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If you direct your attention to my conspiracy theory madness below about the original intended ("true") ending for Rise of Skywalker, it's a bit obvious that I'd like to play out scenarios where Ben does, in fact, survive the movie. The awkwardness around the Resistance and the entirety of space, Rey having to struggle with her desire to keep him safe at all costs vs her want to be open with her friends. And the both of them having to deal with the weight of the fact that Leia, Luke, and Han all sacrificed themselves for Ben. And the residual C-PTSD from this entire goddamn trilogy. also what color is ur lightsaber ben Okay seriously tho. How pissed would poe be to find out leia gave her life to that piece of shit Kylo Ren? Also every time Rey or Ben thinks "oh we can just go talk to Le---" and then that sad piano music from scrubs plays. Sad Lonely Housewife Ben Solo. With a black frilly Apron. I'm only partially joking I'd actually dig something where he remains dead/gone for longer than just a few seconds. Like. Leia takes a bit to reboot into "Second Birth Of My Child" metaphor. It could take a few hours or even a few days and in the mean time Rey's just collapsing in on herself about everything away from all her friends. Isolating herself and "Oh wait. what the fuck. HE'S BACK" Planet hopping with Ben and Rey on the "how the fuck do we even restart the Jedi Order" bus!!! Maybe they steal the falcon from Lando. Unsure how to justify it. Just know I want Han's son to swoop in and take the ship back because can Lando be all that mad about it tho? Speaking of, how the fuck would Chewbacca and Lando feel about Leia's final sacrifice? Would they help Rey smuggle Ben while the galaxy celebrates his death? Would there be time limits or stipulations? Or maybe they're the first ones to figure out what Rey is hiding and what is that confrontation like? For scenarios which follow along with the 'theatrical'/canon ending as it were. Rey absolutely losing her shit over Ben's death and he attempts to comfort her. Unsure that will work well, but that's the fun of RP. Her questioning whether it was him or a product of her imagination. And just her absolute inability to cope with the other half of her dead. Rey goes Dark to get Ben back. Possibly against his wishes. He wants her to move on, she can't, she refuses. Time travel is always an option for this shit. And if she's successful, would Ben realize something's wrong? And if he figured out what she did.... would he actually care? Alternate universe theories. Like not traditional AU, but through some Force fuckery a rift between the movie's canon and the intended ending occur. Rey finds Ben in this rift and just the absolute emotional meltdown that will occur from there. Forcebond shenanigans, ofc. Forbidden relationship bullshit is just part of the package ig Arranged marriage is also just A++ Also now that we know how the fuck close Ben was to turning nearly the entire fucking time finding any other canon point and just fucking the entire timeline up Ben actually HELPING the Resistance take down Palps before yeeting himself at Rey. Ben having to wait awkwardly 15 ft away as Finn and Poe screech at Rey about her Supreme Leader Secret and Rose is just trying to do her best for everyone No seriously. Can we kill off C3P0 for real????? 👌👀👌👀👌👀👌👀👌👀 good shit go౦ԁ sHit👌 thats ✔ some good👌👌shit right👌👌there👌👌👌 right✔there ✔✔if i do ƽaү so my self 💯 i say so 💯 thats what im talking about right there right there (chorus: ʳᶦᵍʰᵗ ᵗʰᵉʳᵉ) mMMMMᎷМ💯 👌👌 👌НO0ОଠOOOOOОଠଠOoooᵒᵒᵒᵒᵒᵒᵒᵒᵒ👌 👌👌 👌 💯 👌 👀 👀 👀 👌👌Good shit

