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Ben Solo
Kylo Ren

The protein shakes, where are they?

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GENERAL PROMPTS

Redemption arc: Kylo leaving the First Order. Due to either slow burn reasons (Figuring out holy shit I don't want this) or Immediate Issues That Need Solving (Rey's kidnapped, Hux turns on him, etcetc)

Re-adjusting to life in the light/in the Resistance. Whether it goes smoothly or Rough is up to the situation

Early First Order Days. Especially when Snoke was breaking his Ben Solo identity

Ben Solo Pre-First Order

Ben Solo as the most obnoxious Resistance Member idek

Jedi Hippie camp with Luke

BEN AND HIS FAMILY

👌👀👌👀👌👀👌👀👌👀 good shit go౦ԁ sHit👌 thats ✔ some good👌👌shit right👌👌there👌👌👌 right✔there ✔✔if i do ƽaү so my self 💯 i say so 💯 thats what im talking about right there right there (chorus: ʳᶦᵍʰᵗ ᵗʰᵉʳᵉ) mMMMMᎷМ💯 👌👌 👌НO0ОଠOOOOOОଠଠOoooᵒᵒᵒᵒᵒᵒᵒᵒᵒ👌 👌👌 👌 💯 👌 👀 👀 👀 👌👌Good shit

Becoming king of Porgs and other cute creatures and he doesn't understand why

Becoming his father's son

Also being just like his mother

AND ALSO BEING JUST LIKE LUKE

Rey convinces Kylo to come with her and join the Resistance. The resulting tension and rebuilding of trust in him... As well as Jedi training with her

Interactions with his mother, whether it be from the above scenario, or even reaching out through the force

Poe, Finn and the rest of the Resistance reacting to kylo switching sides. Poe hitting on Kylo and having to give him tons of dumb nicknames because Ren only wants his mom and Rey to call him ben

Kylo being a weird Scary Older Brother to the entire Resistance.

Kylo and Anakin. KYLO AND KENOBI

Discussions/threads with Han Luke and Leia- discussion forgiveness and mistakes

Rebuilding the Jedi Order

Post War Threads

Kylo Ren disappears mysteriously from the war after major internal strife causes the downfall of the First Order. Someone comes across Ben Solo in hiding years later

Kylo on Jakku complaining its hot as balls. Look. I don't know. I'm just saying it would be hilarious

Drunk texts are the best don't tell me otherwise

SHIPPY PROMPTS
SHIPS I AM DOWN FOR
Kylo/Rey hands down

If ur sittin there readin this going "Oh no but so many Reys are bugging them I don't wanna be annoying" I don't fucking care TAG ME

Hand touching

I love you. I know.

Forcebond shenanigans. Kylo or Rey reaching out to touch the other while the other one is busy (GOOD SHIT. GOOD SHIT)

Rey getting seriously injured and separated from the Resistance. Her only option is to force time Kylo

Kylo finding Rey on Ahch'to and them fucking around under luke's nose (Forcebond in person who knows)SMUT HUT

FORCEFULLY GIVING REY A BIRTHDAY AND MAKING HER CELEBRATE IT

Snoke tries to kill kylo in front of rey and it doesn't go like he plans

REY IN A GODDAMN DRESS AND KYLO ACTUALLY NOT KNOWING HOW TO REACT AT ALL

CLEANING HER DUMB HOUSE

Forcebond dreaming shenanigans. Especially if Rey or Kylo are stuck in one anothers nightmares.

Rey finding out how bad Snoke really was.

Visiting Ahch'to together

Empress Rey

Empress Rey Working to secretly undermine the first order

Meeting before TFA/in different circumstances

Fighting/sexual tension/beating each other up. u kno

Just re-enact Pride and Prejudice with me

Either one suffering from insomnia and helping the other sleep

Public Sex

Weird DubCon Sex (Rey taking advantage of Kylo I'm freely admitting to my trash)

SHIPS I AM MAYBE ON
Kylo/Poe: I'm not of the fanon that Ben or Poe knew each other as kids. If you want to play that, talk with me first, we'll need to hash out details. If you wanna do hateship, that's fine too. Again. I'd like to be consulted first
Kylo/Hux: This is such a huge maybe it's almost a no. I am not down for fluffy Kylo/Hux. I don't think Kylo or Hux secretly love each other and that takes form in them wanting to murder each other when they walk into a room and see each other. I do not think Kylo wants anything to do with Hux's dick Ever. I only see this happening as Hux taking advantage of Kylo when he's emotionally compromised and unprotected without Snoke keeping Hux in line.
So Kylux is only a "cool lets do it" if you are willing to play out something unhealthy, toxic, with a huge dose of hate and manipulation. Kylo/ANYONE ELSE: Not against pretty much any other ship, but Kylo's a hard dude to ship with for. A lot of reasons. Talk with me first, and I'll see if we can work something out.

