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[vaderstan]

Ben Solo
Kylo Ren

The protein shakes, where are they?

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GENERAL PROMPTS

Redemption arc: Kylo leaving the First Order. Due to either slow burn reasons (Figuring out holy shit I don't want this) or Immediate Issues That Need Solving (Rey's kidnapped, Hux turns on him, etcetc)

Re-adjusting to life in the light/in the Resistance. Whether it goes smoothly or Rough is up to the situation

Early First Order Days. Especially when Snoke was breaking his Ben Solo identity

Ben Solo Pre-First Order

Ben Solo as the most obnoxious Resistance Member idek

Jedi Hippie camp with Luke

BEN AND HIS FAMILY

👌👀👌👀👌👀👌👀👌👀 good shit go౦ԁ sHit👌 thats ✔ some good👌👌shit right👌👌there👌👌👌 right✔there ✔✔if i do ƽaү so my self 💯 i say so 💯 thats what im talking about right there right there (chorus: ʳᶦᵍʰᵗ ᵗʰᵉʳᵉ) mMMMMᎷМ💯 👌👌 👌НO0ОଠOOOOOОଠଠOoooᵒᵒᵒᵒᵒᵒᵒᵒᵒ👌 👌👌 👌 💯 👌 👀 👀 👀 👌👌Good shit

Becoming king of Porgs and other cute creatures and he doesn't understand why

Becoming his father's son

Also being just like his mother

AND ALSO BEING JUST LIKE LUKE

Rey convinces Kylo to come with her and join the Resistance. The resulting tension and rebuilding of trust in him... As well as Jedi training with her

Interactions with his mother, whether it be from the above scenario, or even reaching out through the force

Poe, Finn and the rest of the Resistance reacting to kylo switching sides. Poe hitting on Kylo and having to give him tons of dumb nicknames because Ren only wants his mom and Rey to call him ben

Kylo being a weird Scary Older Brother to the entire Resistance.

Kylo and Anakin. KYLO AND KENOBI

Discussions/threads with Han Luke and Leia- discussion forgiveness and mistakes

Rebuilding the Jedi Order

Post War Threads

Kylo Ren disappears mysteriously from the war after major internal strife causes the downfall of the First Order. Someone comes across Ben Solo in hiding years later

Kylo on Jakku complaining its hot as balls. Look. I don't know. I'm just saying it would be hilarious

Drunk texts are the best don't tell me otherwise

SHIPPY PROMPTS
SHIPS I AM DOWN FOR
Kylo/Rey hands down

If ur sittin there readin this going "Oh no but so many Reys are bugging them I don't wanna be annoying" I don't fucking care TAG ME

Hand touching

I love you. I know.

Forcebond shenanigans. Kylo or Rey reaching out to touch the other while the other one is busy (GOOD SHIT. GOOD SHIT)

Rey getting seriously injured and separated from the Resistance. Her only option is to force time Kylo

Kylo finding Rey on Ahch'to and them fucking around under luke's nose (Forcebond in person who knows)SMUT HUT

FORCEFULLY GIVING REY A BIRTHDAY AND MAKING HER CELEBRATE IT

Snoke tries to kill kylo in front of rey and it doesn't go like he plans

REY IN A GODDAMN DRESS AND KYLO ACTUALLY NOT KNOWING HOW TO REACT AT ALL

CLEANING HER DUMB HOUSE

Forcebond dreaming shenanigans. Especially if Rey or Kylo are stuck in one anothers nightmares.

Rey finding out how bad Snoke really was.

Visiting Ahch'to together

Empress Rey

Empress Rey Working to secretly undermine the first order

Meeting before TFA/in different circumstances

Fighting/sexual tension/beating each other up. u kno

Just re-enact Pride and Prejudice with me

Either one suffering from insomnia and helping the other sleep

Public Sex

Weird DubCon Sex (Rey taking advantage of Kylo I'm freely admitting to my trash)

SHIPS I AM MAYBE ON
Kylo/Poe: I'm not of the fanon that Ben or Poe knew each other as kids. If you want to play that, talk with me first, we'll need to hash out details. If you wanna do hateship, that's fine too. Again. I'd like to be consulted first
Kylo/Hux: This is such a huge maybe it's almost a no. I am not down for fluffy Kylo/Hux. I don't think Kylo or Hux secretly love each other and that takes form in them wanting to murder each other when they walk into a room and see each other. I do not think Kylo wants anything to do with Hux's dick Ever. I only see this happening as Hux taking advantage of Kylo when he's emotionally compromised and unprotected without Snoke keeping Hux in line.
So Kylux is only a "cool lets do it" if you are willing to play out something unhealthy, toxic, with a huge dose of hate and manipulation. Kylo/ANYONE ELSE: Not against pretty much any other ship, but Kylo's a hard dude to ship with for. A lot of reasons. Talk with me first, and I'll see if we can work something out.