✨ The True Ending ✨

Welcome one. Welcome all. I have brought all of you here today to say that YOU WERE LIED AND DECEIVED BY THE FORCES OF HOLLYWOOD AND UNCHECKED CAPITALISM. 'How?' You ask. And yes. I shall answer. It is simple: The ending of the Rise of Skywalker was wrong Wait. Excuse me. WHAT THE FUCK? You read correctly, dear friends. Someone fucked with the editing of Rise of Skywalker and it changed the entire ending of the movie. It changed the characterization of three key characters and it's clear this was against the creator's wishes. I'll be breaking this down into a few key sections. What were the changes, Why I believe these changes were made (and made last minute), and do I consider this ending more or less canon then the theatrical ending. So. JOIN ME ON THIS ADVENTURE FRIEND The plot changes/editing change It's fairly simple. They changed Leia's role in the plot, this changed the entire direction of the last few minutes of the movie. Let me break the timeline down — Deathstar fight on the ocean still happens, Ben is distracted by Leia reaching out to him. She either still enters her "disappointment son" coma here, or perhaps simply just reaches out to him. — From here, the plot continues as normal. Ben and Rey both get to the sith rave separately. — Rey Dies — Ben Revives her and dies. — Leia chooses THIS MOMENT to die and give her life to her son — Ben is revived. He and Rey kiss. — Move to conclusion WHAT EVIDENCE DO I HAVE THESE CHANGES WERE MADE (and at the last moment) Take in note, my evidence is circumstantial, but circumstantial evidence still counts as proof — Leia's final role in the movie is insanely unclear. She also takes 12 hours to actually die or something. Again. Confusing — Ben's final words, as of this moment, are "OW". Adam Driver said he was nervous about his final dialogue in the movie to the point he stressed about it on the flight over. And. Man. IDK about you but OW seems a little unstressful to say — There was no Force Ghost Ben, a decision that is baffling story wise. It would take any competent VFX team hardly any effort to throw a ghostly adam driver next to Leia and Luke. And this would be advantageous to add to the plot if Ben was going to die, give that final bit of closure to the Skywalker fam. — Rey's near LACK of emotion over his death. Go watch her realize she has to leave Ben behind in TLJ and tell me that the difference isn't noticeable. It's completely against her character. — The weird beats of Leia going into her disappointment son coma and the other strange beats of Ben's death. Especially the fact that you only see him disappear in like. one shot. — None of the cast thought he was going to die — Wow I wonder why Adam Driver is adamant about never wanting to do star wars at this point? — Wow, why does disney keep resetting the character poll of who is the most anticipated character of this movie???? — The prophecy about Ben's death is completely unnecessary at this point. If it was brought up during TFA, it's understandable to put that thread there. Instead it's in the last movie when his death seems to be a foregone conclusion??? — So Rey's fine for Luke and Leia even tho she's palpatines kid, but Luke and Leia don't seem all that bothered by Ben's death?????? — This was supposed to be Leia's film and complete her arc. And while I understand that there was a lack of footage to use for her, it's odd that she ended up not playing much of a role beyond "Distract Ben so he gets stabbed ig" — Every single hole in characterization for Luke, Leia, and Rey, every strange beat that didn't really make sense in Ben and Rey's fight on the ocean and during their ??? Mutual deaths???? and the some how rushed and dragged on ending can be solved by a simple solution. Occam's razor, Ben was never meant to die permanently. — The fact that there was no final dialogue for Ben after his talk with his father suggests he had something significant to say after his resurrection — The fact that they didn't have a cut of Rey absolutely LOSING HER MIND over losing to, what amounts to, the other half of her soul suggests that she was never supposed to lose him permanently — The fact that there is no Ben Ghost means that they didn't have the time to slip that in before pushing it out to theaters — The way the final scenes with Rey are shot and edited are, again, weird, off balance. It seems like it ends WAY TOO QUICKLY and far too on the nose. — no but really guys. His final words are "OW" — As for WHO changed it, because of the fact that this is clearly an edit job done at the last minute? I'm putting my money on a CEO that is above Kathleen Kennedy and JJ Abrhrams. I think their hands are tied ATM. This is the ending that had been planned for, this is the ending they wanted, otherwise there would not be such big holes that felt weird and dishonest to the characters. And, like, Kylo Ren/Ben Solo was JJ's child, he wouldn't have done him dirty like this.\ THEATRICAL ENDING/TRUE ENDING I'm sure opinions would be divided on which ending is canon depending on the person. The theatrical ending will be what's considered canon in the universe of star wars at large. For myself, I find it hard to deny the creators and filmmakers the right to present the story they wanted to tell. So, in that way, both endings are true for me. Though, I am biased-- both as someone who is an artist myself and someone who adores Kylo Ren's/Ben Solo's character-- I like the story the film team were trying to tell over the agenda that whoever pushed for these changes had. Personally, I believe it pushes Star Wars as a universe forward into new territory rather than keep it stagnant in the same old same old that it's always been. Plus. this maintains the integrity of Luke, Leia, and Rey's characters, Ben was never forgotten, far too gone, or unloved. Leia gave him one final gift, a second chance. That said, I'm not pushing this ending on anyone. I won't be playing it by default. I would rather ask permission or have someone else bring it up.