CHARACTERS/CROSSOVERS

I'm fine with every and any star wars characters. If you are doing something from the EU I request that you just have enough info in your profile so I know what your character's deal is

AU characters are fine. I'm not really into Gender Bent characters (sorry y'all), again-- I just need info in your profile about the AU (Unless it's discussed w me before hand)

I Herald from disney princess beginnings. Give me all your princesses I think this combo is fucking hilarious

Brienne of Tarth because i'm still laughing about it

God I will add more later. Really just tag me.

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YES

text messages, actionspam, lengthy brackets, prose.

ous/ au/ all us tbh

previous meme or psl continuations / sequels / c&ping a starter i never replied to.

EMOTIONALLY HEAVY BULLSHIT

FLUFF

contact me if i drop a tag you want picked up

Angst

redemption arcs

intense emotionally heavy threads

Smut

general

hurt comfort

Kylo or Rey getting injured

Kylo being a huge fucking brat.

if there's anything you're not sure about, ask!

NO

Rape.

Dull RP.

Taking this character WAY TOO SERIOUSLY.

Me doing the work of moving a scene along

rape/non-con. Especially with Kylo as the aggressor (This can be changed with prior discussion and prior threading)

scatophilia, emetophiloa, necrophilia.

gender/sexuality play.

degradation involving racism or ablism.

power-gaming and ooc dick-measuring contests.

AUs with no information

OCs with no information

Maybe

Dub con

torture

killing

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APPEARANCEINFOHERE

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Mental health

I know everyone and their mom with an armchair psychologist degree wants to diagnose Kylo Ren/Ben Solo with whatever mental illness checks all the boxes. I know Bipolar and Borderline personality disorder are two popular illnesses to cite when it comes to his mental health. Along with a healthy dose of citing him as a sociopath/psychopath. However, I'm not going to be using those illnesses/personality disorders in how I play Kylo. While they fit on paper, I don't believe "what's wrong with him" presents in the correct fashion in canon for any one of the above listed issues.

I believe Kylo Ren/Ben Solo is suffering from: Recurring Chronic Major Depression it could be passed down through their family given what we know of Anakin and what happened with Luke; Post Traumatic Stress Disorder From his force powers manifesting with him having little control over it as a kid, from being sent away to Luke after his mother couldn't handle him on her own anymore, from his father leaving one day and never coming back, from having a voice whispering in his head his entire life, from that voice being a predator who preyed on his weaknesses and molded him into what he wanted Ben to be, from Luke Skywalker holding a lightsaber above his head, from abuse after abuse from Snoke, and probably a Ton more. Abandonment issues stemming first from his parents (And quite probably friends he had who left for whatever reason, or bridges he burned on his own) and then just. The entire force tbh. And abandonment issues is where he gets his unchecked rage, he, in canon, is quite literally triggered into a rage whenever he confronts someone who he felt abandoned him, or when he feels rejected or left behind. Finally he is a victim of Brainwashing and indoctrination from Snoke. Snoke is a narcissist who was using Kylo as a means to an end, it's been stated and shown that he was ready to kill Kylo after the Last Jedi since he had become unbalanced and unpredictable. If you don't agree with what I am saying here (Which is fine :) ), then I suggest you don't play with me. I am fairly confident in this being the way I see and play Kylo.

I play him as having triggers. I won't get into the reasoning behind each one, but i'll specify the specifics which come to mind: Abandonment (Perceived or real), his family, loss of control (Physically, emotionally, mentally, through the force)

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( i'm writing this tag i just wanna put a place holder here in case u wanna find some pretentious images like the pretentious asshole u r on the inside )

Are we mentally ready for this cluster fuck (CW: everything tbh guys)

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[ He's inebriated. He's aware of that much.