CHARACTERS/CROSSOVERS

I'm fine with every and any star wars characters. If you are doing something from the EU I request that you just have enough info in your profile so I know what your character's deal is

AU characters are fine. I'm not really into Gender Bent characters (sorry y'all), again-- I just need info in your profile about the AU (Unless it's discussed w me before hand)

I Herald from disney princess beginnings. Give me all your princesses I think this combo is fucking hilarious

Brienne of Tarth because i'm still laughing about it

God I will add more later. Really just tag me.

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YES

text messages, actionspam, lengthy brackets, prose.

ous/ au/ all us tbh

previous meme or psl continuations / sequels / c&ping a starter i never replied to.

EMOTIONALLY HEAVY BULLSHIT

FLUFF

contact me if i drop a tag you want picked up

Angst

redemption arcs

intense emotionally heavy threads

Smut

general

hurt comfort

Kylo or Rey getting injured

Kylo being a huge fucking brat.

if there's anything you're not sure about, ask!

NO

Rape.

Dull RP.

Taking this character WAY TOO SERIOUSLY.

Me doing the work of moving a scene along

rape/non-con. Especially with Kylo as the aggressor (This can be changed with prior discussion and prior threading)

scatophilia, emetophiloa, necrophilia.

gender/sexuality play.

degradation involving racism or ablism.

power-gaming and ooc dick-measuring contests.

AUs with no information

OCs with no information

Maybe

Dub con

torture

killing

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APPEARANCEINFOHERE

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Mental health

I know everyone and their mom with an armchair psychologist degree wants to diagnose Kylo Ren/Ben Solo with whatever mental illness checks all the boxes. I know Bipolar and Borderline personality disorder are two popular illnesses to cite when it comes to his mental health. Along with a healthy dose of citing him as a sociopath/psychopath. However, I'm not going to be using those illnesses/personality disorders in how I play Kylo. While they fit on paper, I don't believe "what's wrong with him" presents in the correct fashion in canon for any one of the above listed issues.

I believe Kylo Ren/Ben Solo is suffering from: Recurring Chronic Major Depression it could be passed down through their family given what we know of Anakin and what happened with Luke; Post Traumatic Stress Disorder From his force powers manifesting with him having little control over it as a kid, from being sent away to Luke after his mother couldn't handle him on her own anymore, from his father leaving one day and never coming back, from having a voice whispering in his head his entire life, from that voice being a predator who preyed on his weaknesses and molded him into what he wanted Ben to be, from Luke Skywalker holding a lightsaber above his head, from abuse after abuse from Snoke, and probably a Ton more. Abandonment issues stemming first from his parents (And quite probably friends he had who left for whatever reason, or bridges he burned on his own) and then just. The entire force tbh. And abandonment issues is where he gets his unchecked rage, he, in canon, is quite literally triggered into a rage whenever he confronts someone who he felt abandoned him, or when he feels rejected or left behind. Finally he is a victim of Brainwashing and indoctrination from Snoke. Snoke is a narcissist who was using Kylo as a means to an end, it's been stated and shown that he was ready to kill Kylo after the Last Jedi since he had become unbalanced and unpredictable. If you don't agree with what I am saying here (Which is fine :) ), then I suggest you don't play with me. I am fairly confident in this being the way I see and play Kylo.

I play him as having triggers. I won't get into the reasoning behind each one, but i'll specify the specifics which come to mind: Abandonment (Perceived or real), his family, loss of control (Physically, emotionally, mentally, through the force)

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Where's the drinking milk from space sea cow tiddies tho

[vaderstan]

[ Asshole. That thought should ring across the bond loudly. And while Luke can't hear it, it's clearly written on Ben's face.

'After you started growing hair on your face you've never been any fun.'

Ben's just going to sigh and roll his eyes dramatically. ]

I'm getting a message from-- someone, it's nothing to worry about.

[ Honestly, she seemed kinda hype about Luke Skywalker and if she's not going to come along-- better to not ruin her image of this larger than life hero tbh.

'Oh, you're delegating me to "someone" now? A little harsh.'

I have decided that Everyone has the best banter with Ben Solo tbh. He is such a wet blanket by god why do I play this fool? ]

here's dad feels instead

[forcevisions]

A message?