Sin Bin aka triggery bullshit

So no surprise. Kylo Ren/Ben Solo comes with a pile of situations that are. Questionable. this is just a short heads up section for anyone curious about what I'm willing to delve into: - I'm a-okay playing out non/dubcon. However, this has to be discussed beforehand, especially if Kylo will be the aggressor. He's shown no sexual interest in anyone besides, Rey. He's not gonna be the weird Shoujo trope of "The troubled dude who just goes around molesting gals because he's got an itch to scratch". That ain't his MO. Rey is different because.... forcebond. However, depending on his canon point he will be more or less willing to ignore her consent. And after a certain point? He'd probably be rendered completely incapable of ignoring her consent. I imagine ForceBonds do not like when one half just kinda takes advantage of the other. - On that note. I consider Kylo an abuse survivor. The abuse inflicted upon him was physical, emotional, and spiritual. I don't play or think of this as he was physically violated in a sexual capcity, but that his soul was constantly from the time he was even conceived until Palpatine's death. His thoughts and his desires truly were not his own, sexual desire was another way of control over him. - I'm cool with him being taken advantage of. But expect not great results unless you some how get him to not force choke you as soon as you touch him okay - Oh and this also means that he is prone to getting a little panicked when someone takes the reigns from him suddenly. So. JusT BE AWARE. - if this shit ain't G for you? Please tell me and I can try to work with you.

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[jedied]

[Oh. That's.

Well, this is surreal. Whatever Rey had expected, she really did not expect Ben Solo to start brushing her hair. Like. This should honestly be the last of his concerns. It's barely one of her concerns.

But it's really, really nice. She'll lean back into him a little, not so much that she interferes with the brushing, however. It's soothing, and she could honestly fall asleep again if he keeps doing that.

But then he's talking about his father, and she turns her head just a little to glance back at him when he does. Just to acknowledge that she knows what that admission costs.]

I'm glad.

[A pause, and then, softer,]

Your parents loved you very much, Ben. You have to know that.

[Does he? Surely he must by now. There's no hint of judgment in it; she just wants him to know that he was and is loved, whatever his crimes had been.]

[vaderstan]

[ Bruh if you looked at Ben Solo and never once thought "wow that dude keeps his hair real neat maybe he's got a thing around hair" then you weren't looking hard enough. Plus, this helps ground him. There's just a lot going on right now and he wants the galaxy to chill the fuck out and brushing her hair feels so much easier than dealing with everything else.

I mean...

He'd also take making out as well, but HE JUST WANTS TO GET YOUR HAIR UNDER ORDER FIRST.

But in response to her statement he gives a soft noise that affirms that he at least heard her, but doesn't really provide an answer either way. On one hand, his mother gave him her life and his father had said he loved him, begged for him to come home. On the other-- well. He knows he's far from being an innocent victim of circumstance. He made many choices which should lead him straight to an execution.

Excuse him as he parts her hair to get to another section, he's being really meticulous about this. She'll probably feel how his methodicalness helps even out his emotions into background noise.


Also he's doing that thing again. That obnoxious Kylo Ren thing of not directly answering her and just asking a different question. ] Why are you nervous around me?

[ Like. He would love to think it's just the tank top, but he felt her mind stutter before he got into the 'fresher so he's just making the leap of "well it's more than my tits" ]

[jedied]

[Rey gets it, the meticulousess. How having something focused to do with your hands can make some of the noise go away. Building and tinkering with things wasn't just a way to have any sort of life as a scavenger. It was a mental focus, one that kept her from wasting away from sheer boredom but also helped to drive away anxiety in her worst moments.

She would have been a small child the last time anyone else touched her hair. She hadn't realized it was something she would find so calming and honestly, so necessary right now. They both needed that contact; little ways to get more familiar with one another. Which was an odd thing to think about someone who was somehow your mystical other half, but. Nothing about the two of them had been ordinary.

She almost laughs in surprise and just... sheer confusion at the nature of his question. It doesn't exactly offend her, but she has to bite down her first defensive instinct to protest that she's not nervous.

But. I mean. Dude.

When you first met her you kidnapped her, and you've been kind of consistently intense ever since. She loves you, but that's a whole confusing thing in its own right. And you just keep jumping around all over the place and skipping the steps that normal people take before getting to the point where you're brushing her goddamn hair and just.

Your question is too difficult and also a little unfair, Ben.]

I told you it's hard to know how to be around you. We've barely had anything that counts as an actual conversation.

[vaderstan]

[ Ignore whatever noise he makes behind her. It's not exactly a scoff. Not really a snort. He's still figuring out this entire "emoting" thing. ]

I haven't had a lot of conversation in the last seven years. [ Getting lectured, strategizing, getting triggered by the light and talking to an old warped mask that had been worn by his grandfather? Yeah, there wasn't a lot of "hello, how are you? How was your weekend?" ] I'm rusty.