That fact in of itself is pretty astounding, he hasn't touched a drop of anything in years. And so somehow, somewhere, someone had convinced Kylo Ren, Supreme Leader of the First Order to take a drink.

Maybe it was the meeting earlier today. There'd been some minor victory or land gain-- but had there been drinks there? He can't remember. Vague smells and sounds and sights come to him in patches. Splotches. Out of focus and unclear.

He remembers Hux expressing some saccharine concern, he'd tried to wave him off and say he was fine. But then he's being led down the corridor and to his room.

It all feels wrong and his tongue is like lead. His spit feels thicker than normal and when he tries to dig his claws into the Force it slips through his fingers-- jerked in the wrong direction. Pulled when he wanted to push.

Maybe it's that desperate grasp that causes the bond to ripple. Call out to Rey when he hadn't intended on doing so. It's not as if she was paying any mind either way. The few times he'd tried to reach her since Crait, she'd stone walled him.

He missed her, though. He'd much rather she was here than Hux.

Why was Hux still in his room? ]

CW: WE ARE GARBAGE AND THIS IS NOT FLUFFY KYLUX.

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[ His back hits the sheets and he feels Hux starting to pull at his gloves-- No. This is wrong. He realizes that implicitly now. But the part of him that knows this is wrong feels muted, gagged-- and the whole world around him twists and goes quiet and he's confused. Confused what's going on until he turns his head and--

Rey.

He tries to say the name. His mouth open to form the letters but the noise won't come out. He can't tell if she's real or if this was a trick of his mind. He's so focused on her he nearly forgets what's going on--


Right until he feels hands in his hair, pulling his attention away from her.

Hux is saying something-- he can't catch the words, just the idea that it's something about his hair and his meticulous routine. He takes a curl around his finger and Kylo doesn't want to be here. It's reminding him of how he felt when Snoke first broke him. When he felt trapped and helpless while his mind was raided and plundered and all he could do was scream-- ]

Ss-- [ He can only manage that sound before Hux chuckles at his attempts and slides a gloved hand to grip his chin, kissing him full on the mouth.

'Don't worry. I'll make this enjoyable for the both of us.' ]

As it should. kylux is only fluffy when they're in separate beds thinking of how to murder the other

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Nnn--

[ The sound drags out, he can't tell which he's trying to appeal to, Rey or Hux. He tries to prop himself on a hand, but Hux's fingers find his shoulder and shove him down roughly. He's frustrated, frustrated and weak and scared. He tries to brace his palm to Hux's torso to push, but his wrist is pinned down easily as the general's already removed his belt and starts to work on his tunic.

'So many layers, it's no wonder you've never had anyone take you to bed'

It's now that his mind is catching up to the fact that Rey is here and real-- there's a shot of panic... adrenaline. He still can't gather his strength or get a foot hold on the Force. His gaze is glassy and unfocused and squirm as he might he can't get away from the feel of Hux's glove against the exposed skin of his abdomen. ]

S--stop.

[ It's weak, hardly a sound. The best he can do, but he feels Rey crying and he's causing it and his mind is spun out of control.

But-- it works? Or seems to. Hux had lifted him up to remove his tunic, been in the process of throwing it aside and running his fingers under the fastenings for his bracers when he stops to consider his Supreme Leader.

'That wasn't very polite, you can do better.'

Hux lets him go to fall back on to the bed and survey him. Mussed hair, no tunic, every muscle twisting and turning as he breathes and writhes.

He takes a deep breath to try and gain his wits. ]

St-stop. [ A stuttered breath as he closes his eyes and the world continues to spin-- ] Please.

[ There's a moment where Kylo can trick himself into believe such a plea would work, Hux's cold stare as he looks down on him, he can feel Rey's heartbeat in his own chest and then-- Then Hux smiles and Kylo realizes he's given him exactly what he wants.

'That wasn't so difficult, was it Ren?'

Leather-clad gloves find the hem of his pants and start to work there and he feels sick. ]

in their case it would have to be suicide which would be their love language to one another.

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[ Hux's appraising look makes his skin crawl, even in this state. It's not as if he was ever specifically self conscious of his physique, but now he's being looked at like a thing to be used and-- Everything is hitting him at once. This is how Snoke saw him, how Luke saw him-- A thing to be used. A means to an end. This was ultimately all he was good for.

