed the minute he deadpans one of these remarks to literally anyone who isn't currently on this ship.

That aside, she's not sure his advice is, well, advisable. Even if it's right.]


"I think the truth of what I feel is the thing they're going to struggle with the most."

['Hey guys, I'm in love with Kylo Ren, I bet you all could guess by the number of times we've almost killed each other; anyway I'm just here to say that if anyone gets to kill him it's me and I've decided to opt out of that for the forseeable future. OKbye.'


All that aside, she's going to lose her entire mind if she doesn't do this, so--

She reaches out to stop his hand before he can take another bite and just straight-up steals the fruit -- rude!!! -- holding it out of his reach until she can lean in and kiss that spot at the corner of his mouth, her tongue darting out quickly to catch that stray drop.]

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jesus god they're never gonna fuck but i love it bc slow burn is my jaaaaaam

[personal profile] jedied 2020-01-23 09:21 pm (UTC)(link)
[You know what, Ben? Fine. She'll talk, if you're not going to respond in any way at all to that aggressive invitation to shut up.

But she's keeping the rest of that pear, because fuuuuuuuuck you, that's why. If she's not getting laid you're not getting to finish your pear. She's just chomp on it angrily while glaring just a little because she doesn't know what she wants.]


You know it's not that simple. I don't want to lose them, but... I'm not willing to lose you, either.

[And if it comes down to it, well. Her choice is pretty obvious, at least to her. That doesn't mean she's especially eager to face the looks on her friends' faces when she tells them she's made it.]
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[personal profile] jedied 2020-01-24 12:41 am (UTC)(link)
[Rey can be patient. Really. Despite all current evidence to the contrary. She's just more than a little afraid if this doesn't happen now he's going to be ripped away from her again and this time there won't be any second chances.

Her mind is at least starting to accept that he's real and that the last sixteen days, awful as they felt, are over. They're not now. She wants the impossible guarantee that she's not going to feel that way again, and she knows she can't have that. She's feeling a little bit selfish on that point nonetheless.

But. Hold on a minute here, Ben. You're gonna want to pay attention. This moment may never come again.]







You're right.


[Once she gives him a few seconds to let that one land.]

I'll figure out how to tell them what they need to know. Tomorrow.

[She'll probably send a message to... Rose, perhaps. Rose has always seemed level-headed. Maybe she can prep the others the news that no one's going to want to hear. Maybe by then Rey will have figured out how to state it both neutrally and yet make it incredibly clear that she's not entertaining arguments on the matter of Ben's continued survival.

That decided, she'll lay down with him without protest because, honestly, she's tired enough that she's sure the exhaustion can't even all be hers and she's starting to get the idea that he might not have slept very much when she did, before. So she'll allow herself to be settled and stop trying to press any of herself up against his dick since honestly that does sound a little exhausting to figure out rn. She will, however, go back to idly playing with his hair. Super gently, just because she enjoys it and he's not been too subtle about the fact that he does, too.

She will, however, frown when he talks about holding back. Is that what he thinks she's doing? Is not just launching straight to the most painful subjects such a rarity in his life that he thinks it takes some great restraint? Rey's just... trying to be considerate. He came back from the dead. After dying for her. What could she possibly ask about anything that came before whose answer would matter now?

She knows there are things she's never going to understand. Why he killed a father he loved. Why he was willing to kill Snoke but then not walk away. The answers to those questions aren't things she feels will do anything good even if she were dying to know them.

The only thing that has been weighing on her mind --]


Do you remember anything about those sixteen days? A part of Leia was trapped and aware. That's why Luke came to me -- the entire Force was being affected by something Palpatine had done to try and stop her. But they said--

[Her voice shakes a little and she has to take a breath and try again. It hurts to think of him trapped somewhere, maybe in pain, maybe alone. Maybe able to remember all of it. She doesn't know, but she has been picking up on some of his general unease about the whole having-been-dead thing.]

-- they said you weren't there. You weren't in the Force at all.

[Sorry she went straight for the existential crisis there but she wasn't really up for talking about childhood trauma or murder or terrible life choices.]
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[personal profile] jedied 2020-01-24 03:19 am (UTC)(link)
[The less Rey knows about how weird the Skywalker line is with mother/sister figures the better tbh. Yikes. She's more chill about the aggressive cuddling than one might expect, though honestly anyone other than Ben who tried this would probably get Force-thrown into oblivion just as an instinctual response.

She likes being this close, though. Give her some time to get past the general surreality of it all and she'll probably be a little less skittish in general.]


I'm glad you were with her in some way.

[She'd been so scared that he was suffering somehow when she'd heard. Leia had been in pain, trapped, holding on. And Rey hadn't even known; she was so off-kilter and avoidant of the Force beyond what was necessary that she'd nearly missed it. She's glad she hadn't been too late to help. That she'd been strong enough to help at all. It's the only thing that makes any of it remotely okay now.]

Tell me what you need from me.

[It's a soft murmured offer; permission to give over anything he's holding onto that he thinks would have broken her earlier. She tries to send that sense of reassurance through their bond, letting him know that she's fine now, she's safe and content and not going to fall entirely to pieces if there's anything he doesn't want to bear alone.]



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[personal profile] jedied 2020-01-24 03:49 am (UTC)(link)
[She knows.]

I love you.

[It's immediate and unhesitating, offered with a soft smile and the gentlest of kisses pressed to his lips. She's not demanding anything this time, but she's getting pretty fond of kissing him.]
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[personal profile] jedied 2020-01-24 04:53 am (UTC)(link)
[ Rey feels her breath catch at the admission; it's not just that it's a lot. She doesn't know when she knew, to be honest.

She'd never fathomed the possibility of falling in love before him, and was too busy trying to drag him back from the Dark Side to consider why she'd been willing to fling herself directly at the First Order for him without a real backup plan. It had just seemed like the correct thing to do. And she'd been frustrated with Luke, and their connection had been confusing and frustrating and the only thing that had felt right to her all at once.

And then Snoke had said it had been his doing.

And then she'd run, but he'd found her. And she hadn't stopped feeling' she'd only stopped reaching out. She thought he'd made his choice and had tried to distance herself so that choice wouldn't inexplicably hurt so much.

She knew when she felt him arrive at Exegol, and in that instant it felt like she'd always known. It was just that she'd been fighting it with every last ounce of willpower that she had so that she wouldn't risk losing anyone else who mattered. She doesn't have the energy or the desire to put any of that into words. Not now, not with his lips still touching hers, not when she's had the singular experience of losing him forever but having him defy every law of nature to come back.

No one's ever come back to her before.]


I'm sorry I left you then. It wasn't easy.

[She'd felt she'd had to, but maybe... she'll always wonder just a little bit if maybe she'd met him halfway they could have found a way free of the First Order together. Maybe some of this could have been averted.]
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[personal profile] jedied 2020-01-24 05:36 am (UTC)(link)
[ Rey wasn't expecting this reaction, either, but she feels her own eyes sting a bit in empathy.

She's not going to judge or even question his reaction; she's been an entire mess for the whole last day. Honestly she's surprised it's taken him this long to lose his calm. She's been such a ball of unending stress that it's a wonder the two of them didn't both just fall apart at once and/or accidentally murder one another over a misunderstanding. So this... is fine. She can handle your weird emotional outbursts if you can handle hers.

She'll just shift to pull him as tightly to her as she can and rub small soothing motions over his back while trying to let him feel all the sense of safety and acceptance she has to offer.]


It's okay. We're okay now.

[He's here and he's safe and he's loved; she understands enough to know he needs that.]

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