[ Which is an understatement.

But to be fair he was actually the first one to try and have a normal conversation when this whole force bond dyad shit started acting up. And she just immediately tried to shoot him and screamed at him.



Which. Yes her reaction was more normal. And YES He did skip a few steps. But REY IT WAs IMPORTANT AND SUPER INTERESTING, MORE INTERESTING THEN JUST MURDERING ONE ANOTHER.

But maybe he should throw her a bone??? He's not sure. How do people start conversations outside of sith cults????? ]

What would you like to discuss?

[ ???? Is that good???

Also, excuse him as he pulls her hair up into his hands and brushes at the underside in a maneuver that is completely uncalled for and unfair. ]

[jedied]

[It's not like Rey has any better practice at this. Scavengers don't really converse beyond passing niceties when it's absolutely necessary; mostly they tended to distrustfully ignore one another. If it weren't for people like Finn and Poe being aggressively social in her direction, Rey wouldn't know how to talk to anybody.

What she wants to say is something along the lines of "I'm sorry for all those times I tried to kill you (but to be fair you were being a dick)" but that's exactly the sort of intense territory she's trying to move them away from.]

Tell me something I don't already--

[excuse her, that perfectly reasonable sentence is going to be interrupted by a positively undignified noise of enjoyment because dear god his fingers had just touched the back of her neck just so and sent a full-body shiver down her spine that she isn't remotely prepared to suppress.

Well. They're not going to get a lot of talking done if he insists upon doing things like that.]

-- that I don't already know about you.

[Yup, just pretend like you didn't enjoy that way more than was convenient, Rey. The man's ego is probably already way too big. Just like his--

Hands. Yup. ]

[vaderstan]

[ Look. HE KNOWS HOW TO PLEASE THE LADIES. Okay he knows how to do hair. Which honestly is just a leg up on like. Every dude I know at least. What a fucking low bar tbh.

But if he noticed the noise he did he's paying it no mind. They are still in a strange emotional space and he isn't about to jump her bones because he was able to make her jelly over hair brushing.

But, you know, he sees what she's thinking and now I am made a liar about him paying that noise no mind because he's just gonna do the move again and press his mouth to the nape of her neck and just-- ]

You're the second person I've kissed. I've been with no one else.

[ He's a fukkin' virgin cause they ain't drowinin' in puh on the darkside apparently.

Actually man, now that I think about it the dark side seems to be fueled by incel rage. wtf. ]

[jedied]

[Okay, that is just suuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuper unfair right now. She'd been trying. To have a conversation. But his lips against her neck, the little breath of hot air that precedes them; that's what turns her to actual jelly. All the tension seems to drop out of her limbs at once such that she ends up somewhat involuntarily draping herself back against him.

Sorry, Ben, the hair brushing probably just got kind of complicated, because she cranes her head to look at him with a sort of mild disbelief even though she can feel the truth of his words.]

Really? But I thought you could have --

had anyone you wanted she thinks, probably too loudly even though she's realized that's literally not true, given that who he'd wanted was her. And I mean. Maybe there'd been rules about that sort of thing under Snoke. She doesn't want to think about it. She wants him to keep doing things that make her all melty. But she also wants to get to know him in some way other than the naked way first. Or you know. Simultaneously. Whatever.

(Oh hey Ben, that bathrobe she's wearing? Definitely too big for her. Absolutely trying to slip off one shoulder given the way she's awkwardly turned to sort-of look at you.)

And for a minute it seems like she's really, deeply considering kissing him. Because she is. She wets her lips first and everything. But instead, without turning back around, she asks-]

Your turn. Ask me something. And no fair just pulling the answer out of my mind even if that's effortless for you.

[She knows it's kind of an effort to block one another out, but she's been making one so as not to invade his privacy. She doesn't want to be another person uninvited into his head.]

[vaderstan]

[ Yeah, Ben sees that near titty slip, he can probably even spot some nip if he looks hard enough and you know what he's gonna do about it? He's gonna slide his hand down to her shoulder and---- Right the fabric. Very gently and not trying to be obvious about it because he's sure she wasn't really worried about modesty while bunking in a barracks. But. LOOK THEY ARE BOTH TRYING VERY HARD TO NOT JUST GET NAKED RIGHT NOW.