[ Rey looks him over. He doesn't even have a datapad out, let alone any other kind of comm device. The suspicion is written all across her face, but … he doesn't seem to be lying. She gestures with the tool she pulls from the pouch on her belt into the hallway. ]

Well, could you take it out there? I'm trying to concentrate.

[ Luke takes this opportunity to point out, 'Just like Han. You open your mouth and you've already got a woman mad about something.' ]

And now I get to give you fanfic entitled "what could have happened if people just talked in swars"

[vaderstan]

[ Screaming internally to be honest. Well At least Luke isn't making jokes about him being intimate with a child.

He'll just silently move his huge Wampa ass out further-- Luke patiently following him-- Well not before cracking out a loud:

'You got him trained this quick, you're following in the footsteps of my sister.'

Ah. Good. There's the implication of him wanting to be intimate with a child. He hates his family. So much. Maybe he should systematically murder them. One by one. In a trilogy. That would be neat.

He exits out into a slight opening away from Rey and her OSHA breaking habits and just exhales a huff and looks back to him. Almost expectantly.

'Don't give me that look, you're the one who called me, remember?'


...Right. Cool. How does he even start this conversation. ]

Something strange happened.

[ 'Have anything to do with that girl?'

Ben looks up, alarmed at first, like. Worried that his father somehow got to Luke first-- but no. That's impossible.

'Stop panicking, the fact that she could hear me is proof enough somethings goin' on.'

Ben's... still awkward, trying to figure out how to be in front of his Uncle right now. But fortunately Luke knows well enough to not push that right now. His nephew didn't come to him for stilted apologies or vague explanations. He was the type to ruminate on a situation and if it was out of his hands he'd seek council. ]

I bumped into her and-- it's like we're in each other's minds. It doesn't make sense. We keep seeing visions when we touch.

[ Luke crosses his arms a bit impatiently and huffs-

'Yeah? Then stop touching her.'

Did he really need to explain Forcebonds to this kid? He already had a full lecture on them and-- ]

She has the same darkness.

[ That causes Luke to hesitate. He looks to where his students are working through some of the training he's given them-- a look of concern crossing his features before he looks back to Ben.

'Tell me everything.' ]

meanwhile tifa ruins everything

[forcevisions]

[ Rey rotates the hyperdrive. It's a whirring thing that churns and wheezes as it sloughs off decades of sand and dead insects that had crawled its way into this beautiful ship's guts. She does it gingerly, as though loving this old machine she'd just met today. And she keeps it spinning, trying to loosen all the guts up manually while it's going at a reasonable speed and not, well, hyperspeed.

It drowns out the sound of the conversation in the hallway, and she's glad of it.

Just like Han.

She'd heard that. Who was that? The voice sounded so familiar, but still so — She can't put her finger on it. She tries to shut out the distractions, the ambient noise, Ben's low timber that she finds herself liking just a little too well. It's a comfort.

That's because he'd comforted you, stupid, she thinks to herself. The hyperdrive sounds clear after a few seconds, so she stops it, and she hears —

'She has the same darkness.'

Rey prickles and whips her head around to look behind her. Ben is telling someone about her? Suddenly she feels the need to hug herself protectively. It wasn't fair that he could pass it around as he saw fit. It wasn't fair at all. She'd kept his secret for Han, and now — Who was he talking to? His mother? His …

Uncle? Just like Han. Was that Luke Skywalker's voice she'd heard? Her heart pounds in her chest.

No. None of her business. He'd have invited her to the conversation if he wanted her to be any part of it. Some other part of her insists that he should have thought of that before talking about her right outside the engineering bay she was working in.

She feels distant from him for the first time since they've met, recognizes how insignificant she is to him, how much of a life he has outside of here. And in swells the cold, the shadow. The darkness he speaks of. It comes in a whisper, barely even audible to her, so far off.

'They're going to convince him to leave you.' It doesn't matter who 'they' are. Han, Chewie, if that really is his Uncle he's talking to. The voice is certain. 'It won't be hard. You're nothing to them.' ]

I mean look at the title of the musebox. Again. It's expected in these parts

[vaderstan]

[ He opens his mouth to expand, to say something-- but that's the thing about this bond.

He feels it too-- ]

You can't feel that?

[ 'Ben, what are you talking about?'

It's as if the light outside doesn't exist. It's inky and dark and usually... his thoughts darken as well. But it doesn't come this time-- ]

Rey!