Rey sobs next to him and he turns towards her. His words are sticking in his throat, but even if he could speak properly right now, he wouldn't. He'd put her at risk-- he was doing it now. He doesn't remember calling her-- hell he hardly remembers dinner or drinking but here he was.

Hux pulls at his shoulders and rolls him over with a grunting effort and the movement-- the effort-- the sound triggers panic. Desperate panting breaths and he should cut off the connection here, he realizes. He tries, just as he tries to scramble at the sheets or to get his legs to work and they don't. ]

Nn-- [ The taste of leather as Hux shoves his fingers into Kylo's mouth again.

'I don't want to hear another word unless you're begging me for more.'

It's like he can't breathe. He knows he's taking in air, that despite the drugs in his system his body is working fine, but his control has been ripped away and it feels as if he's choking. As if he's going to die right here--

'If you don't stay quiet I may shove my cock in that pretty mouth of yours. Understand?'

Hux peers down at Kylo as he's forced to nod weakly.

'Good.'

He can still see Rey. Even as he hears the rustle of cloth, feel leather curve over his ass, still taste where Hux's fingers had been holding down his tongue-- he watches Rey. He can't do anything for her right now. He imagines it's his own selfish whim which brought her here. Why was he always hurting her?

His fingers reach out to try and brush along hers. ]

Me, every tag: Well its not gonna get wor-- oh. I'M SORRY I'M SO SORRY.

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[ He nearly smiles when he feels her fingers against his own. And the drug has stripped away his protective layers, the lies he tells himself to keep Rey's memory at a distance. She's here right now and all he can think about is how much he'd wanted to see her and talk to her. Maybe even apologize. He was the broken one, she was enough on her own.

He'd never let himself be so foolish as to think of doing anything physical with her, not even holding her-- well. Maybe touching her hand. But with her "here" with him right now, his mind drifting and unfocused he thinks of what it would be like to brush his lips to hers.

That's when he feels slick fingers push into him and he has to physically bite back a gasp.

His blood is pumping so loudly he can hardly hear Hux muttering to himself, evaluating his body as he works his fingers around. Suddenly all he can hear is Snoke in his mind telling him how weak he is and all he wants to do is leave. Leave his body, go somewhere else. Kylo Ren is no where to be found with out the Force and he feels as helpless as he did the night he came stumbling in from the ashes of Luke's temple.

He is given a brief respite, Hux's hand pulls out from him and he realizes despite how hard he had thought he was gripping Rey's hand, he hasn't even clenched his fist. He's weaker than he thought-- maybe he could pass out.

But that would also mean leaving Rey.

Then all at once Hux shoves into him and Kylo cries out. ]

this thread is a fucking travesty. burn it to the ground. Make a 20 minute youtube video about it

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[ The drug dulls things, but doesn't eliminate the sensation. He can feel muscles being stretched and torn. He's nearly numb to the way Hux hits him for yelling and some part of him is insulted by the gesture.

There's no pleasure to be found in this, certainly. Hux isn't taking his time or putting any care to make sure Kylo's enjoying himself. He's ruthless and cruel, driving in and it's all Kylo can do to grit his teeth.

Rey's voice brings him back to her. Her-- he can focus on that. Follow that instruction. Despite everything else he leans into her hand as much as he can, grateful for the cool touch of her palm. It's then he realizes he's also feverish.

He wants to talk to her-- so desperately, despite the way his breath is catching in his throat every time Hux's hips snap against him; Despite the tears forming in the corners of his eyes; Despite everything.

Then Hux pulls at Kylo's hips, lifting his ass up higher into the air and he starts to tug at his cock. There's no way Kylo can hold back the whimper that causes. ]

YOU AGREED. **EXCITEDLY**. I ASKED YOU WHICH THREAD YOU WANTED TO DO YOU SAID THIS

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[ A weak noise as his body betrays him. He doesn't want this. He doesn't want this. He doesn't want this. It's a mantra in his head and he can feel Rey wanting to take his place and-- it's a confusing mix of emotions. Tears well up and his breath is nearing to a sob. Hux is enjoying all of this from his position, but he's blessedly shut out by Rey's proximity. ]

'S my fault.

[ A whisper he has to struggle to push out as Hux works his body. Punishment be damned. He wouldn't let her live thinking she caused this.