Also there's no polite way to say "You think too loudly and give away your every thought just by the way you move and are" that won't derail this entire nice moment so he'll keep that to himself. ]

Favorite planet you've been to since leaving Jakku.

[ And since she's destroyed all chances he currently had of continuing to play with her hair? He'll set aside the brush and lean forward on her and wrap his arms around her middle.

You didn't think this snot was going to be immediately comfortable invading your space upon first meeting you? Please, he may have thought about aggressively cuddling you in that goddamn interrogation chair if you hadn't just JUMPED INTO HIS BRAIN. ]

[jedied]

[ Rey is... vaguely aware of him fixing her clothes, but honestly she just thinks it's because he's decided she's a perpetual mess and this is just how life is going to be now, her trying to exist and Ben deciding to invade her personal space to fix her.

Not a bad plan tbh.

She's actually surprisingly comfortable (or unsurprisingly; by now Rey's starting to figure out that being close to one another is keeping them both calm and anchored), so she just lets one hand rest lightly over one of his and the other will lightly stroke his arm where it's wrapped around her waist; just letting her fingertips trace idle patterns as she speaks.]

Mm. You'd probably think Ahch-To because it was the island from my dream, but it was honestly kind of a let-down in person. I was starting to enjoy Ajan Kloss, honestly. It's the entire opposite of Jakku. I felt safe there for a while.

[This is nice. She wouldn't mind kissing him some more, but she also wouldn't mind just talking to each other until one of them falls asleep. It'll probably be her, but she's vaguely concerned he's not actually gotten enough sleep either, so she may make a conscious effort to make sure he does this time. It's all up to whether or not tiredness wins out over her concern, and how successful Ben is at remaining a calming influence.

And really. Honestly. What is her life that suddenly Ben Solo is the most calming influence in it?]

My turn. Tell me about the planet you grew up on.

[vaderstan]

[ Yeah it's no surprise he's thinking about kissing her too. It's honestly the hunger of a touch-starved man... well and the desperation of one. He's trying not to fall back into the mind set of feeling like he needed to force her hand to get her to be with him. The whole off-kilter setting of him being brought back to life has helped push that desperation and insecurity to the back of his mind. Which means he's just barely resisting kissing her mouth or neck or where ever she'd let him.

And in response to her demand he hums softly as he tries to think of how to describe his home planet. But words are hard to find when trying to describe such an all encompassing experience so he'll just draw up a memory of it and let it seep into her.

It's his home-- well, his family's home. It's a memory from when he was younger, and there's the smell of the ocean in the air as a breeze is let in. The sky is a brilliant lilac hue, the clouds set on fire by the setting sun, a droid chatters about dinner time and Rey may notice that even in this memory that's so tinted in warm nostalgia... the young Ben Solo is still at home alone. As he picks himself off the ground the memory will fade. ]

I remember it being lonely, really.

[ Said matter-of-factly. She felt it within him as he had with her.

man what a topic to head into. Ben's just gonna turn this bus around ]

Threepio or an inebriated Poe Dameron. Which do you want to toss out of an airlock more?

[ He ripped through Poe's mind like tissue paper. He knows exactly how obnoxious an inebriated Poe Dameron is ]

[jedied]

[Honestly, his desire to kiss her is probably bleeding over into her a bit and making her want it, too. They're really going to have to talk about this whole dyad thing and whether or not either one of them cares that it's probably the thing that's making them have feelings for one another. Or... blurring the lines between what they would have loved about one another on their own, at least.

But it's not a conversation that's going to happen this instant. Maybe it's selfish, but Rey doesn't want that answer yet. Or possibly ever. She lets herself take in his memory, the beauty and the wistful feeling about it and yes, the underlying loneliness. She'll try to send back a gentle nudge of reassurance even before he changes the subject.]

You're terrible; what a rude question. [She's laughing, though.]

Just for the record, I don't usually want to airlock my friends, but Threepio is... really, really annoying.

[And this is really not fair, because now she can't actually think of much to ask him that will maintain the light mood. And she hasn't truly laughed in... at least sixteen days. Probably more. But she doesn't want to touch upon topics that will make him think about any of the following: his childhood, his parents, his uncle, Snoke, the First Order, dying, coming back to life, or...

Wait. Inspiration time.]

"What color would you want your new lightsaber to be?"

[She's truly not going to try to convince him to join the Jedi Order if he doesn't want to; she's not even sure she's actually going to rebuild it yet. That had just been thinking fast in order to keep Ben from getting killed. But she supposes he's thought about it the lightsaber question at least a little.]

[vaderstan]

[ Without hesitation: ]

Red.