[ Luke shouts after him and at this point he can't hear it. It's not important. She is. There is Definitely sock sliding down the halls this time. Mixed with a side of slamming into a wall because he's in tight quarters and worried and someone is using them both. He's sure of this now. Someone who rivaled Luke Skywalker in strength.

That clarity brings with it strength. Strength Ben Solo never thought himself possible of. But when he carts his ass to the engineering bay-- he sees it for the first time.

Their darkness.

A specter floating above her and whispering into her ear. ]

Rey--!

[ Don't do something dramatic and dumb like--


I forgot I was talking about one of the Skywalkers. He's gonna do something dramatic and dumb like wrap his arms around her. At least he's not pulling out his lightsaber. ]

tru

[forcevisions]

[ Relief floods her as two arms close around her from behind, and Rey leans away from the hyperdrive and reaches up to hold him there, eyes shut. Every inch of her covered still by her scavenging gear, she is able to hide the pain in her expression. It's a pain that comes from fear and guilt — that she should be so attached to this though it's so brief, that he would need to forget what he was doing and cradle her.

She turns and throws herself into his arms, pulling him against her. It's just them now; no Luke, no darkness. One hand lets go of him to pull her mask away — goggles first, then nose and mouth cover, and she does it so she can burrow her face against his neck.

No visions this time. Just their breathing, amplified, funneled and twisted through the Force. Like this moment between the two of them is hyperreal, defined by their contact. It's an addictive thing. She had gone so long without anyone, so long without touch. He was the first one in — in years. She aches for it now, sorry for his gloves, glad for the strip of skin at his neck, poking above his collar.

She's greedy. Greedy and starved. And though his presence, his light, chases the darkness away for the moment, its roots are chased deeper into her, curling and hooking in.

She has something to lose now. ]

It's alright. [ She runs her hand over his back, as though she needs to reassure him. ] I'm okay. Really. I — [ Why is he holding her? Hadn't he — Isn't he afraid of that darkness too? Isn't that why he's telling someone about her? Figuring out what should be done with her? Shuddering, wide-eyed and fearful, she pulls back to look up at him. She doesn't know how to put it to words, not quite, but she wrestles and — ] Did I do something wrong?

[vaderstan]

[ She hadn't seen it-- nor sensed it. And of course it makes sense. Things start to pile up and together and-- All this time. All this pain and discontent and uncertainty that had plagued him. It wasn't him?

The thought should give him freedom, but it doesn't. It makes him question everything, himself, his family-- why hadn't anyone known? Or investigated? What had Luke been doing all that time? His mother hadn't sensed anything wrong? And-- these are all questions for another time. He can't get lost in them.

He pulls her closer because for now that seems to tuck her away from whatever was haunting them. She's so slight in his arms and-- he realizes she's a hardy thing. He'd seen the way she'd bashed Plutt's head in and knew her way around these wrecks, but in this moment she feels fragile.

He pulls back to get a better look at her and-- Oh. Oh here was the shit we were talking about????

Oh no.

I'll let you write it all out in your head because it's flowery and gross and Ben is horrified at me even typing it about a 14 year old girl. I will let The Knack do the talkin'. I want you to appreciate. How long. I've been wanting to bust out that song.

Though her question shocks him out of any My Sharona thoughts. ]

No-- [ It's quick and low and ??????? ] -- No, of course not.

[ She was literally just... standing there, helping him and his dumb ass father and wookiee uncle out. She hadn't done anything wrong. And all at once between her racing mind and his own experience it begins to click into place: ]

You don't think I'm a monster-- I'm not afraid of you.

things i learned in this thread: my sharona is about creepin on a younger girl

[forcevisions]

[ She's slight in his arms. She had not been able to take notice of it last night, when she was shaking out of that nightmare, trembling, afraid. She notices now. He's a broad, sculpture of a man and she fits like a doll against him, tiny by contrast if not by nature. She feels as small next to him as she does next to the star destroyers buried in the sands here.

But that's not the point. He's reassuring her. That's the point. Some part of her resists believing him even though she can feel that he's not deceiving her. It's a paranoia, something deep and doubtful in the back of her mind that wants her to believe he might still leave.

It's not her, though. She forces it away, so alien as it is to her. She believes in hope. Ben had told her he cared about her, that he wanted to help her. He wasn't going to just leave. No one would convince him of that. She would be ridiculous to worry about that. ]

I heard you talking.

[ Her mouth feels dry as she says it. ]

You were warning someone about me.

Lets just say 16 year old nai used this song in a au fanfic with a student/teacher dynamic. A lot.