He chose this. He knows he did. ]

I have receipts. I can look this shit up

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[ He can still feel Hux moving inside of him, stroking him and bringing him closer to finish. The closer he gets the more he feels shame in looking at Rey, letting her see or experience any of this--

Could she feel it?

There's more panic and for a moment he struggles until Hux shoves him down again.

'Maybe if you had behaved I would have sucked you dry--'

He tries to blot the words from his mind, blink away the tears, not be such a fucking wreck. What the hell was going to happen after this? He has to imagine the only reason he's so lucid is because Rey is here. Was he supposed to just forget? Was Hux planning on trying to make this a regular thing?

Or had he finally planned on ending him?

He can't gather those thoughts so neatly as they float in and out of his mind. Instead he focuses on her again. What he can see and feel of her. The images of her hair brushing her shoulders, the look of her in that small box when she came for him, how it felt fighting by her side, her hand-- He tries to hold on to that as Hux's hips gain tempo, a more punishing rhythm, harsh and bruising. The feel of him coming inside of him.

His eyes squeeze shut because now that Hux is finished, all he has left to feel is his hand jerking him off and-- He doesn't want to come. Not with Rey watching. Not like this. ]

Me: Oh hey. I'm gonna have free time. /offers several thread ideas/ Ellie: Let's do the garbage dump

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[ He wants this to be over. He wants this to be over and he wishes Rey hadn't been here to see any of it. He's assaulted by the memory of Snoke in his mind as Hux plays his body-- he feels his release coil and tighten within him and--

It's ridiculous. He wasn't saving himself, he never thought of it like that. He certainly never thought of going out and seeking a warm body to fuck but-- all these philosophical debates, things which were options to him are ripped away so suddenly. Rey's right here and he feels so alone. He wants her here in the flesh. He wants to hold her and fade away and erase everything that arrived him at this point. He tugs at her hand weakly and his lips are pressed together in concentration.

Finally Hux's hand finds the right rhythm, or perhaps the right way to rub over him specifically, tease at his head and which angle is best-- and he comes. The noise he makes is a whimpering release of breath more than anything else. A pitiful noise to end this on, too afraid to get a rise out of Hux's ire.

He's just hoping the General finally leaves. That maybe he can gather himself up and maybe lay in the refresher under scalding hot water until his skin is red and raw. ]

Maybe this is the proof i need that tifa and ellie are not the same person. OR MAYBE ITS PROOF U ARE

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[ He hardly notices, honestly. He's not sure he ate anything for dinner now that he thinks about it- but it's not as if he's thinking straight right now. For this moment, he's trying to pull himself more on his bed. Will his vision to stop spinning, give him some sort of reprieve.

Maybe the worst part is honestly how familiar this all felt. That he feels so used and numb. That Rey got to see him so stripped bare and--

He tries to speak to say it's fine. Because it is fine. She shouldn't have witnessed that, somehow she saw this and it was his fault and her own disgust was understandable. His voice doesn't come, however. Just a harsh scratching breath and he realizes he's crying.

It's like he's twenty-three and bent before Snoke again. Broken apart, forced to submit, told it's what he deserves. ]

Double athena or horatio? also this tag is my revenge

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[ Honestly-- he's not sure what he wants. He's realized he wants her all at once at the same time of this horrific thing. An admission that now feels sick or tainted and-- he doesn't have the energy to process any of it. He's no longer in the brace position, the event has crashed and everything hits him at once.

It's a miracle if Rey could dodge every thought and memory going through his head-- this right here is Kylo Ren shattering.

He did this to himself. He invited in the dark. He came like a simpering pathetic thing to Snoke's feet. He put on the mask. He killed his father. And then he met a girl and killed his master and stayed in the snake pit.

He knew he couldn't trust Hux and he chose Hux over Rey.

He can't form words, coherent sentences, barely even a tangible thought. When she draws closer his hand tries to reach for her, but he's still slow and sluggish and just--- not entirely there. ]

my revenge was swift and oh so bitter. like Sugar Water https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EN9auBn6Jys

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[ He's clinging to that hand, as hard as he can. He's devolving, quickly. He wants to stop himself and pull it together for her, but his voice is gone. He's shaking and near hyperventilation, heart practically beating out of his chest.

He's trying to coach himself back, find his balance and center and-- it works enough so that though the bond he can share the map of the last star system he knew they'd been in. It's disjointed and sloppy, but he's not really in the mindset to give her much more. ]