[ You can elbow him really hard if you want to he fucking deserves it. But with or without the deserved abuse he will give an honest response. ]

I don't know. [ Going back to blue just seemed to be trying to regain something he could never have back.... maybe something he never really wanted to have back. And his thoughts while busting ass to get to Rey and her face-off with Palpatine had been solely on "Gotta get Rey out of this alive". And since being revived? "Gotta get Rey to sleep."

Either way he's tugging her a bit more tightly to him, even rearranges his limbs just a bit. He goes from having his feet crossed together in front of him to spreading them out so they can just have full body contact. Don't think about his dick, Rey. Don't eyeball the size of his feet and hands, Rey. It's just a dick. He is, honest-to-god, just feeling a whole lot better about a lot of things with her tucked close to him. Nothing else in this galaxy had to make sense, because this did.








Okay maybe he does want to fuck with her a little. It's hilarious. This is who he is. The Literal Worst. ]

How long have you wanted to touch my hair?

[ Which is just several shades of asshole already, but he ups the ante by saying it nearly directly in to her ear. He can feel how squirrely she's getting and it's honestly????????? just kinda an ego boost and Hilarious. Like. PEOPLE RUN IN FEAR FROM HIM OR ATTEMPT TO MURDER HIM. They do not get all blushing and flustered about it. Also he probably missed every single sign of a girl being into him in his youth. this is the type of guy he is ]

BENJAMIN CHEWBACCA SOLO I STG

[jedied]

[Rey does not elbow him, but it is a near fucking thing. But she's pretty sure he's kidding and she honestly never in a million years thought that Ben Solo would make a fucking joke but she's starting to catch on when he does.

And she absolutely adores it.

So she's just gonna let him settle her between his legs because what the hell, they're comfortable and if he's not worried about her sitting right up against his dick then she's not gonna be the one to back down.

Especially

E S P E C I A L L Y

After he goes and asks that!!!!

Rey of Jakku has never backed down from a challenge and especially not with this asshole. So she's just gonna twist herself around however awkwardly she needs to so she can look him straight in the eye and reply --]

Since you first took off that stupid. fucking. helmet.

[And, fuck the space police; Rey's just gonna do what they've wanted to do and press her lips to his however the fuck she can at this angle, and to facilitate matters she's going to reach up with one hand and thread her fingers through the hair at the nape of his neck as she pulls him a little closer.

Do not test Rey, Ben. She may be a space virgin but she's also not taking your shit ever again.]

[vaderstan]

[ He is really not thinking about his dick. He has told his dick that he is not sure he is ready for the commitment of being alive yet so don't get too excited. And he's really getting ready to just give her some smart quip about her objectifying him for his hair when she just ends the debate.

Oh-- oh okay. He can do that too.

It's an awkward reach, and his hair is still wet, but he'll crane his neck and facilitate the entire thing. You know. At least he's cleared up any theories he had in the first place.

Don't fuck this up Ben Solo. You're kissing your girl Finally. DON'T FUCK THIS UP-- ]

If you had asked then I would have let you do it.

[ Astounding. A round of applause. ]

[jedied]

[To her credit, Rey doesn't just stand up and yell WHY ARE YOU LIKE THIS???? at him, because honestly she kind of knows why he's like this. She's met his parents. And after she recovers from a few seconds of confusion - in which rearranges herself so she can face him a little more fully to fix him with an expression of what the actual entire fuck --

-- she realizes that's actually kind of funny.

Maybe it's the lack of sleep and general stress talking. Either way, she's just gonna. Go back to kissing him. In a minute. After she figures out the appropriate response to that sort of fuckery.]

I take it all back. I'm letting Jannah shoot you.

[Yeah, she probably doesn't mean that, considering how she absolutely cannot keep a straight face and also how she's just gonna go right back to kissing him as previously promised by this bracket text. And now she's twisted around so she can get both her hands in that hair, wet as it may be, and make this jerk lose maybe an ounce of his stupid smartass perfect composure as she threads her fingers through it.]

[vaderstan]

[ Finally. Someone appreciates his stunning sense of humor. He did not get a lot of laughs in the First Order, lemme tell you. And he honestly isn't entirely prepared for how Rey is fighting back with just straight up kissing him. And it's honestly a very good technique, it means he can't use his mouth to say any more dumb ass things. Shoulda just started with that tbh.