[vaderstan]

[ He resists the urge to brush away hair that isn't in her face from her eyes. He resists the urge to run his thumb across her cheek. He's resisting a lot of urges right now and it's.


Really confusing.

oh no what if his father was totally right about him actually being a creep?????

Okay But. Seriously. Not his main concern tho. Probably will be tonight, in the dark. With her curled up sleeping a few feet away from him. But you know. It's cool. Whatever. ]

I'm sorry-- [ Apology first. Good boy. ] -- I didn't realize he-- [ Shit-- no not just "he" ] My uncle showed up.

[ Quite. Literally. ]

I wasn't warning him, I wanted to try and get his thoughts on what's happening to us.

[ -- Actually. Where the fuck did his uncle go.

It's now only occurring to Ben that while he did Step Out of the conversation really quickly, it would be insane that his uncle's power could have been cut off so easily.

And you know. He's thinking it's the darkness


when really it's just their bond. ]

what i'm hearing is 16-year-old nai was on the same shit back then

[forcevisions]

[ His uncle? Luke Skywalker had been here? And one of the first things he'd learned about her before ever meeting her was of this creeping darkness that she felt to blame for? She'd wanted that, though. She'd wanted Skywalker's thoughts, a way to stop this. A way to turn it all off. But now she's realizing that all of this goes away, if she does. Ben. Chewie. Han. Every decent thing that has suddenly crashed into her life, and she doesn't want to give it up.

She clings to him still, her arms loose around his shoulders, one hand planted on the back of his neck as though she intends to pull him back in at any moment. She doesn't, though. Instead, she seems to be catching her breath. What had winded her in the first place? Unclear. ]

Stay here with me while I get the parts. [ It all comes out at once after a pregnant pause. She has to force out the request because she is afraid he'll refuse. Quickly, she comes up with an explanation, ] You said you'd teach me. You can explain while I work. [ Another beat. ] Please.

I mean. The pairing was way different tho. It was Sakura/Syaoran from CCS..... But yeah same shit

[vaderstan]

[ You know out of all this. Out of the excessive touching and holding and winded breathlessness like she'd just seen him Shirtless for the first time and the sudden spoken WANT for him to stay there with her--


It's the "please" that throws him off.


Like. No offense but Rey didn't seem the "please" type. And not just in a "she's a teenager and they are shitty people" type way, but just as a Person she doesn't say please. ]

Yeah. [ DANGER DANGER. He comes to the realization that one of his hands hands founds it's way into the baby fine hair on her neck. DANGER DANGER. That guitar riff is starting up hard right now. This is so much harder to navigate with this and he didn't even get to explain to Luke the weirdness of this. Like. He's not attracted to kids. He doesn't think he's attracted to kids. He never saw any other young teenagers these days and thought "yeah that seems like something I would want naked"

Wait. Naked?

SHIT. NO BEN SOLO.

She's getting all worried about whether he wants her around at all when he's clearly been telegraphing it. And now he's getting freaked out by his attraction to her. SMDH. I'm still gonna be pissed if they make it to sex before 268 tbh.

He, gently, pulls a bit more away from her. Hands on her shoulders and trying not to be stilted about pushing himself away from her, he runs them over her shoulders. Is that normal??? Oh my god. Now he wishes he paid more attention to Luke??? DID ANYONE IN HIS FAMILY KNOW HEALTHY BOUNDARIES????

I am laughing because I didn't intend for this to get so long but you know. Whooops ] Of course. I'd get lost trying to get back.

[ Good use of humor to diffuse a situation, Solo. A+++ ] It's just like I said yesterday, first you need to work to clear your mind.

i feel like i shouldn't be surprised but i am

[forcevisions]

[ He jokes, but honestly … Rey is glad that he wouldn't know his way back. It's very healthy and not at all possessive and a little weird. : ) He needs her. He can't leave her if he needs her. Rey notices that he has grown tense around her, though, wrestling with something. Stiff. His hands brush over the cloth covering her shoulders, her arms. ]

I don't think you need to wear those anymore.

[ She tells him of his gloves, looking pointedly at them. ]

I touched you, and we were fine.

[ Maybe they were in more control. Maybe they were more in sync. Maybe Luke's presence had tempered it, and the connection had been swallowed in the effort of shutting him out. Regardless, Rey doesn't wait for him to remove them to turn around and get back to what she was doing.

She's not good at sentimental. Working on this gives her something to keep her occupied, and it helps to clear her mind. Working on the hyperdrive is mindless in that way. ]

What do you focus on to clear your mind?