Also he's trying not to be aware of how danger zone this is slipping into with her in just a SLINKY ROBE FROM LANDO and just-- a whole lot of hair pulling going on. A soft noise is pulled from the back of his throat as his hands find their way to her waist and help her adjust her positioning. Like man, at least there's no straddling going on yet since his legs are spread out. How Long will their purity last? How long until one of his hands slips under the soft silk of her robe? How long until Rey decides she needs to cop a feel of that darkside dick though??????




A little longer yet.

His stomach just rumbled.



This is so fucking humiliating. ]

[jedied]

[This is honestly probably how Leia dealt with Han 99.997% of the time: kiss him to shut him up. Rey probably should have asked space mom for notes on how to deal with Solo men. Well. There's always time for a Force Ghost chat later.

Oh God. Is Force Ghost Space Mom gonna have to give Rey the talk???????????



Rey is emboldened by that sound he just made and honestly would have kept pushing her advantage if she weren't connected to him enough to register that rumble as something that ought to be given its due attention.

She pulls herself away more than a little reluctantly and sits back on her heels, her face faintly flushed and her lips kiss-reddened, but concern overtaking her desire to keep the makeout session going.]

You haven't eaten enough, have you?

[She'd kind of assumed he'd fed himself while she showered, but now that she focuses a little she can tell he's neglected that step entirely. She'll unfold herself from him enough that he can go retrieve some food. She really kinda wants to watch him eat one of those weird purple pear things tbh. She'd just go grab one and stuff it in his face if she didn't think he needed to seriously feed himself real actual food and not just pretty space fruit.]

[vaderstan]

[ What a fucking cockblock. He's kind of upset about it, but not as actually upset as his stomach is at him. ]

I haven't eaten all-- [ Wait... ] --since we last fought.

[ ---???//// ? Is it 16 days? Or is he just counting the time he's actually been alive. This is really confusing.

Cool. whatever. He's going to hold out a hand to force grab whatever tray of food is left on the end of their bunk. There's fruit and some fairly simple staples. Basically, space lunchables. Not a gourmet meal, but better than whatever Rey had on Tatooine. And he's not sure he could handle a full course meal right now anyway.

He'll nudge the tray so it's clear that Rey is allowed to help herself as well. He's not going to start off with fruit (sorry Rey), this body needs protein for that Swolo bod. ]

Have you spoken with any of your other friends since you arrived on Tatooine?

[ Rey: oh no let me avoid sad subjects so he isn't sad.
Ben: lmao yolo life is pain ]

off-topic but not rly: I'm listening to Frozen 2 and specific songs are a big mood here.

[jedied]

[Rey will pick at a piece of bread because 1. she's a starving little space gremlin and 2. she needs something to do with her hands now that she's gotta keep them off Ben for a little bit.

And also 3. she doesn't actually want to answer that question. Which she can't while she's chewing.]



[Eventually; not really looking at him.]

They know I'm alive. We're not on the same planet rotation anyway, so...

[She's not regularly midnight-texting anyone, is what she's saying. She hasn't known what to say to their questions about what she's doing, when she's coming back, and most often how she is. How hasn't mattered.

She's been living. Just trying to keep putting one foot in front of the other. And do the next right thing. It's been enough.]

[vaderstan]

[ He'll sense that unease within her and lean over to run his fingers along her back. He doesn't feel guilty, but it's not great to hear that she suffered so much alone.

Also he's still eating, his appetite just isn't really great right now considering he went from SUPER STRESSED OUT to DEAD to Maybe??? Things will be okay???? It's gonna take a few days to adjust. And he's about to hit the wall he normally hits right before he generally just found a pack of stims and kept going. ]

I can call them up and explain if you'd like.

[ There it is. Another one of his awful jokes. Surely it's not going to get any worse ]

Or we could send a holo of us kissing.

[ That would clear up a lot of questions Real Quick. And create ten thousand more

Also. Wow. It's kind of weird to acknowledge the kissing out loud???? What ever.

He's finished off another small stack of bread/cheese/meat and he's gonna reach for a fruit now. ]

[jedied]

[Rey's just going to drop her head into her hands for a moment and make a small noise of infinite frustration.

She doesn't know how she's going to tell her friends. Anything. She's not sure who's going to take the current state of matters worse: Poe, who'd been tortured by this guy, or Finn, who'd almost been sliced in half by him.

If she were a worse person she'd just will them to understand while she explained and then fuck off to the outermost of the Outer Rim worlds with Ben and never be seen again. That's definitely still an option if the Prince Ben Solo thing doesn't work out.]

If you've got any suggestions that don't get us both murdered I'm open to hearing them.

[Fat chance, Rey. I mean. Look at his plans up to this point.





But oh, he's eating that fruit now. Rey's just gonna. Be entranced. IDK why this is her kink, but it's probably just because she likes staring at his mouth and imagining it a whole bunch of other places.

She's honestly not sure if he's aware of what he looks like... basically all of the time, though she suspects he kinda does given how often he chose to appear before her without the mask after that first time. It's pretty ridiculously unfair tbh. Stop being able to tell just how hard Rey wants to jump your bones, Ben. God.]

[vaderstan]

[ He's kinda noticed her obsession with his mouth. He can't say he minds it. Like, it's really nice to have someone who is just so enthralled by him even after he has done everything that is a Huge NO DO NOT in the handbook about wooing and dating.

He is being fairly neat about eating that fruit tho. Not nearly making the mess Rey was. But there is a slight deep purple drop right at the corner of his mouth. He hasn't noticed it. ]

I could take off my shirt.

[ Kill him. ]

Explain what you can. [ He's moving on to serious advice because he is afraid Rey will actually choke him if he keeps this up He may be into it tho ] And don't hide whatever you feel.

[ Another bite of fruit and the drop at the corner of his mouth is growing larger. Taunting her. ]

If they don't know anything about this, they'll need your truth more than anything else.

[ And that's some suspiciously good advice, but he's talking from the experience of haVING EVERYTHING ABOUT DARTH VADER BEING HIS GRANDFATHER HIDDEN FROM HIM UNTIL HE WAS 23 ]

[jedied]

[Do not get cocky, Ben. The woman sliced your face in half even after she saw how pretty it was.

Honestly she doesn't need her to kill him; he's gonna get killed the minute he deadpans one of these remarks to literally anyone who isn't currently on this ship.

That aside, she's not sure his advice is, well, advisable. Even if it's right.]

"I think the truth of what I feel is the thing they're going to struggle with the most."

['Hey guys, I'm in love with Kylo Ren, I bet you all could guess by the number of times we've almost killed each other; anyway I'm just here to say that if anyone gets to kill him it's me and I've decided to opt out of that for the forseeable future. OKbye.'


All that aside, she's going to lose her entire mind if she doesn't do this, so--

She reaches out to stop his hand before he can take another bite and just straight-up steals the fruit -- rude!!! -- holding it out of his reach until she can lean in and kiss that spot at the corner of his mouth, her tongue darting out quickly to catch that stray drop.]

[vaderstan]

[ I mean really. this is part of why he's confused about his whole. Surviving the war thing. Like.... he's pretty sure he's just going to be killed for who he is as a person because even with out the Kylo Ren bullshit he's a snarky asshole who emotes as much as a tepid rock on a cold day.

And he was just about to respond when--????/?/??/

His mind actually stutters, he hadn't entirely been expecting that. His instinct was nearly to turn his head and catch her mouth with his and then she licked him and--

Rey. He's really doing his best to not turn this into some dumb "Let's fuck IMMEDIATELY, that is what will make this better". Because everyone here is still questioning where things are going to go from here.

Deep Breaths. Deep slow breaths. We are not going there Immediately. HE IS DOING HIS BEST. Rey is really just gonna question whether he actually wants sex isn't she? Like a nineteen year old is throwing herself at him and he's just 'yeah cool thats fine. let's continue talking'

So he doesn't pull away or make a move towards her. Just tries to continue to talk as every baser instinct within him is screaming for him to take action. ]

Do you want your relationship with them to continue based on a pleasant lie or the truth?

[ And like??? This is part of the reason he's not just immediately dicking her down at this second. It's easy to dick down when you can pretend there will be zero consequences. But Ben Solo isn't a fool, he knows this will change everyone's view on her. He's a fairly large stain on how they view Rey. He would completely understand if she wanted to walk away or hide him or do anything else but speak the truth. ]

jesus god they're never gonna fuck but i love it bc slow burn is my jaaaaaam

[jedied]

[You know what, Ben? Fine. She'll talk, if you're not going to respond in any way at all to that aggressive invitation to shut up.

But she's keeping the rest of that pear, because fuuuuuuuuck you, that's why. If she's not getting laid you're not getting to finish your pear. She's just chomp on it angrily while glaring just a little because she doesn't know what she wants.]

You know it's not that simple. I don't want to lose them, but... I'm not willing to lose you, either.

[And if it comes down to it, well. Her choice is pretty obvious, at least to her. That doesn't mean she's especially eager to face the looks on her friends' faces when she tells them she's made it.]