Again. Pride and Prejudice, just with 10 year old asian kids and magic cards

[vaderstan]

( also. Quick personal theory of mine. Card captor Sakura fans are the most pent up fans of all time because we have been waiting for those two to kiss FOR DECADES )

[ You know what's gonna be great tho?

He's gonna be so uncomfortable about those Rey being his main Squeeze jokes now that Han is gonna lay off of them. You know. Right as Ben is at a critical Tipping point.

Okay. Well. It doesn't matter. Because Rey is not into him. He sees no reason for her to be into him. Like she digs his family but he is practically ancient to her. She would definitely like other kids her age, maYBE THERES A FEW NEAR LUKES HIPPIE CAMP THAT SHE CAN MEET. It will be great and he can bury these feelings and maybe wonder Why he is so messed up whenever he gets back to normal.


As if he ever had a normal.

Gloves. Right. He can work with that. And she's right. They'd been okay the last few times. She's okay, not screaming or crying. This time. So. His fingers pick at one glove and then the next. He pairs them together gently and folds them up to shove them in the pocket of the vest he's wearing and observes her quietly at work. ]

The ocean some times. [ Though-- he realizes to a girl who lives on a desert planet that's a bad example.

A long with his other examples of his mother singing to him-- or laying asleep in the falcon as a child-

Shit. Happy childhood memories. Trigger warning for Rey of Jakku tbh. ] Moments I found peace in when I was younger. Sometimes just my breathing-- or the specific goal I'm setting myself to accomplish.

[ Of course there's introducing her to the Force more formally. But right now with the dark presence lurking over the both of them, he has a feeling talking about the light and dark would go over poorly. Just as poorly as his first time went. Or her first time as well tbh ]

i accept your theory

[forcevisions]

Maybe you should start thinking about the ocean, then.

[ She glances at him over her shoulder. Which sounds fine, but when you factor in that she has gotten back on her hands and knees to get into the guts of the hyper drive and remove a component that rotating it has revealed, it's just close enough to an imitation of something sultry to be uncomfortable. It's narrowly saved by the skeptical look on her face.

He's tense. She can feel that he's uncomfortable. He clearly could use another lesson or two about clearing his mind, though she's not experienced enough (thank GOD) to parse what's distracting him.

She gets to work then, unbolting a component so she can get it out of her way. It's really cranked tight, though, so she has to turn back away from him and Let the Sass Die so she can put her back into it. There's grunting involved, but the bolts come loose and she hauls this huge metal behemoth of a casing off and tosses it aside.

All that material, wasted on a casing. But what she wants is inside. ]

[vaderstan]

[ You know every time Kylo Ren thinks why didn't he meet Rey sooner in his life?????


This is why.

This right here.

He is so confused how Rey goes from trying to mold herself to his side to throwing some major shade at him in like. One tag flat but let me tell you the answer Ben Solo: Tsundere. Repeat after me. Tsundere.

Anyhow, that's not his main concern at the moment. His main concern is... well... Beyond the fact that REY IS JUST FREELY ROLLING AROUND IN THE GUTS OF A SHIP WHICH POSSIBLY KILL HER??? Child slavery is no joke in these parts. But the darkness concerns him. And specifically ruminating on it isn't going to do any good. It seemed ready to move in swiftly, way too swiftly for his liking. At this point it's looking as though staying here with Rey was the best decision to make.


In the meantime, he is Not going to grab himself an eyeful of underage ass. Nope. He'll just turn to the side so he dos not contemplate under age ass and add to all of his problems. ]

I thought I was teaching you.

[ Thanks sass master. He'll just stand over here and think of his dumb fucking ocean himself. ]

[forcevisions]

You seem tense, Master Jedi.

[ She offers no further explanation than this. A moment later literally her entire upper body disappears into the guts of the hyperdrive with her hydrospanner, and her banging around echoes around in it. Maybe she'll hear him if he replies???

Regardless she seems to be taking his advice. Focusing on her breathing, slowing it, calming it, embracing the monotony of the task. It has worked for her thus far, so it makes sense, and she has no fond memories. Total presence, perfect self-examination in the moment, this will work for her.

A distant thought distracts her that maybe, eventually, she'll be able to think on moments with him as times she found peace. That moment in the Falcon for example, last night, when he'd held her. But that wasn't exactly peace. Something had simmered beneath the surface of that interaction. She doesn't let it preoccupy her too much.

This ridiculous family has been the only positive influence her life has seen. She's not going to ruin it by examining it too closely. ]

not fun facts: Ellie and I just realized leia may have felt everything in our thread thru the force.

[vaderstan]

[ ???Who gave her the right to sass him so much. He's just sitting here, keeping her company, chasing away monsters in the dark, and she's just a sass machine. Though, does he really mind it?

Not really.

People tended to keep away from him. Either put off by his gloomy attitude or by the prestige of his name and family.

He makes a noise. Sucking through his teeth and a bit bewildered. ]

I'm no where near being a master.

[ It's strange, he notes, the voice which used to whisper that he could be more powerful than any jedi has grown so much weaker. He's not sure when or why-- he wishes he had paid more attention to it now. ]

LEAVE LEIA ALONE

[forcevisions]

And you're deflecting. That's a bad combination.

[ Tense and deflecting. She's not going to touch upon whether or not he's a master. Honestly, she'd prefer that he was so that he could teach her and she wouldn't have to go see Luke. Now that Ben has warned him about her — and it does feel like a warning — she's worried about the exact perception Ben had reported his own father having about him.

Not to mention there is of course that voice gnawing at the back of her mind telling her not to actively pursue the question of her family lest she be disappointed. In her bones she knows that she and Ben aren't related, but her conscious mind is entertaining it despite all reservations because her ache to belong is equally powerful as her need to delude herself.

It's a big yikes.

Alright, so maybe she's the one really side-stepping here, nagging him instead of engaging her own bullshit. But she's able to keep a clear head with no bullshit bothering her at all while she's working, so it feels easy to put it all off on him. ]

What's the matter? Was it something Skywalker said?

OMG SHES THE ONE WHO BROUGHT LEIA UP. I JUST POINTED OUT THE OBVIOUS

[vaderstan]

[ His brow furrows and he can't decide whether he's okay or not with the fact that they can read one another so easily. Or the fact that it's just gotten stronger after they shared that moment and Maybe. That's what pushed Luke out.

He shifts on his feet behind her, plucking his lightsaber from his belt and examining the hilt. Keeping his mind busy on wondering which modifications to test out. ]

Did you not hear him compare me to my father?

[ Still a deflection. But really-- ]

Nothing he said disturbed me that deeply. We hardly had a real chance to talk.

LET HER LIVE

[forcevisions]

I only heard bits and pieces.

[ Her voice echoes around inside the hyperdrive's shell, making her sound further away than she is. A few grunts come next, then a loud clang as something comes loose. She wiggles a little to start pulling herself free of the mess of moving parts that she has burrowed her way into, and when she's free, she has covered herself in black streaks of engine grease and she holds up a capacitor for him to take. ]

Speaking of your father ... That's half our problems solved. The rest will be worse, though. We need to cut the fuel lines off this thing and borrow the whole lines to make up for the places where the Falcon's were punctured, plus the injector system.

[ She wipes the back of her glove across her mouth, smearing away sweat. ]

We should get it to Chewie. You'll be able to leave sooner if we get them working on this part now, and all help with the fuel lines tonight.

OH SHES ALIVE. SHES ALIVE AND PROBABLY READY TO RAMBO

[vaderstan]

[ Well. At least he was not looking at her wiggling out because he may have been tempted to grab her hips and pull her out. Which. As much as we are joking about everything, is the carcass of a long dead freighter really a good location for first time fucking?

Don't u try to fukkin do it I swear to god.

He glances to the part and back to her and realizes how much he is in the need of a fucking shower right now but takes it from her gingerly. ]

I thought you said I didn't need my gloves anymore.

[ What a goddamn neat freak tbh. But it's not like he expected to stay clean working on a ship so. whatever. He'll get gross. Take a shower later. It'll be fine.

And you know before she has any time to misinterpret that about her being gross and disgusting when it's really just him worrying about himself, he's going to just divert the subject. ]

You still haven't decided whether you want to come with us or not?

[ Stop. Stop asking her to join you. Have you seen the movies? THIS DOESNT WORK. ]

i mean probably

[forcevisions]

[ 'don't try to do it,' you say, as if we aren't only 170 comments in. i have standards, ok. she's fourteen.

it'll be at least another hundred comments.

anyway.

For a minute she's genuinely perplexed by the fact that he thinks he needs his gloves for that ?? Like. Dude. Dude. But she doesn't get a chance to comment on it anyway because he's bringing up a worse topic like whether she's sticking around or not.

She looks uneasy. Genuinely uneasy. She's been grappling with this and she doesn't have a good answer. Like, at all. She's been avoiding thinking about it, honestly. More now that she feels like she wants to avoid Skywalker on account of not wanting to get that Look. ]

So far your Jedi wisdom has amounted to "clear your mind." [ She looks at him. ] I'm not convinced you can help me, even if I come with you.

[ Yes. This is easier than confronting real issues of her abandonment. She heads into the hall of the freighter and starts back towards the entrance they'd made for themselves. It's the only source of light at this point, so it's easy to head towards. ]

We can take a break. Drink some water, give Chewie the part to fix the hyperdrive, and you can tell me more about the Force and the Jedi.

Honestly she woulda been an asset if Rey had brought her along but she wants dibs on nut removal

[vaderstan]

[ I mean, to be fair. He is also avoiding telling her that her parents are dead and that she's definitely being stalked by someone who is potentially more OP than Luke Skywalker and by the way it's probably his fault.


I mean.

This is all not to mention the fact that he's thinking maybe he needs to make himself more suspeptible to save her? Would that be worth the sacrifice? It's so fucking dumb, but it's also pretty skywalker. Yeah Sure Kylo. You should totally go turn yourself into a predator perverted weirdo in a gold robe with horrendously elaborate shoes and join daft punk for a few years because that will stop this girl who you have just met and who is inexplicably tied to you from getting involved. Not like I've been watching that movie for the past few years.

Anyway, this is all to underline the point that he's not sure what to do with her because he's not sure she wants any of this in the first place.

But maybe that's something he needs to confront with himself. With his father as well.

Following her now. Not a wookiee, but a tiny child. He keeps reminding himself of that. ]

I can promise you, it's all much more boring than any story makes it sound. There's a lot of lifting rocks and clearing your mind.

[ At least. Like. Twice a day.

I mean. IDK I guess extra material could come out to make it Super exciting, but given what i know about any sport/martial art/anything that takes time to master and practice, I'm sorry Rey. It's all lifting rocks and clearing your mind and then you can stop lasers in mid air and get the best line to your Dark User with Benefits. ]

which, fair

[forcevisions]

Are you sure you actually want me to come with you? You're not making a very convincing case.

[ This is delivered bluntly. Out of anyone else, it might be a joke, but Rey is very serious. At this point she feels pretty confident in saying that he's not entirely sold on it himself right now — as a result, his efforts to evangelize her feel … lacking. Soulless. She surveys him, partly in skepticism and partly in measure of his abilities.

And there's something else there too.

She's realizing that this daily routine — scavenging, scrapping parts — it's all more doable with company. This doesn't feel half as agonizing. Partly because of the conversation, partly because now that she's done the hard work of removing it, he can be the one to carry the component.

It's hard to balance that with her uncertainty about joining him. His presence matters to her, makes her life a little bit better in ways she can't help but notice, yet she's not sure that anything he's actually offering is right for her at all because of all their mutual hang-ups. What a wild ride. ]

Maybe you should just stay here instead.

SHould i apologize for this tag?

[vaderstan]

[ Okay first off, lets appreciate how badly a conversation about staying on Jakku would go with Han and Chewie. They'd probably literally knock him out and tie him to the ship.

Wow that wouldn't be traumatic at all right????

Anywho... he sort of realizes now like


He hasn't been making his case.

He hasn't because he's in a weird spot himself. A spot where like, at least at jedi camp he'd felt like he was doing something, but now he's not and he wasn't sure why. But now maybe he's cracked a mystery. And like it seemed like a dumb mystery at first. Just: "Yeah Ben Solo. Of course you're evil. You were related to Darth Vader this entire time" sort of mystery.


But now it's much more grave and-- Not gonna lie, he's hesitant because if something is getting something over on his Uncle he's not sure how he can take it on. Like. What is he gonna do, just chop someone in half with a lightsaber.

But all of that-- Even with all of that... in spite of, because of-- whatever. It doesn't matter.

Something is pulling them together.

It's not even about how he's starting to see how she could be beautiful even covered in grime and he likes???? touching her. This was something bigger than all of that and-- big steps. Big steps foward and he'll tug her arm so she's facing him. The light is dim, he's biting back those churning emotions that aren't helping him right now. Straight into her eyes. ]

I want you with me when we leave. [ Oh. ] All of this-- [ The bond, the darkness, everything between them ]-- could mean nothing, and we can keep working with my father, and you get paid a fair wage for the work you do.

[ Because-- Okay even if Han is shifty about her. He's Not gonna like leaving a child slave in the hands of Unkar Plutt. ]

But if it does mean something, we can figure it out together.

[ ?????? Ben ?/ /? Solo?/?/ /??? you CAN'T just SAY THAT SHIT TO FOURTEEN YEAR OLD GIRLS??//? ? ??/ ???/ ]